”Praise the Lord! For it is good to sing praises to our God; For it is pleasant and praise is beautiful.” Psalm 147:1
I love You Lord, oh Your mercies never fail me. All my days, I’ve been held in Your hand. From the moment that I wake up, until I lay my head, oh I will sing of the goodness of God. All my life You have been faithful. All my life You have been so, so good. With every breath that I am able, oh I will sing of the goodness of God.
Reflection:
I think I’ve been in the wilderness since 2015. That summer I had an open vision at a She Speaks women’s conference in North Carolina where I saw Jesus as the great big Lion (like Aslan in the Narnia series). In this vision we spoke through our thoughts and He told me that He was going to “take me to a place today.” I felt His deep love for me and the excitement He felt for this journey He would lead me on starting that day. I couldn’t hold back my tears as I felt His fulfilling love for me and as I beheld such a wonderful sight. After I received prayer from one of the ladies at the conference I sat down on God the Fathers lap and rested, always keeping my eyes on Jesus as the great big Lion. Then Jesus said come, and I walked beside God, sensing Holy Spirit as we followed Jesus as the great big Lion, down what felt like a wedding aisle. We walked through an arch and into what looked like a stadium that was filled with people who were cheering in celebration. This open vision was more amazing than I can describe. I was filled with purpose as I put my faith in God; I didn’t know what this path would look like but I knew God loved me so much that I trusted Him and I began my journey of obedience. I actually sensed God’s leading before then already, which is why I went to the woman’s conference. I think it’s because I had already made God my priority for several years is why God began leading me in this next step. That was ten years ago and since then I’ve learned that I’ve been in a valley where God has been testing my obedience. This journey has been a lonely one but the most adventurous journey I could ever have in my life. I’ve not always made the right choice as I’ve been learning to know God’s voice but a lot of my learning has come through my mistakes. Throughout this journey God has been pruning me to look more like Jesus. God wants a bride who has been made ready for His Son Jesus; God has been transforming me by putting off the old and putting on the new to make me ready as a bride of Christ. I believe that as a church, the bride of Christ, we need God to help us get ready for our ultimate wedding day when we see Jesus face to face.
It seems like every step I’ve taken as I’ve followed Jesus on this journey has been difficult because I’ve needed to learn how to take these steps of faith. I’ve needed to learn to trust Him, not knowing or understanding why I need to take certain steps. The deeper into this journey we walked, it became more difficult. With every step, I’ve needed to surrender my will for God’s will in my life. I believe that I’ve fully surrendered, hoping God will lead me out of the valley and finally into the promised land where I can enjoy the fruit of my labour and testify what God has done in my life to bring others closer to Him. I think it’s taken longer than it could have been but I’m an imperfect person who makes mistakes and relies on God’s forgiveness and grace every day.
This whole journey has been one of intimacy where God reveals His heart of love a bit more every time I open my heart in trust as I take another step of faith. Every time I’ve failed I’ve needed to get back up and hope and trust again. God gives me dreams, words and visions every night, but I also need wisdom to know which ones are from God, my own desires or from the enemy. I need to pursue God with all my heart, soul and strength, believing that He will never abandon me when I make mistakes or when I take too long. The Bible says that God is faithful and that He is a God of love who loves us unconditionally, and that’s why I trust Him… God has a plan for every one of us, so we need to pursue Him for it and He will lead us into our calling. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
11:49 A vision of an open flower, seeing the big pedals, and a moth coming out from the middle of it where it had been hidden. I pray for God’s will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. I desperately want God’s will for my life. I only want God’s will to prosper in my life…
12:12 “in humble adoration” (and proclaim oh God how great Thou art)
2:32 “If God has made a way through the waves then follow him in.”
5:20 In a dream or vision I saw a rounded handle on a shopping bag slightly move. I have one hanging by my door. In my dream it was sitting on something because the handle was free (I only saw one handle).
5:31 “as the heat…”
5:43 In a vision I saw intimacy, a man and woman sharing the most intimate kiss.
5:50 “She had no prison”
5:52 In a vision I was straightening a man’s shoes and then a woman’s shoes beside his (following Jesus)
7:22 “dough rise”
8:49 In a vague dream I saw a girl running through trees.
