“For surely, O Lord, You bless the righteous; You surround them with Your favor as with a shield.” Psalm 5:12
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You. You are the King of my life. I worship and honour You.
I love you My daughter. Come, you are Mine.
Papa, if there’s a word I need to hear right now, what would it be?
“I am faithful.”
Thank You Papa that You are faithful. I’ve seen Your faithfulness many times in my life. I pray for courage and rest. I need Your nearness.
I am near to you my daughter. I am your strength. Rest in Me and I will see you through.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today…
2:49 Back to the table I’m running back to you.
4:58 “Back to the table I’m running back to you.”
6:28 “Back to the table I’m running back to you.”
7:01 In a dream I saw a black truck with white trailer driving by.
7:17 “build on each other” (I heard in my heart right before waking up.)
7:43 “they see you on fire” (I heard in my heart right before waking up.)
I saw a picture of people celebrating.
I saw someone wearing a black shirt with a white background
8:15 “I’m coming back to you”
In this dream there was a sand hill that had a tree or something growing in the middle of it, and had trees growing at the top. There were two people talking on the top of the hill that I couldn’t see. The sand was soft but I managed to climb to the middle of the hill where the tree was, and I put a piece of paper on the sand by the tree where it had been before. Then I looked up and saw how steep it was to the top (I knew the two people didn’t know that I was there) and I ran back down. As I was going down I saw a cliff in front of me so I went to the left side where it sloped closer to the ground, and I was gliding down. There was a part where the hill almost reached the ground (like a steep step) but I just glided down over the step and onto the ground as though there was ground there, and I was feeling satisfied. This is my 717th post! Goodnight and Blessings…
March 6: 3:13 “I’m coming back to You…” (Back to the table)
5:40 I had a dream where there were caps hanging on a silver bar, then my kids dad’s backpack, then a few more caps and then another backpack. I was adjusting my kids dad’s backpack and saw there was a hole in the bottom of it where the bar went through, and that’s how it stayed on the bar.
In this scene I was in a room upstairs. I was on my iPad, on a website that had a different name, a woman’s name on it. I saw her name in the top right corner. I tried logging out but it stayed open. Then I saw on the lower right side some options. I went to the one that had lines which showed more options. I pressed onto it and I began hearing a radio broadcast that was talking about me. I also saw some pictures of me walking up narrow stairs to where I was. I saw two photos clearly of me walking up. I vaguely saw another one but that wasn’t very clear. Then I was in a room and I had a paper sticking out of my bag or purse (it had a line that was highlighted in yellow) when a lady came and asked if there was another one, and I said no (that was the only one) and she said that she thought she had seen another one like that. She was smiling. I could tell that she wanted the paper.
5:54 “Clear” (sensing “the messages were clear”)
6:00 “The Lord will grant them wings”
6:26 I saw a sentence in white letters
7:38 “The Humbug” I thought the word “humbug” was just an expression people used, but when I looked it up I saw there was a whole story behind it that has to do with the story, “A Christmas Carol.”
8:00 “Come to the table”
10:36 “In You” (In Christ I can do all things who gives me strength.) Yes, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I also had a quick picture of eating an avocado; it was cut in half and I was scraping the last part of it with a spoon. Praying for clarity…🙏🏼
March 7 5:07 “I bring my hard-fought, heartfelt, Been-through-hell hallelujah.”
6:32 “Papa where is he…?” I had a dream where someone close to me was on one side of a small table or desk that had a computer on it, and I was standing in front of it, feeling like I had been talking with the person. We had asked for help like when we call someone who’s an expert about a computer issue.
Then the scene changed where my dad had left like he passed away. My siblings and I had resumed our life and then I thought maybe he didn’t pass away, and I had a deep longing; my heart was groaning to know where he was and if he was okay, and this is when I asked the Lord right before waking up,
7:43 I had a vision of rinsing a white bowl, swirling the water around like I was done eating.
7:45 A picture of a truck going so fast that they drove past the stop sign as they slammed on the brakes.
8:16 I dreamt that someone who had thin hair at the top (his hair went to about his shoulders,) and he was going to get his hair died. We were standing with the hairstylist and I was asking her lots of questions about how she was going to do it. I asked her if she was going to use papers and she said something like she was going to do it with foam or something electronic (I didn’t understand it), and I said I had never heard of that before.
8:44 A picture of white snow in the shape of a high wave, outside on someone’s property.
9:03 I saw a picture of beautiful white open-toe, high-heal shoes.
9:14 “Amen”
9:18 A picture of a loaf of bread and taking a slice, reminding me of breakfast…
9:23 “You survived, and uh..” I heard someone say this to me in a dream right before waking up.
9:29 “always intellectual”
I’m going to bake an espresso chocolate cake with strawberries at the top.
