“No one is like you, O Lord; You are great, and Your name is mighty in power.” Jeremiah 10:6
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I worship You with a thankful heart. ThankYou that through You all things are possible. Thank You that You will make a way where there is no way. Thank You that You are a God of love and that You are opening heaven’s doors so that Your will, will be done here on earth as it is in heaven.
I love you My darling.
Papa, I believe You. This morning I really had to hold tightly onto this truth because I was feeling like I was losing sight of it.
“Faith” All things work together for good for those who love God. Come, and I will give you rest.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
4:23 (I awoke, pondering about going downstairs to pray. I got up at 4:35 (I think) and went down to pray.
4:35 “…power like the power of Jesus. Let faith arise”
6:16 “saving” I heard this in my heart right before waking up.
7:17 In this dream the water was running into the sink, but a lot of it was running underneath the counter and onto a rug. I showed the person how to correct the problem by adjusting a connecting piece, and then the water stopped flowing onto the floor.
7:19 “been through hell hallelujah” (Lyrics)
In this dream I was part of a team. I saw them as we were gathering.
A long green hill, full of trees that I remembered well. The hill was in Brazil. The day I was on it was the day that a wedding took place. I asked my kids dad if he remembered it and he said no.
I saw a dress suit jacket hanging in a hanger. I could see it had been hanging there for awhile. I took something like a mop (one of those swiffer kinds) to wipe off the dog hair that was on it. I could see all the black dog hairs gathered as I wiped the shoulder part of the jacket. The jacket was eye level.
A kid had been talking to me about paying for something. I was playing along and then her dad, looking down, said softly something about it not going to work, not going to do something so the girl told me that. I said okay. Then in another scene I said that financially we were “average” but probably wouldn’t be able to pay for it anyway.
8:39 Someone was talking to me about a school, “teach you about the school.” I was taking a plumb from a bowl that was full of plumbs. I saw a thumb go over it like the thumb was wiping it before eating it.
9:00 I had a vision of sitting in a tall black tub (like a laundry tub at the hospital), about to slide down a hill, feeling like I was tobogganing.
9:07 “Jpusa” I think I was kind of asleep when I heard this in my heart. Jpusa reminds me of getting married because that’s where I got married 27 years ago. I’m cooking black beans for supper tonight. I sensed some of the words in the verse above so that’s why I chose that one. I hope and pray that my posts can be more joyful sometime soon. I had Tea today. Blessings…
March 20: I vaguely remember a list of words being scrolled, and the one that was clear in my dream was the word, Greek. I didn’t write it down right away so I’m pretty sure this was the word. I’m sorry to God that I didn’t write it down right away.. I was feeling hopeless at night.
In a dream I was standing on the yard of a university with someone, and it was dark outside. I got a rock and put a baby shirt on it and we were cradling it in our arms between us. At first I noticed that my arm was between us and then somehow I drew closer and said ahh, like how cute the baby was. Then the scene changed where it was still dark. I was standing with my friend behind some bushes, watching someone we knew walk by. I asked if I could let them know where we were and the person indicated no. The person was looking for us but I watched the person walk by us because he/she didn’t know we were there. Then the scene changed again where we were now in the university; I had followed my friend. I saw the hardwood floor and vaguely a classroom on my right. We walked to an area and I vaguely saw the professor. I had a feeling like I didn’t belong. The last few days I’ve really needed to hold onto believing that Jesus loves me, like it was slipping from my grasp. I keep remembering how everyone resists me, feeling like it’s really difficult.
I’m remembering the dream I had many years ago where my kids were being held captive by the enemy as they watched TV. I was writing in my upstairs bedroom and when the enemy came into the room to check on me, I quickly hid my writing and pretended to draw. Then when the enemy was satisfied, he went out of the room and closed the door. Then I became determined and got up and got into the car and blasted through the wall to my death. Then the scene changed where I was getting my kids sweater from a hook and stood by the door. There were two demons facing me, punching my stomach, but their fists went right through my body; they weren’t able to touch me. Then they frantically talked with each other, guessing where I would be so that they could ambush me. I confidently turned around and walked out of the door and joined Jesus and our two kids who were standing there, waiting for me, and then we began walking together…
5:51 “Ava Maria” This is one of the songs I’m practicing for my voice lessons. I will practice today. Happy first day of Spring!!!🌷
March 21:12:45 “…I am a Greek, so…”
1:26 In my dream I was wanting to let coco out of the back door but she didn’t want to go out. Every time I’d open the door for her, wasps would come in, and I’d try and shoe them out with my hand. Then I saw a piece white tape on a part of the door and some wasps got stuck on the tape; the wasps were white. They were big wasps and the thought of squishing them came to my mind, not knowing what to do with them. Every time I’d try and close the door I saw there were gaps between the door and the doorframe.
3:24 (I went downstairs to pray) In this dream I had bits of bone in a plate (I think 2 or 3 small pieces of bone, seeing the white cartilage).
5:10 Come, rest, all is well with you.
5:33 “My darling, I hunger for your touch…”
5:37 In a dream or vision I was inside the entrance of the camp, brown, dining room doors, and the doors were closed. This morning my sister (with my mom and my other sister) are picking me up and going to The Leaf. ☕️
I just remembered a dream or a part of a dream: I was at my in-laws place and had climbed up to a high kind of hidden little room. In this room I saw a small device or game console that had been on for a long time, and I turned it off, thinking to save the battery. Then I was afraid to come down and wanted help so my brother-in-law came and put a ladder up against the wall and then walked away to do something. At first I was afraid to come down but then I confidently and joyfully came kind of running down the ladder, facing the room. In the kitchen at home group they had a middle turning knob on the water spout that I turned on and off when I used it to fill the kettle, and then later I filled my cup to drink water. At the Leaf today I’m sensing I should have said hi to a lady that I recognized from Soar who could have represented Jesus in my dream. At the restaurant today I ordered the “Gather house salad” and enjoyed it so much. After that I ordered a Cappuccino with vanilla and caramel flavouring, costing 7.56. I took a photo of a tree that grows in Brazil; I recognize that the long hill in my dream represents The Leaf as we walked around. So because I walked around in the greenery/trees and plants today, I’m thinking that that represented the long hill with trees in Brazil in my dream. At the Leaf Helena and I walked up into the second level; I saw the brown striped wall and it reminded me of my dream with the door, hoping it means that the door will finally open for me to walk through that represents the ending of a difficult journey and into a time of healing and restoration… 🫰🏼
March 22: 4:13 “I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I’ve broken. Oh I need you to see, that you are the reason…”
I was in a bus, standing at the front (the bus was parked) looking through the front window when I saw a cheetah, and I excitedly told someone, maybe Lucas, to look. Then I quickly closed the door of the bus (which was where the drivers seat normally is) so that the cat that was in the bus couldn’t go out because I wanted to protect it. Then I saw the cheetah running around a bit. I think I saw two dogs or it was like a dog was cut in half or something on the road.
8:19 “I know, you’re home I’m home. Stars through the window they light up our disco it’s just you and I, the two of us starring in this show, never be alone, you’re home I’m home…”