“Behold I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he as done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.” -Revelation 22:12,13
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I bless You. I worship You and I thank You. Thank-You for Your grace. Thank-You for Your love.
My faithful one, I love you. You are Mine. Rest, the time is near.
Okay Papa. I love You with all my heart.
I know you do Caroline, and I love you with all of Mine.
Papa I’m reminded of the verse, “I am the Alpa and Omega, the beginning and the end. (Rev.22:13) I believe You Papa. I believe that I hear from You, and I believe that You love me and have great plans for my life. Thank-You that I am lovable and that I am loved and desired.. I believe that You want me in the ministry and that You will draw many people to Your heart through me and through the story You’ve written in my life. I’m so excited about it!!!!!!! Thank-You Papa for setting me free!
Come My daughter, rest, you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him. For the past while God has been taking me through a spiritual shower. I believe He’s preparing me for what’s coming up next. He’s purifying my heart so that my heart is clean before Him. It also clears the way for me to hear Holy Spirit better when there’s no mess in the way. I record the times when God says something to me because even in that, there’s meaning. Blessings.
In my dream at first I vaguely saw many circles/heads and then the picture began getting clearer. I saw many people treading water who had been there for a long time. I saw a large city beside the water, and my eyes travelled/saw the city from one side to the other, and then also the people in the water (from one side all the way to the other). The people had been treading water for years it seamed, and they couldn’t get out because they hadn’t been allowed to get out because God had been keeping them there. Then something happened (we had done something right, and then God allowed them to come out!) and I heard/sensed them saying thank-you, because now they could come out. They had all been close to shore but deep enough where they couldn’t reach the bottom. I’m so happy about this because I’ve felt like I’ve been treading water in my journey with Jesus for such a long time! So what does this mean now? Thank-You Papa!
Another scene where I was walking around and around a very small room (about 4×4 feet). I saw a thick book on the floor and maybe a few other things I’m not sure (the book looked like it had a brown leather cover, and it was closed) but somehow they were part of the floor and I was walking on it, going around and around. It seemed like I was getting ready for something, having lots of energy.
In this part of my dream I was standing and looking up and I was seeing a vision (the vision was foggy) there was a large steep mountain that had snow on it I think, and I saw someone sliding down it very fast. I wasn’t anywhere near the mountain; I was standing.
In another short dream I was loosing my hair like there was no tomorrow! I had short hair like I have now. I put my left hand in my hair, grabbed some of it lightly and a whole chunk of it came out, and then I dropped it on the floor. In waking life I do loose lots of hair and I’m so sad about that. I put up my hand yesterday. This morning I’m going running on the track.
This morning I went for a run (22 laps) on the track. There was a sign that directed everyone to go clockwise (like the last time I went), so I ran clockwise for the first 9 laps. Then I thought to change direction and run counter-clockwise since the others had left (I had a dream awhile ago about a big machine going counter clockwise at the beginning right before I began running, so I’ve always ran counterclockwise since then. The sign always said to run counter clockwise until the last time I ran. So the last time I ran clockwise, thinking about going the opposite direction, going against what everyone else was doing, but I thought people might not like that so I didn’t.). So I changed direction and began running counter-clockwise. Then a few more people came and I thought that I’d continue to run counterclockwise and see if others would join me. They didn’t, and there was a guy who at first didn’t say anything but I could tell it bothered him, so when I had about 7 or 8 rounds to go, he stopped me and asked if there’s a reason why I’m going in the opposite direction. I told him that I was almost done and that I could run better that way. So he continued to walk, looking at the time whenever I ran passed, and then I think he gave up and didn’t want to wait for me to be finish and began running. As I was running the dream I had last night came to mind, and I remembered that when I was walking in circles in that little room (that reminds me of the changing room backstage), I was walking counter-clockwise! So that gave me more determination to finish my run and not let what the others thought of me, stop me! Yay!
On the way to the track there was a song on CHVN by Maverick City called, Fear Is Not My Future. Some of the lyrics were, “Hello peace, hello joy, hello love… hello hope, hello strength, it’s a new horizon.” I had never heard this song before. Another song I had never heard of that was on the radio (CHVN) when I was driving Bella to Kates house after my run, a song by Jorden Feliz, “Jesus is coming back.” Yes! Jesus is coming back soon! Lucas is taking DriversZ, so his first meeting is this coming Monday. I’m his designated driver so I also have a lot of homework to do too and I haven’t even started! One of the stupidest things I’ve done is when I was a teenager I tried curling my eyelashes with my hair curler! It worked on my right eye but I got too close to my left eye and it touched my eyeball, making a sizzling sound! So I learned the hard way that even our eyeball gets a blister if it gets burned! So I needed to get an eye patch and wear it for about a week.
