“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7
Conversation
I love You Papa. Thank You for showing me where I was wrong. Thank You for correcting my steps and for learning my vision. I worship You Lord. I just had a feeling like You didn’t want my blessing (I was going to write “I bless You Lord”). You’ve already forgiven me and now I forgive myself. I’m giving myself grace. Thank-You Lord.
I love you My daughter. You have been forgiven. You are Mine My darling. Rest, all is well with you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today…
3:09 “you love me still, and I know you always will…”
3:25 “She shares my dreams I hope that one day, I’ll share her home…”
5:13 I had a dream or vision of someone taking a match from a drawer.
5:25 “28”
5:43 “You opened the prison doors. You parted the raging sea.” I dreamt we bought a house on a big property. I saw the beautiful lawn in the big back yard and a shed. We were already packed and were about to move in…
5:55 “Sitting on the grass, listening to our favourite song…”
5:58 “I have faith in what I see. I have met an angel in person, she looks perfect tonight.”
6:03 “And the angels cry, Holy, all creation cries, Holy. You will always be, Holy, Holy forever.”
6:48 A man I saw clearly was standing in a gym, feeling like he didn’t know his full potential. He had black framed glasses on. Someone was standing in front of him like he was being recorded with his phone, and I saw that the man being recorded had an aha moment. I saw the arm of the person who was holding the phone as he was putting a retainer in the man’s mouth. When he did that, the man looked like he was amazed as something dawned on him. In my dream I thought to myself, “now take the glasses off” (like Clark Kent) but the man holding the phone didn’t take them off. Then it looked like the man was ready to play. It looked like he was too old for that setting but I had a knowing that it was perfect.
7:09 “Kindnesses and mercy” Vision of sitting at a table, enjoying each others company. It was bright and sunny outside as the light was shining into the room.
7:18 In a dream or vision I was taking a new set of dishes (bigger ones like serving bowls and teapot -I think.. I didn’t see this very clearly) out of a box that I had received. I think it was a white teapot and it had a beautiful flowery design (I saw the colours)
7:38 “Allow me to be responsible”
8:14 “same size” I dreamt of looking into a big box and seeing photos of years ago, seeing my old school (private school) with the dividers between each desk. Also I was standing in our car that either had no roof or the roof was open, facing forward. In my dream it was really high like a double layer. I looked to the side and saw a really tall lady standing beside the car looking at me. She was so tall that her head came to above the top of the car, and I was amazed because she could see the top of the car without having to step on anything. Then I began going down into the car and I noticed someone in the car. Then the scene changed where I was with someone and we were about to go somewhere. He had $20 but I had a feeling like I should make sure he still had it so that if he didn’t, then later on he couldn’t say that I had it. So I asked him and he checked and he couldn’t find it but because we talked about it right away, he couldn’t blame me.
8:32 I had a dream of seeing a blanket with brown and orange stripes
8:42 In a dream I heard a conversation about a daughter. One spouse said, “two daughters” and the other one corrected her and said “one daughter,” laughing together…
8:43 A dream or vision about being on a beach
The dream I had about swinging and not being completely in line, fearing I’d hit the side of the wall when I swung back into the barn and then stopping in the barn; I believe this represents that it really is time to stop doing things that others would notice but choosing to have tea or a certain drink or snack I feel are fine. I have God’s peace in my heart. I’m going to the women’s event on Saturday; Even though I’m on the Daniel Fast I’m sensing it’s okay to have a vegan burger and other things that don’t have sugar or a lot of sugar. I made wraps for supper yesterday and I made this plate for myself:) It was a big plate but I was hungry!!! I made Jam Jams yesterday to bring along to home group tonight. Blessings…
February 28: 6:31 In a vision I saw a nurse standing, typing something
6:33 a vision of a woman wearing a beautiful pleated white dress
6:36 “into our sculpture”
6:58 “Lucas “
6:59 I saw a lady wearing beige high heel shoes
A dream of being outside, feeling like it was Marion St. The group of people in the choir were on one side of the street and the bleachers were on the other side, in a parking lot. I had a feeling like I had been wanting to go but I wasn’t sure, so I was kind of waiting with them. Then all of a sudden it was time to go but I wasn’t ready. I deeply regretted not going because it was outside and there wasn’t any opposition, so I thought I missed a great opportunity and I was so sad. Then I had given up but I looked at the bleachers, expecting to see them singing, but I saw a kids choir on the bleachers and I became excited, thinking I had time to quickly get ready. At the same time there was one person who was crossing the street by herself who was part of the choir; she was joining them so I thought I had time to quickly get ready and join them. Then I had a feeling like I was too late.
Then the scene changed where I was in a big truck and I knew it was moving forward even though I wasn’t seeing it. Someone beside me said something like me knowing it and not doing anything about it (like why wasn’t I stopping it). Then we were going back; we were right at the top of a short hill and I was afraid that the brakes weren’t working and I didn’t want to go down too fast because I was afraid to crash. I saw a few kids in the way and as we were going down my foot was on the brakes, pressing as hard as I could. I think the truck was slowly going down.
“Oh my God, no!” (I saw something in a dream)
“We are.. because thats what the grace of God is.”
8:26 “Farewell” In a dream I think I saw a circle, like someone updated their page.
(I woke up at 3:17 but I didn’t have any dream. I went downstairs to pray around 4:20.) Watching House Of David this evening… My salad for supper, same as yesterday except I added walnuts, pumpkin seeds and sunflower seeds…
March 1: 5:13 “Back to the table, I’m running back to You.” (Seph Schlueter; music video)
6:21 “If it means God, then..”
6:25 In a vision I saw a woman who was running… Papa, why do I think this is so hard? Draw me closer to Your heart; I know that I am safe with you…
6:54 “lose” A dream of seeing a black cord pulled out of the outlet and was laying on the floor.
March 2: 2:17 “Back to the table back to… I”m running back to you.”
2:27 “Back to the table I’m running after you.”
3:40 “The thirst of our lives” seeing several bracelets a lighter colour of blue so that they would add up to be the blue colour of one. (Sensing the question, how thirsty am I?)
Seeing a lion walking on the street in the distance, then not seeing it, and then taking a risk as we were on the street doing something.
There were two areas on the floor; I had already cleaned off one side (the right) and now I was cleaning the floor on the other side. There was sawdust on a board that I was wiping off.
4:07 I had a vision of a field, yet our church at the same time. The congregation was there and everyone who was supposed to be there was there, and I saw Jesus sitting on the ground, facing left. Everyone, including the congregation, were quietly sitting, waiting.
6:44 dream of being in our entrance, stepping up onto the kitchen floor and turning the downstairs light off.