“Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbour as yourself.” Mark 12:30-31
Conversation
Papa, I love You so much. You are my life, my first love and my hope. I know that all things work together for good.
My daughter, I love you. Come and rest, you are Mine.
Papa, I trust You.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
April 22: 2:50
2:52 “Joseph Herscher”
4:30
5:20 “..from the darkness into Your glorious light..”
7:03 “gift bag”
I’m doing well. I’m thankful to be here. My kids came yesterday and today; they brought Thai soup, a nice surprise. Blessings…
April 23: 12:46. A vision of someone drawing a line through a list like they do at Costco (Proof of purchase). There was something else, maybe another list? I’m not sure.
12:59 A vision of a woman; She had black pantyhose on.
1:09 I heard something about going home. I think I saw my dad wearing a striped shirt (thick dark coloured stripes), coming into the door or something, though he didn’t look like my dad.
1:16 “you just got married” “not getting anywhere?” I think I saw a picture of a lady wearing a short white dress.
3:04 “Thank you Jesus you have washed me white”
4:05 “Brought me from the darkness into glorious light.”
5:29 “slowly get back into doing things”
Nectar (This was a sense I got while laying in bed unable to sleep)
7:50 I saw a flowery backpack and a purse on a table, and I was about to pick it up and leave to go somewhere.
Vision or dream of seeing someone cleaning the toilet seat, cleaning the outer rim. Also seeing a newborn baby in a plexiglass box, being fed through an opening with a bottle. Also a dream, seeing a person in white coming to check on me.
8:27 In a dream or vision I saw an orange backpack.
I had a dream where there was a high school classroom on a big screen in front of me on a zoom call. The teacher was saying something to the class. I think it was Lucas’ classroom. She said something about someone staying home from school, saying it in a way that it wasn’t good. Then I quickly raised my hand to say that Lucas stayed home from school and she looked at me and then I felt like, wow, she was actually seeing me. After I said that Lucas stayed home from school I was also going to say that they told him he needed to stay home from school, but in my dream I didn’t say it.
10:17 (I saw 10:18 but I didn’t look at the time right away) “You love me still, and I know you always will”
April 24: 4:05 A dream of someone sitting at the craft table drawing something with a black marker .
4:19 “silver stopper” (I heard the word, silver in my heart right before waking up and I sensed the word, stopper.)
4:46 “my daughter come, rest.”
4:58 “into glorious light”
I dreamt that I was in a really high place and someone fell and landed on a trampoline and bounced right back up. I tried catching her but I couldn’t and she ended up staying on the ground. I heard her yelling up to me that she was okay.
Another scene where I had put two shirts on a hanger because I couldn’t find the other hanger. Then I found it hanging low on a rack and saw the hanger was black. Someone had taken the shirt and I was going to put it back onto the hanger.
Another scene where I was holding onto a girl who had begun to fall; I was holding onto her clothing and I was trying to bring her back up with one arm but she was too heavy.
1:08 “Marry you” (I was meditating and fell asleep and I heard this in my heart right before waking up. I’ve been feeling a bit heavy at heart so hearing this from the Lord is so encouraging…)
April 25: 2:41 “Brought me from the darkness into glorious light”
3:34 “Brought me from the darkness into glorious light”
4:27 “You’ve saved my life… brought me from the darkness into glorious light.”
4:32 “watch” (I saw the colour light blue)
5:22 In my dream Bella was a toddler. We were home I think and when she saw a van coming she went onto something to see it better and watched it drive by. She was excited to see the van (I saw the three rows in the van). I recognized our neighbours in the van as they drove by, seeing only one person in the back of the van. Then the scene changed where I was on a beach, watching a vehicle that was parked in the sand, facing the beach (the back of the truck was kind of in the water). The front of the truck had sunk deep into the sand and yet the two people who were in the truck were just sitting there watching the scenery. Then I noticed another vehicle had parked beside that one and the same thing had happened to it. Then I noticed there were many others in the same predicament, all along the beach. Then the scene changed where I saw that I was in our truck in the same predicament and my two kids were in the truck with me. Then all of a sudden there was a huge wave that crashed onto the windshield and the truck began to quickly sink into the water. I saw the truck was filling with water quickly and was nearly all filled when I decided that we needed to get out of the truck. I opened the door just in time and grabbed my kids to go out. Then the scene changed; I had put my kids onto a platform that was about as high as my shoulders. I saw them both laying there, seeing their healthy skin (and seeing the colour of their skin). I saw they were both alive. Then their dad came (he was working on the platform) and was happy to see them. I was telling him about what happened and he acted like I wasn’t even there. I’m thinking this dream represents that I’ve come through something difficult, pushed through it, and now I’m on the other side of it. Blessings… 🩵
April 26: 1:07 “Now we’re all better.”
1:14 “Triumphant”
2:38 From the darkness into glorious light.
4:27 from the darkness into glorious light.
5:16 “Into glorious light”
5:18 “on our own”
620 “fully awake in Him”
658 “Thy hands have trust”
728 “So you can set it up.” A clear vision of a woman wearing a black shirt and black sunglasses. She said this while looking at me.
I had a dream where I was on one side of Lucas and the girl he liked was on the other side. He had an arm on both of our shoulders and I thought I’d give him privacy because their relationship was new and official so I took his arm off of me so he could focus on her. Then I was telling them they could go out on dates but they couldn’t be intimate physically until after they were married. Then I noticed she was laying down and resting close to him. I knew they were both there but I didn’t see her until she moved. Then he became shy and asked if I needed to tell them this together. I had a feeling like he was shy about it so he wanted me to tell him when I was just with him.
Then there was a scene with a crocodile in some water. I thought a child had gone underneath some stairs or something and I knew the crocodile was nearby. So I looked underneath the stairs and didn’t see the child so he must not have gone. The crocodile was white. Then I noticed the crocodile come closer to me and I was afraid that it would hurt me so I began walking away from it. Another scene where a crocodile and a child were in the same boat and I was worried about the child’s safety. The crocodile was on one side and someone was putting the child on the other side. And I think it was balanced.
Blessings…🙏🏼
April 27: 1:25 “So do you feel…”
2:09 I promise you I’ll put it away
6:00 (I think) I had a dream where there was some water on a long channel and I was pumping (like I was skiing) as I was moving along it. There were people cheering me on as I went faster and faster. I think I made it to the end as I passed people.
I remembered that I dreamt I was wearing all white and I was wearing my white converse shoes. I looked down and saw dirty water in front of me. I had a thought of not wanting to get my shoes and clothes dirty by going into it but I stepped into it and I vaguely remember amercing myself completely in it. Then I vaguely remember walking around in my white clothing and white converse shoes, knowing that m clothes and shoes were still white. I believe this represents that I’ve been washed white, having confessed that I was a sinner and I believe in my heart that Jesus died and rose again on the third day for me, for everyone, and I commit my heart and my life to Jesus and will follow Him all the days of my life…
10:30 “Okay let’s see what’s behind that veil.”🫰🏼I heard this clearly in my heart right before waking up (I slept until then, but I prayed a little downstairs last night).