Another story is when I was looking for a house to buy while living on Noble Ave, I was looking online in Niverville. During the night before I saw the house we have right now, God gave me a dream, and the name of our street was in the dream so in the morning I looked online and sure enough, there was a house for sale on that street! I hadn’t told my husband about the dream beforehand but then I wished I had! He was at work and so when I called him, I told him that I had found the one! So then we went and looked at it and saw that the house was like new, even though it was built in the 70’s. On Friday we’re going to sit in the second from the front, middle section, and for communion I’m going to go to the next table to get my bread. I didn’t get a revelation about that but because I didn’t do it last time, I’m going to do it this time. And I think I don’t need to raise my hand again, since I did it yesterday? I know it’s not just about raising my hand, but because I could finally understand why I need God’s grace in my life. So because of that, do I still need to raise my hand? Maybe I’ll do it just in case. Many blessings…❤️🔥
March 26: 2:54 I woke up and heard in my heart the beginning of this song, “Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me. You have been so, so good to me. Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me. You have been so, so kind to me. Oh the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God. O it chases me down, fights till I’m found, leaves the ninety nine. I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still You give Yourself away. O the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God. When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me. You have been so, so good to me. When I felt no worth, you paid it all for me. You have been so, so kind to me. Bridge: There’s no shadow You won’t light up, mountain You won’t climb up, coming after me. There’s no wall You won’t kick down, lie you won’t tear down, coming after me. O the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God. O it chases me down, fights till I’m found, leaves the ninety nine. I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still You give Yourself away. O the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God.”
After I woke up at 2:54 I tried sleeping again but I couldn’t, so at around 3:20 I went downstairs to pray. I cried out to God to help me this weekend, not to miss an opportunity. I was also praying about Friday nights, feeling so bad about not responding. To be transparent, I was balling my eyes out. To be transparent again, I’m a bit intimidated by the older kids, but I know the Lord is leading me there so I don’t want to hold Him back. I know that the more passionate I am about the Love of God, the less intimidation I’ll feel, and that goes with anything the Lord wants me to do. I’m remembering that my failures aren’t really failures but are learning and stretching moments, and without these initial “failures,” I won’t know to walk there and then I also won’t grow in what I “failed” at doing.
4:30 “Come my daughter, it’s time.” I’m coming Papa.
I fell asleep and at 5:08 I woke up and had a short dream; I saw the full white moon high in the sky and I heard, “Look at the beautiful moon!” This reminds me of when someone was talking about a song that was about the moon.. though I don’t remember it exactly.
Then I went to bed and dreamt that I was on some kind of long cart thing (reminds me of the airport) with other youth and my hubby was pushing it very quickly into a kitchen, giving us a fast ride. I was right at the front and because he was going so fast, he nearly pushed me into the counter cupboard. I saw the counter coming quickly and internally I wasn’t afraid that I was going to be pushed into it because I knew my hubby wouldn’t do that, but outwardly I was pretending to be scared to have fun with the kids (my hubby stopped right when I was in front of it, so I didn’t get hurt -I trusted him!) My hubby dropped us off there in the morning and he was going to pick us up at the end of the day. Sarena was there too. Someone had put a loaf of bread or something on the floor, and I picked it up and put it onto the counter. Then the scene changed where I was talking with a lady who had blonde hair. I didn’t remember her, and she was asking me if I remembered her story. As she was explaining it, I said, “oh yeah,” but then as she kept talking I wasn’t sure and I was trying to figure it out. But I’m also remembering that I need to tell my story, and if I see the lady who I gave a ride to last week, I’ll try and tell her my story somehow. She seemed to be open to talking then so maybe this is what my dream is referring to. But my neighbour is coming over Thursday morning, and I will share my story with her too. Thursday early afternoon (1:30) my kids and I are going to Jeanettes house for another painting lesson! I’m planning to paint a sunrise so that I have a better idea when I paint one at home. I’m taking my mom to an appointment this afternoon. My in-law Easter gathering is on Friday for supper. On my side we basically have a gathering every Christmas. Blessings…🙏🏻