March 8: 12:07 “I’m trying to leave now”
12:09 “I’m running back to you”
12:20 I saw someone toss a notebook in front of her, vaguely seeing there were two more on her lap.
12:28 “For freedom”
12:35 “We can deliver”
12:38 I had a vision of peeling a carrot (the first peel of a carrot)
12:47 I had a quick dream I was putting on a tall black boot on my left foot while sitting.
12:51 “I’m running back to you…”
1:17 “Luke 2:10” (I heard in my heart very clearly) “But the angel said to them, ‘Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people.’”
2:37 A dream about someone galloping on a horse at full speed. I went downstairs to pray.
4:25 Come (I heard in my heart)
4:48 In my dream I heard a horn blow and I saw someone writing their name in red ink on a paper that had a box at the bottom for signatures.
4:56 “Perfect” (sensed; the word popped into my mind gently)
4:58 I had a vision of someone taking a scroll off of a shelf and giving it to someone. The setting was like it was the Bible times.
5:05 In a clear picture I had a vision of a girl wearing a black and white polka dotted dress. The dress was black with white circles.
8:52 “Will sing this song of ages to the Lamb. And the Angels cry Holy, all creation cries, Holy. You are lifted high, Holy, Holy forever!!!!”
In my dream I was in a car and the road was gradually getting higher by the layers of concrete on the road as we drove up three layers. The last one seemed to be more significant. The first two seemed to be closer together. I saw someone bending over slightly, like doing something on a table. I’m going to The Wag tomorrow to meet with some friends and then we’re going somewhere to eat if that’s what everyone wants. 🎂 I’m so thankful for the generosity of those who diligently love the people around them…. 🫶🏻
March 9: 12:41 In a vision I was outside and I saw an orange sunset. Then a woman walked in front of me (walked to the left and passed me, kind of looking down and smiling, like she was doing something like getting herself something to eat or putting something in her plate. I had a feeling like she was relaxing like she was on a vacation and they were by a campfire; I didn’t see the campfire, this was the feeling), but I could still see the sunset behind her. I had a feeling like she was with someone, enjoying each other’s company.
12:47 A vision of a woman talking to a family member who was in the room somewhere, saying something like, “they already said yes.”
1:23 A dream or vision of something being connected.
4:09 In a dream someone looked sad as he kind of looked down. I’m trying to stay optimistic. (I went downstairs to pray)
4:40 “rest” (I sensed in my heart)
5:46 Back to the table
5:54 “We’re going to play a game”
5:57 “I’m screwed”
6:00 A vision of seeing a brown cloth bag with a drawstring. Someone was pulling in the drawstring, closing the bag.
6:04 “their world” vision or dream about people having a heated argument.
6:22 A dream about
6:24 “I’m going to start getting ready for church”
6:28 A vision of seeing someone climb over the fence on a bridge and jumping into the river. The river was high like jumping into a pool.
6:47 “many of you think the opposite.”
7:04 “ There’s no one before You! All of this is for You! Who are we talking about, that’s my King!!”
7:09 “Reflections of Jesus”
7:12 “She’s not aware”
March 10: “In the world, in the world. Greater is He who is inside of me, than he who is in the world.”
March 10 1:02 “Step into your brain” In my dream the person was teaching someone how to get rid of “resisting” in the mind to self preserve, by over riding it by yelling. So when I heard “step into your brain” I heard it being yelled.
3:17 “In the world, In the world. Greater is He who is living in me, than he who is living in the world.”
6:25 In a vision I was running up narrow steps into the attic of a museum and I saw a room that had many musical instruments that had been stored away, including a piano (they were all covered with cloth so I could only imagine what was underneath). I need to learn the piano and other musical instruments, also voice which I haven’t been practicing. I also want to start sketching and learn acrylic painting.
6:33 vision of me breaking the window with the heel of my brown boot.
6:37 “For Daddy”
6:40 I saw a card with a blue highlighted line like the one with the yellow on the schedule.
6:56 I was putting on my blue eyeliner, top lid and then the bottom of my eye. Then I recognized that I wasn’t supposed to have put it on at the bottom (I have a different shade of blue that I put at the bottom) when the eyeliner fell into the drain. It got stuck a little ways down and I was excited to grab it when it fell to the bottom of the drain. I looked and saw it clearly and was going to figure out how to get it. I thought to get something that could grab it.
7:01 I saw a young woman with straight blonde hair, smiling and talking with her husband.
7:05 I saw a woman walking on the chairs, stepping over them.
7:09 I saw a someone walking and smiling
7:12 I had a feeling of going to one of my friends house.
7:16 Vision of someone going into a house trailer (walked to the door) and someone standing on the road (or that distance from the house) watching and smiling like there had been a victory.
7:23 “I don’t know for sure”
7:29 “What do you do? I’m a stay at home mom.”