In a dream I saw a woman sitting on a white floor; there was a thin white sheet of smooth plywood or something that was moving her.
A scene where there was something bouncing higher and higher (on a couch I think) and I was determined to catch it. I did and then there was green powder everywhere.
A dream where I saw a helicopter in the sky coming down, and my friend and I were going to go in it. My friend didn’t know and it was a really nice surprise.
I also had a vision of weeds growing in wheat. The wheat looked like the wheat or hay that’s up in the barn attic. This is where I do my workouts, though I haven’t been doing them lately. I will today.
Now I need to press into the Lord for discernment. Blessings…🙏🏼
July 25:1:38 “Your will be done on earth” (as it is in heaven)
5:21 “You really really love me”
5:28 “warning”
I had a few dreams: My dad came home from fighting in a war. In my dream I was naming the months he had been gone, April, May, June, July. In my dream it was August (I think). Then I vaguely saw on the calendar that my mom had written her name on one of the months like her name was the name of the month. I saw him walk in the door (and saw he was old) and knew he wouldn’t be fighting in any more wars. Then I saw my mom and dad laying in their bed and because I hadn’t seen him yet I went on the bed and gave him a hug. As I was about to give him a hug he all of a sudden started crying; I saw in his face how much he had missed me (and noticed the lines) and I also started crying because I also had missed him so much. Then I had given him a hug and I was so glad he was back. I think I also dreamt that I said welcome back as I was leaving the house (vague).
I was walking around a field and then I saw someone facing and standing at the edge of a field, looking at me. I knew she was going to take a shortcut and it was like she was inviting me to join her.
I saw someone and wondered if she knew about my family. Then I was hugging someone and was very happy. Then I saw her again and I told her that, and she said she knew. Then the person who I was hugging, I saw his face right in front of mine (a face I didn’t recognize in waking life) and it was like I heard someone say that he wasn’t the one, then he said he needed to go and work on the lighting board.
A dream where I had a long video controller that looked like a gun for playing video games; I was on something high and the it fell onto the street, sliding along the road. Then as I was getting it a car came and took it. I thought they were being nice but then I noticed their intention was to keep it. I tried getting their attention by pulling on their long vehicle like it was a dress, but they ignored me and drove away. Then someone was beside me and I asked if they could get it back for me, but the person was gone. We still had another one.
Running on the right side of the road. A car was behind me but I ignored it and didn’t move for it. Then it turned onto their driveway behind me and it felt like the pressure was off. It was like there was a light beige, long smooth cloth covering over the road; I was running beside the curb and felt like I had good traction.
8:47 A dream, seeing red strawberries in a pail. I ate the last of what I had picked, yesterday. I hadn’t washed them so they stayed nice in the fridge all this time.
I watched one of Preston Morrison’s classes called, “Take back what Satan has stolen.” (A guide to tearing down strongholds) I believe that I’ve been in bondage because of unforgiveness and believing that I wasn’t enough (comparing myself to others in many ways). I need wisdom and discernment when I share dreams because I don’t want to share the ones that are from the enemy. From now on I’m going to take every thought captive before it takes me captive, even my dreams. Today I sobbed, really sobbed, being away from my kids, my family is more difficult than I can put into words, and I love them so very much… I’m done with the enemy trying to stop me from walking in my calling, and I only want to share dreams that are from God.
I’m picturing myself sitting at the table with Jesus, declaring and believing that I am worth sitting at the table with Him. Goodnight, Blessings…🙏🏼
July 26:2:25 In a vision I saw a woman wearing a white dress with black polkadots. I think she was carrying a tray. I saw her back.
2:54 a sliced onion (vision)
2:58 Bella sitting on a red couch (vision)
3:06 I was looking in a yellow straw (vision)
3:12 “provide practical answers”
5:41 “I’m counting my blessings, all that He’s done in my life.”
6:00 “I’m counting my blessings, all that He’s done in my life.”
9:02 “I’m not gonna give up” (wrap my head around that, oh)
I made a smoothie yesterday and put all my very ripe fruit in it. I’m amazed how long they’ve lasted. I can testify that God is providing for me here; packages of food that I opened up weeks ago have not gone stale. Fruit that I’ve had in the fridge have not gone bad despite being in there for several weeks. My back has been doing so well. My smoothie had spinach, blueberries, strawberries, two avocados (very ripe), an apple (very ripe), and protein powder. I had some left and I put it in the fridge for today, so refreshing… 🥤
July 27: 1:33 “I’ll take you your word. If you said it I believe it.”
