Proverbs 8:32-35
“Now then, my sons, listen to me; blessed are those who keep my ways. Listen to my instruction and be wise; do not ignore it. Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway. For whoever finds me finds life and receives favour from the Lord.”
Conversation
Papa, I love You so much! I worship You. Deep in my heart I agree with what I said yesterday that even if I’m afraid, I will still follow You and walk through any door You open. My life is a gift from You, and I give my life back to You because You know better, the purpose You’ve given me.
Come My daughter, you are Mine. We’ll walk this road together.
Papa, do You have a word for me?
Be brave and courageous; I am with you always.
Yes thank-you, that’s what I’m going to be.
Caroline, remember My love for you.
Papa, I can do all things through Christ (Love) who gives me strength.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Last night I woke up at 1:59 with a song about God’s faithfulness in my heart. I also vaguely heard T1 in my heart before waking up. I have no clue as to what this could mean or if it’s just some random thing, though T could have something to do with me running in water in a T intersection (Transition) that I dreamt about two nights ago.
I also dreamt that there was a war going on, and each side was in the tall building I was in. In this scene I was standing in the building and someone handed me a white sheet of paper that said something about me being on one side of the war. There were a few other people close by, so after the person gave me the paper, he began running to their side and the people close by began running too. As soon as they were about to run I quickly asked if I could join them and be on their side. The man said yes so I ran with them down a hallway and then I saw a door that we were going to run through that was the entryway into a large safe room. This door reminds me of a door to a safe at a bank; it would be very difficult to break open. I vaguely remember asking them if the other team hadn’t broken through this door the last time, and they said yes. Then I was inside the room and was looking into the hallway, about to shut the door to keep us safe when I saw some people running quickly towards us, so I kept the door open so that they could come in. First one came through, then a few that were together and then a few more (I’m not sure exactly how many). They were running like the enemy was right behind them. I woke up before I closed the door. I also dreamt about Jesus my husband but I don’t remember most of it. What I do remember is that I was following his lead and I was carrying something in my hand. There were a few younger people around.
Yesterday when we got home from church I left right away to go to the bridal shower; Bella didn’t want to come. There was about half and hour left when I got there (3:30). Before leaving my sister told me about a dream she had had about a month ago (she also gets dreams from the Lord). She was walking down a hallway and looked into a room. The room was empty except it had a small desk that was up against a wall, and a husband was sitting at the desk with a computer, busy doing stuff, always facing the wall. She saw his wife sitting behind him on a chair, facing him, patiently waiting, always looking at him. She wasn’t in a hurry, just waiting for him. At one point she saw a fuzz on her sweater, took it and let it float to the floor, then continued looking at him, waiting.
Last night we watched the 2023 musical, The Little Mermaid (kids choice). As a teenager I watched the animation so many times while babysitting that I had memorized all the songs. Anyway, some similarities are the light blue dress, my birthstone colour. She had no voice but then she got it back. Ariel/Oreo cookies? Changing the subject, I was awake a couple of hours last night so I had a difficult time getting up to go to shopgym. I fell asleep and slept right up until a few min to 5:00 so I didn’t go. I’ll be making 2 apple pies and a coconut banana cream pie for Wednesday! Making meatballs and rice for supper today. Many blessings…
November 22: Two nights ago I dreamt that I was standing in front of an elegant lady. There was another lady that reminds me of Marry Poppins, standing and going up a water slide. I’m not sure if there was water in it, but it was a slide like a water slide. She could have gone up into the air like Marry Poppins, but she decided to go up, standing straight up, up the water slide instead. The elegant lady standing in front of me glanced her way and acknowledged her (by giving a slight nod of her head and a pleased look/smile on her face). She was also acknowledging that she knew that she had chosen that way to go up.
This morning I woke up to my alarm to go to shopgym, but I was feeling very overwhelmed and didn’t go. The song that was on my mind was “Lost in Your Love” by Brandon Lake. They lyrics were, “Your power’s found in the roughest waters, where I have no choice but to trust you Father. Where my every fear has to surrender, I will trust in you forever take me there, oh take me there. I’m going all in, in over my head, I’m not scared to get drenched in your love. Wherever you go God I will follow, I’m not scared to get lost in your love.”
I dreamt a few scary things: I was looking down into a hole that was rimmed with smooth plastic sloping down. Someone said, “look!” so I looked and saw an evil black head/face, smiling at me. The face was looking through an open doorway from the side so I didn’t see its body. I was shaken with fear so I quickly looked away, pretending not to have seen it. Then I was inside the hole and I saw about three dead little lambs laying on the ground. I said to someone that we need to get them out of here before they begin to stink. I had a pitchfork in my hands that I was using to get them up and out of the hole. I think I managed to get one out I’m not sure. Then I was crying, desperately calling, “Papa! Papa! I needed Him/God to help me out but it seemed like He wasn’t hearing me. Earlier in the night I had dreamt that I had seen my dad walking among the trees in the acreage we used to have, so when my alarm went off at 4:25 and feeling overwhelmed, I kept thinking about my dream and the conversation I had had in the afternoon, also thinking about my dad I just cried.
In the morning I always stand at the outside door and watch Bella walk to the corner and then as she walks on the sidewalk through the neighbours bushes, so this morning I was standing, leaning against the doorframe, waiting until she would come into view. With the big truck I can only see her when she’s about by our neighbours driveway. It felt like it wasn’t even a minute and I thought she should come into view already and she wasn’t. So I walked behind the big truck and looked around the truck to see if Bella was on the road there, and she wasn’t. So it was like we said bye and she began walking and then she disappeared. Then I looked at the time and it was 8:57, and she left at 8:52. To my knowledge I was only standing there for about a minute, but according to my phone, 5 minutes had passed. So I don’t know what happened; it was like I blanked out or something. I didn’t see her walking yet she wasn’t on the street. Then I went back to bed, very confused as to what had just happened. I was afraid to call the school and them telling me that she hadn’t come, but I did call her around 9:20 and she was there. She wondered why I was calling her and I told her that I was just wondering if she had arrived on time and if she was okay, since she had gone a bit late. She said yes that everything was fine. I asked her if she had run at all on the way to school and she said yes, a bit, then I asked her which where, and she said on our street. But I was watching all the time and I didn’t see her. I must have been standing there for five minutes and not knowing it. So then I was in bed crying for about an hour. My husband had left for work around 10-10:15. Then as I was just laying there feeling like I was in a bit of a daze, I felt something slowly slide out of me at the top of my back, and when I felt like it was out, my body physically sunk in deeper into the mattress like that thing had been hooked into me and had let go. I wasn’t sure what was going on so I said that I don’t accept anything from the enemy in Jesus name and that the enemy needs to leave in Jesus name. Then I looked at the time and it was 10:23. I didn’t immediately look at the time so I think it was 10:22 when that spiritual “hook” slid out of me. Before that I was ready to quit Shopgym and was planning not to go out tonight. But when that thing left, I was okay, not feeling so overwhelmed. I till stayed in bed for another hour just resting. So instead of making pies, I made apple cake that we’ll bring along. I’m thinking what was in me spiritually from the enemy was a knife with the hook at the end of it that I had dreamt about Sunday morning. But it’s gone now and I’m feeling back to normal. I’m so thankful for prayers. Many blessings…