7:32 Standing in a long line on the road in front of the church. The line was going onto the church parking lot.
7:36 I saw someone hanging from a big round circle as it slowly came down. I saw the persons feet go onto the floor.
I heard Bella say, “Mom!” Something about a ball.
7:43 A sense of something that has to do with a ball
7:47 Vaguely seeing someone walking in a home-group
11:07 I took a quick nap and had a dream that my dog urgently wanted to go outside (to go for a walk). I was in a different part of the house when I looked and saw she had brought the brown door mat to where I was standing (she had placed it on a rug) that was already there. I could see some of her black hair on it. Then she sat down and began scratching her ear with one of her paws and I thought maybe she had an ear infection, thinking I needed to bring her to the animal hospital right away.
My fast is over today and I’m eating supper with my family… having a piece of pie and cake!!! (I bought a blueberry pie at the auction) Tonight I’ll be joining the Bible study. We’re having hotdogs and garden salad for supper… 🙏🏼
March 11: 11:35PM (could have been 11:34… I didn’t see the time right away) In my prayer time I had a quick vision that it was a woman’s birthday and they were celebrating it. I saw her holding up a sign.
11:41 I had a vision of a guy or boy coming up, seeing his head, face come up from being in some kind of machine, coming up through a round opening at the top. There was a woman standing nearby.
11:51 A quick vision or dream of popcorn kernels in some containers.
4:10 “Greater is he who is inside of me, than he who is in the world.”
5:54 “enough “ (I sensed while I was awake)
I laid a jar of red jam on its side, on a chair that had some jam in it. Bella was with me. I also dreamt that there was a bit of jam on a chair so that when that person sat on it, there would be some on their pants (or skirt)
I also dreamt that I saw something red on something that was on the floor.
7:35 I went to Joanne house. It was a peaceful sunny day. The door was open so I walked in. I saw the house was empty and when I walked I saw a lady and her daughter peek at me from around the corner; she was friendly and had a smile on her face. I knocked on the white wall to be polite and asked if Joanne was home. I noticed I still had my brown boots on and she said yes, that she was in her room (When I went into her house I heard a truck engine rev outside.).
7:54 Great is the Lord, oh most high. Great is the Lord, oh most high. I won’t be quiet my God is alive. How can I keep it inside.”
This morning I woke up from a nap and my heart was sober, thinking about how hard my journey has been. I was thinking about where it was headed, Then in a vision I was reading a sentence in a book; I was counting the words 1,2,3, and the word the number 3 fell on was the word “out.” Before that I remembered someone say that our life is not about us but about God, and I felt relieved because it took the pressure off of me. My heart was also heavy, wondering how long this journey will take.
I vaguely remembered a dream; I saw some chairs and I went and sat in the chair that represented the chair that the leader sat in. I had a feeling like it wasn’t mine and that it belonged to a bigger person; bigger, meaning, the one who God has chosen to lead. I’m sensing that God gave that chair to me but I don’t feel qualified (I know that God qualifies the called, not calls the qualified). I know that I need to put my anchor down so that I stay anchored in Christ through anything that’s happening around me. I know that I am safest in the will of God and that I shouldn’t follow my own will but God’s. When I remember that it’s not about me but about God, it helps relieve the pressure. I’m going to go to Soar tomorrow and to voice lessons, not sure what I’ll do between those times. Probably read.. I haven’t been reading like I should.
I also dreamt that Soar was done for the day and the lady’s were walking out of the room. Among the group I saw a lady wearing a black and white skirt and jacket in the foyer.
Blessings…
March 12: 4:34 “In the world, In the world. Greater is He living inside of me, than he who is living in the world.” I had a dream where I saw someone on a flat square thing. This person had their arms and legs open (like they were making an angel in the snow), stuck on the flat surface. Then all of a sudden the flat surface started to tip and the person got out from there right before it crashed into the ground.
Another dream where I was standing inside a fenced in area that was inside a park. I wanted to hibernate underneath a blanket and stay for a couple of days. Then I saw that the fence was wide open and anybody could come into it. It was dark outside when I saw someone come into it.
7:01 In this dream I was talking with my brother at a gathering. He was telling me how he felt about our other brother because of how he trusted him. There were two points he said. After saying the first point I wanted to say something and started to interrupted him and he stopped talking to let me say something, but then I motioned for him to keep talking. He had said something that I had heard before that confirmed something. Then when he started talking again he said another thing that confirmed something that I needed to do. Then he said something about writing something and I said I needed to do that too. Then he said something about that, and I said yes I know, but that I wanted to do it right.
Then the others were coming out of the room and I was trying to do a handstand but two little girls (one was a baby) kept on walking right in front of me so I couldn’t actually do one. Saw salt being put onto something; I made a chicken sandwich today for Bella. We had mashed potatoes, corn and chicken for supper today. Blessings…