4:00 “I really really love you”
4:42 I really really love you”
I had a sense about a soother. I had a dream that all of my siblings and I were in a vehicle, driving somewhere, and my oldest brother Peter was driving. I had thought to take the keys to drive but then my brother drove. I have a vague remembering that he forgot his wallet so we were going back and getting it. I remember sitting in the back and I saw all my siblings facing forward. I saw a beautiful mansion overlooking a park, seeing a peaceful river and two tall full green trees in the front yard. I think we drove past it. I had a dream where I was in a little boy’s house. We just got back from somewhere and a woman was leaving who had been like a driving instructor. I thought she would take me home but then she said something about the boys mom would take me home when she got home. It was a sunny day. A dream where my sister had gotten a bunch of free MaryKay products, seeing them in her open cupboard and I was amazed they were all free.
July 28:10:55 “I’m dwelling within”
3:00 “I didn’t know how to receive a gift.”
3:31 “Can I get an Amen!”
July 29: 11:40 “Mrs Penner”
12:38 A toddler was laying in his moms bed and I came to tuck him in.
A dream where I was overwhelmed by the enemy and I couldn’t say anything so I imagined myself at the feet of Jesus in surrender and internally I asked Him to help me. Then love filled my heart and the enemy lost his power over me, and in my dream I woke up.
12:57 “one step at a time”
4:22 “on the mountains and the valley’s all the same”
4:23 “calling something that’s not as though they were.”
In another dream I was wearing high heels because I had gotten a job and was at work, walking towards my room, kind of looking down. This morning as I was walking towards the house to go to the bathroom, the grass was long and wet so I tiptoed all the way there, kind of looking down. I had socks on but took them off on the way back. It reminds me of this dream, walking in high heals and seeing my sister work in her open kitchen as I walked to the bathroom. This encourages me, knowing that God is near.
My kids went on a helicopter ride over the mountains today. Beautiful blue lake, rivers and streams, mountain peeks and all the green evergreen trees growing on the mountainsides. Mosquitos are coming in here again so I need to put my phone down. I’m excited to take a writing class online in August. I think I hear coyotes, love the country. Goodnight…🙏🏼
July 30: 1:30 (I dreamt something just after 1:30 but I was so tired that I fell asleep and I forgot what I dreamt)
A dream that I was in my camper trailer. It was night but all of a sudden it was bright outside and I thought maybe it was because of the meteor shower. Then my camper trailer began moving and I was bracing myself, thinking about what I needed to hold onto so they wouldn’t crash (things were shifting). It stopped moving and I looked and saw that I was in a kids playground; it bumped into a play structure and I thought it was nice that it stopped there. I saw some water pouring from a part of the play structure up above like it had been raining or was raining. I also dreamt about a watch.
3:35 “God story” (Ann Wilson)
In my dream I saw on a white paper that God was apologizing to me. I saw it happen as the words went onto the paper and I was so amazed that God was actually writing to me. It was one sentence that started with, “I apologize…” (I know that God is perfect and never makes mistakes)
Another dream where I saw some water coming down from a tall building. It was like there was a river at the top and water was leaking over.
6:18 “right away” (it didn’t have time to turn into a legend)
6:39 I apologized
7:09
7:40 “Look at dis”
I had a dream where I had been working since we had arrived at a place, and Helena came to me and told me that my work was done. Then I jumped into the water and just laid there, limp. Another part of the dream was that I was in water (like and I could feel that it wasn’t as hot as before. I will always keep following God’s plan for my life, it doesn’t matter how exhausted I am. God is for me, so I know He will make a way. Blessings…🙏🏼
July 31: 12:25 “Love Comes Softly”
A dream where in my dream I woke up and was deeply relieved because I had done what God had asked me to do. (Done) Goodnight…
August 1: I had a dream where a few of us were in a room walking to the next room which was bigger. We were doing some crafts or something. A woman who was with us all of a sudden told us that she wouldn’t be staying. Then she said something about being busy.
