Psalm 40:3
“He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.”
Conversation
My Papa. I love You and I adore You. I lift up Your name, high above every other name. You are my King of kings!
I hear you My daughter, and I love you.
Papa, draw me nearer into Your heart. I want to start running in what You have for me. I don’t want to hold back at all. Help me run through every difficulty ahead because I know You see me, You know me, you are near to me, and I fully trust You Papa. So help me not hold back from You. Papa, do You have a word for me today?
I do. You are Mine. The time is near; draw near to Me and I will draw you near.
Okay Papa. I trust in You and I’m resting in You. Thank-you for drawing me near to You today.
You’re welcome My faithful one.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
This is post #531!! God gave me a dream last night where I was standing in a house, talking with someone who was a few feet in front of me. I had vaguely seen a master bedroom with light in it up in the attic that I wanted to move into with Jesus my husband. The man that I was talking to said that it was better if we took the room in the basement instead. The feeling I had in my dream about that bedroom was that it didn’t have any windows and was dark. In my dream I felt like we had no choice but needed to take the basement bedroom.
Then I was in the car with Bella, and the car was free-falling in a really big, deep hole in the ground. I saw black stuff around in my dream and I’m not sure if they were bugs. As the car was falling (not bumping into anything, just free-falling), Bella and I were lifted off of our seats and were floating in the air inside the car. Bella was in the lower part of the car and we were holding out one of our hands, desperately trying to reach each other. I saw our hands and fingers coming closer and closer together and were nearly touching when the dream ended.
I know that the hole represents difficulty. I also know that even though the difficulty is coming, I’m determined to embrace the difficulty because God knows exactly where I am/where we are, and is directing our steps. I know that I am never alone and never will be alone, and this brings me so much comfort. Awhile back I was told in a dream that I was going to have a heart attack. Yesterday I was watching Ana Werner with her guest speaker Joan Hunter (I haven’t watched the whole thing yet, almost two hours long), and she was talking about having broken heart syndrome (which can kill you) where, because of so much trauma, its like the octopus theory where the eight tentacles wrap around your heart and squeeze the very life out of your heart. It causes fluid around the heart and feels like a heart attack. I’ve heard before that people have died from having a broken heart and I’m thinking that the dream where I was told that I am going to have a heart attack, was referring to this. PAPA PLEASE HELP ME! I’m thinking that God is making a way out for me so that I don’t have to be in that place of living in the attic (attic/attack-heart attack/trauma). Instead it’s better for me to be in the place of another kind of difficulty, which is God’s plan for me, for us. I know that I can never walk in my calling without God and the anointing of the Holy Spirit, and I also cannot live in difficulties without Him. So I’m clinging onto God my Papa and grasping onto Jesus’ hand. Yes Jesus, I accept, I want everything you have for me; being a pastor in whatever context God wants/marrying people, teaching/prophet/prophetic gifts; God’s plans for me are far greater than any plan I could dream up for myself!
Years ago I had a dream where I was driving along a highway, and as I looked to the row of houses along the highway, a bit of distance away, it was like the front wall of every house disappeared and I could see into the bedrooms of every couple’s house; I saw each unmade queen/king size bed in every home. I’m thinking this has something to do with the prophetic that God is leading me into. I really want to speak and pray prophetically, and I’m excited that the Holy Spirit is leading me in that direction! Apparently!! Yesterday I noticed that the debit machine had a T7 on it, and it reminded me of the T1 I had seen in a dream or heard in my heart just before waking up (last week I think). Now I’m wondering which debit machine has a T1. Alright, many blessings to you…☕️
December 1: Last night I woke up at 3:13 with these lyrics in my heart, “Praise the Lord, oh my soul! Praise the Lord, oh my soul! I won’t be quiet my God is alive, how could I keep it inside! My God is with me I know He’s alive, how could I keep it inside! Praise the Lord, oh my soul! Praise the Lord, oh my soul!” And I kept on seeing 44 after the hours yesterday.. Today I ran a few errands in the city. My friend and I are going to the States on the 16th! I had a dream last night that I was in a busy kitchen, and I saw a broken egg yoke on the counter. I’m thinking that a ‘yoke’ that was on me has broken off? Or maybe it’s the yoke that God put on me (“My yoke is easy, my burden is light”) to carry for an amount of time is done now? The feeling I had in my dream wasn’t sad or heavy that it was broken, it was just a knowing. I really wanted to work on my message today.. hopefully I’ll have time this afternoon when I get back. I’m going for coffee with my sister tonight. A few days ago when I was putting all my photos and videos onto my Ipad, I saw a few photos I had taken awhile back. One of them was about the process that God leads us through as He’s growing us up in Him, and that’s when I was reminded that God is leading me in a time of testing right now. I’m not sure if this is done now because I saw the broken egg yoke? But in any case, I’m following Him no matter what! We finished watching the Narnia movie last night, and I was surprised to see that the remaining time that was left to watch (from last time) was 51:44.. which is 6:44, and 51 being the other obvious thing; time passes by so quickly! 7 years ago I also had long darker hair.. I just realized that I was 44 then! Blessings ☺️