“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You. My heart is open and surrendered to You. Thank-You for Your nearness.
I love you My darling. Be at rest; you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing so I don’t stay in a place of despair is spending time with God and crying out to Him because I know He hears me and He loves me. I’m keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness more times than I can count, and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him!
June 18: 9:19 “It’s gonna be okay, it’s gonna be alright.”
9:20 I dreamt of seeing someone that had their mouth open, pretending to yawn, hoping that I would catch on. I will trust and follow…
9:34 “It’s gonna be okay, it’s gonna be alright.”
10:47 ordering my steps
4:27 you don’t have to be the strongest
5:37 “Open my eyes. Show me who you want me to be.” (from a song..) I went downstairs to pray, prayed and fell asleep.
6:33 I dreamt something about a cap. I’m praying with all my heart that I will be able to follow this week…
7:20 Courage
12:07 While listening to some songs on a wedding video I fell asleep momentarily and dreamt that a bumblebee landed in my mouth! I saw a woman with her mouth open and a bumblebee landed right inside her lower lip. As I was waking up I vaguely remember spitting, like it had been in my mouth. I’m not sure what this could mean.
Blessings…🙏🏻
June 19: 10:03 I dreamt that I was watching a movie with someone; There was a big ship and there was a guy who was a bit higher than the ship, just beside it. He had just begun to free fall but there was a thing that was moving kind of underneath him so that he could have landed onto it and then on the ship but as I watched, the thing had moved slightly faster than the man who was falling so he missed landing on it, which resulted with him free falling beside the ship. It was like going slow motion. Way below were rocks and water. By this time it was a cliff he had just missed. I yelled, “Oh noooo” Then as he was free falling, I knew that he would be okay because he had something like bingo cords attached to him which would save him. As I was yelling in my dream, I was aware that my kids dad would wake up. I think this dream represents that I am finally dying to myself.. I hope so.
12:48 In my dream I saw a stairway going into the sky. The stairway wasn’t one long step for both feet to go on; every step up was about one foot in length and every step wasn’t connected to the other. They were individual free floating steps. I saw someone run up these steps (the right foot going onto the steps on the right side and the left foot taking steps on the left side). Someone was running up these steps, going as hard/quickly as possible. Yay I think this represents that I’m finally going to make it? In my dream the person didn’t reach the top but he was going up really fast!!
2:07 I won’t let fear talk me out of, your love for me,
3:36 I won’t let fear talk me out of, Your love for me.
4:00 (I went downstairs to pray)
4:40 I’m forgiven, You were forsaken. I’m accepted, You were condemned. I’m alive and well, Your Spirit lives within me, because You died and rose again. Amazing love how can it be. That You my King would die for me. Amazing love I know it’s true, it’s my joy to honour You. In all I do, to honour You.
5:00 I’ve been praying , and I’m feeling like something is gone. I’m not feeling any heaviness, like weight has been lifted. This was difficult but I didn’t cry about it; this wasn’t as emotional as I’m used to it being.
5:02 You been forgiven my daughter. Come, rest, all is well with you.
Thank-You Papa.
You’re welcome My daughter. I love you.
I love You too.
This morning I spit the bee out of my mouth, and I’m so sad about it. I had the opportunity to pray and I didn’t take it, I’m sorry Papa. I’m really praying that I’ll be able to push through the resistance I feel at these moments when opportunities come.. The Joy of the Lord is my strength, and so as I spend time with the Lord, I’m going to pursue His Joy in my heart so that I will be able to follow Him. I chose the yellow, which says, The Lord is my Shepherd. I lack nothing. Psalm 23:1 This is something that needs to sink deep in my heart.. Blessings… ❤️🔥 My heart is wide open… I’m trusting in my Papa, Jesus… please don’t give up on me…