Another dream where I was standing in a lot of sand and as I was manoeuvring my feet deeper into the sand, I lost sight of the highway because of the mound of sand around me. I also dreamt something about seeing some people riding bike.
Today my sister and I went kayaking and ended the day with a campfire with friends -a good time, Blessings…🙏🏼
August 2: 1:48 “get your IK out of the way”
2:20 “Can I get an Amen!”
2:23 “Trust me”
2:35 “A woman who hears everything “
August 3: 11:52 “trail mix”
12:11 “I declare”
5:55 “top”
6:21 “excuse me” I saw a yellow bucket
Trusting that I already made it. God had already told me that I made it, that I’m safe and free. 🙏🏼
Aug 4: 7:24 “Aristocats” (I’m going to watch it this afternoon on vhs -I haven’t seen this movie yet).
8:40 Fully surrender all”
“I surrender all”
I had a dream where I was in a beautiful house, organized and neat that belonged to my mom and dad. They had two cute little puppies. They were walking outside, past a side or back door. Connie was walking with them, I think smiling and looking at me; they were going somewhere. It was sunny outside and they were joyful. Cathy invited me to go to their homegroup this Friday, it may represent that.
Aug 5: 1:54
3:47 a vision of a person facing forward and stepping down backwards from something.
3:58 In my heart I heard a small familiar laugh…
4:11 Two weddings in one day; the second one was a surprise to the guests.
4.59 “Obadiah”
5:12 “a brand new start”
6:49 “Nat just took me”
8:36 sliced food, maybe strawberries on the table
A dream of being able to choose which house to live in, in a bay, in a circle (the houses were free). My friend chose one and I chose the one beside hers. Then I was cleaning the stairs (with something like tape that was as big as a sheet of paper) as I was going down the stairs outside in the back. There was someone with me, behind me. Then I jumped off onto the ground when I was close to the bottom; the stairs were slanted, causing me to jump off. Yay I’m done!
8:51 “mixed roasted nuts”
A picture of a woman wearing red lipstick and a black dressy hat that covered much of her face. It’s been very difficult, being away from my kids and not knowing if I’m still where God wants me to be.
I popped myself some popcorn and I’m watching Loch Ness, Scotland. I’ve not seen this movie before. Cucumbers from our garden!! Goodnight…
August 6: 6:37 “I found a love, for me, darling just dive right in, and follow my lead.”
I had a vague dream about W Peter. She was with someone, standing on a platform and writing something on a whiteboard. This evening I was thinking about knowing God; how do I know if I know God? And right away I knew that I know God because I know His love deep in my heart. I know God’s love in my heart because we walked on a long journey together, and because of that, I now live in freedom, walking in God’s purpose for my life….
7:52 “…until Your Kingdom come, and our work is done….” (Petra) I dreamt I saw a picture of yellow bananas and something blue together. In my heart I’ve completely surrendered to the Lord’s will in my life, and I declare that Thy Kingdom has come, and our work is done in Jesus name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen. 🙏🏼
August 7: 12:24 “out” (Done, free, outside)
3:48 “I love you Lord, and I lift my voice to worship you oh my soul rejoice.”
6:07 I was peeling a potato.
7:12 a vision of a guy wearing a matching red hat and a red shirt (with designs on them), standing outside looking up at a sign on a building that was right above an entrance. (I didn’t look at the time right away.) It was like a camera was moving towards the person from beside the building.
7:19 In a vision I saw a bowl full of shelled peanuts.
7:33 “When the ocean meets the sky, I’ll be sailing…”
Today I’m going to take some online classes, Hearing God, and finishing the book, Pioneer.
Aug 8: 11:25 A vision of seeing someone going into a store to buy some food.
11:36 “standing on one leg. It was really hard.” In a vision a boy said this.
12:30 “Tend”
4:38 “Don’t cry” In a vision I saw a red heart (jam jam)
8:11 In a dream someone put a delicate necklace on a woman’s neck. I saw that the necklace was held together by a popcan tab.
Connie sees my difficulty and is strongly directing my steps; Helena’s coming here on Saturday to Sunday, and I’m going for counselling next week. Last night I woke up because a strong wind was shaking my camper trailer, and I saw a flash of light right beside my window, a lightning bolt and a really loud clap of thunder. In my prayer time during the storm I declared “peace be still,” and within about a minute it became calm!! Praise God!! Missing my kids, my family more than words can say.…❤️
August 9: 1:03 “He arose, he arose, hallelujah Christ arose.”
