Fully Surrendered

“Blessed is the man who finds wisdom, the man who gains understanding.” Proverbs 3:13

Conversation

Papa, I love You. I am Yours and I trust in You. I worship You, the King of my heart. You are worthy to be praised and I praise Your Holy name. I’m sensing the word, finished.

My daughter, well done. You are Mine; I love you.

Papa, I am in awe of You, of Your Sovereign Holiness. My heart is completely open to You. I’m surrendered to You. 

I love you My darling. Rest, all is well.

Okay Papa, I’m resting in You.

Reflection

Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious!  What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today…

12:13 “I am a child of God. You split the sea so I can walk right through it.” (You drown my fear in perfect love. You rescued me so I can stand and say, I am a child of God.”)  (No Longer Slaves; heard in my heart right before waking up)

12:55 “I am a child of God” (sensed when I woke up)

2:25 “Safe with me” (The words “with me” were clear.) (I heard in my heart right before waking up)

I dreamt of seeing a stray cat that couldn’t walk very well (her fur was wet, sticking together), behind some wooden crates that were forming a circle (or part of one). I saw it lay on its back with its legs kind of up, and I threw a heavy piece of wood onto it to make it run away but it didn’t leave. Then I threw another piece of wood onto it and it began to move but it wouldn’t leave. I knew that someone was always being kind to it and so I stopped trying to scare it away and had mercy on it; I thought, how can I not be kind to it when this person is? In my dream there was someone who seemed to be a big person who was kind to it and welcomed it, so then I relented and decided to also be kind to it. I’m pressing into the Lord and I have a sense that the cat is accepted, that I’m accepted.

3:24 In deep prayer, desperate praying, asking God for forgiveness and mercy, I have a sense of Him welcoming me. 

3:35 “Come My daughter, all is well.”  (I heard in my heart)

3:37 Thank You Papa…

3:49 “Never look back I’ll never look back I’m yours” (You saved me, you saved me)

4:08 Vision of dancing together with someone (Jesus), rocking back and forth in their arms. (I saw their arm and rocking and the feeling of dancing) -comfort

7:37 “You love me still, and I know you always will.”

8:01 “I love You Papa.”

“I love you My darling.”

10:19 I sensed the word, grace. 

10:43 “Free” sensed while in prayer.

10:46 “He who the Son sets free is free indeed” lyrics; I Am Who You Say I Am, song began playing on Spotify.

Blessings and Love….🙏🏻….