4:08 “oh death where is your sting”
4:35 “That’s perfect”
When we go in God’s strength, we have peace in our heart and we see ourselves differently; we see ourselves like how God sees us, His son or daughter. Our heart needs to be fully submitted to Him and His will for our life. We need to be fully obedient. When we have this transformation in our heart is when we’re walking in His strength, in the Spirit, walking step by step with Him. (Time is 5:55 -notes in the night, couldn’t sleep)
6:16 I saw a picture of a black butterfly with a white ring outlining its wings.
6:30 “Jesus is calling me back”
6:48 “Back to the table back to my heart, with my arms wide open I’m running back to you”
6:53 A dream where I took everything on a table and held it close to me. A picture of a woman leaning on a counter.
8:12 A dream where I went and had filled out a paper. The friendly person at a desk said where I needed to put it and I looked but there was nothing there. Lucas and Bella were waiting for me. They had been outside but had come in because I was taking so long. I part of a dream where I had drawn a line on the floor on one side, and now I needed to draw a line on the other side; I couldn’t do it without some people so I was waiting for them.
August 10: 12:04 “God story”
3:14 “I’ll take you at your word. If you said it I believe it.”
5:53 I and a group of people were with B at her house. I saw several things: Every time I met her we would meet with a hug (two times in my dream; the second time I wondered if she was tired of me). I was fully exposed. Then I saw three of B’s sweaters on the floor and chose the red one and then the orange one. I held the red one in my left hand and orange one in the right, and then I looked for her to ask if I could wear one of them. I saw she was driving her vehicle from the back of the house to the front. Then I saw her walk into her house and I quickly went to her. When I walked through the door I saw a thing hanging on the light switch. It had three pipes and was the base of something she was building. A scene where Connie was coming, walking, on a gravel road to where I was, having a smile on her face. A scene where a husband and wife were doing a new thing; he had been shown something (on the table) and he was looking at her (at me) through the group of people who were there, smiling with anticipation.
August 11: 6:24 In a vision I saw gold on a persons hand (like a beautiful rectangle plate)
6:39 Forever
6:43 a vision of someone running supernaturally fast towards me, around a rounded corner.
7:01 “1 million, so I need you to know”
7:06 “Look out the window”(meteor shower tomorrow)
7:12 I swam to and touched the edge of a pool.
7:14 I saw someone with brown hair wearing green. I was behind him and he turned his head and looked at me.
7:27 legal information
7:39 lyrics from the song Creed, by Petra
7:48 something about 3 children
7:50 “Father we pray Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”
8:57 A water bottle was open and it was full of water.
A dream where my neighbour on Noble ave, A, asked if I could pray for her. I went to her house and her husband was there, though I didn’t see him. There was a birthday party for a kid and I prayed for him, speaking life and purpose into him. A scene where I was walking but I couldn’t see anything; everything was foggy. Then I realized with relief that my glasses were just dirty, and then I was able to see clearly. A scene where I had gotten up onto a ledge by a wall on my way upstairs. I had seen where the stairs would normally be was a slope with a mat on it, and I knew I would slip if I tried going up that way. I was afraid to fall and it took me some moments to be confident, and then I held firmly onto something, stepped around a corner and was about to step onto the floor securely. I vaguely saw that neighbour was sitting on the floor, waiting for me. I saw they had two pools, seeing the blue of the water, going from shallow to deep.
Aug 12: 3:57 “Bronwyn” In this dream I was outside in the country and I saw someone grow as tall as the trees. He transformed into a giant made from roots. His name was Bronwyn.
6:12 “Pierce Brosnan” A dream where in my dream I had taken a nap and Jesus had taken a nap. We were in the kitchen; he was warming up some food for himself and I wiped a small square table clean. As I was walking towards him I asked if he had a good nap. I could see on his face that he had rested, had taken a nap and that he had just woken up. Then I saw his back as he was preparing food. I cherished being close to him, wished I could stay close to him and talk with him but I didn’t know what to say as I walked out of the kitchen. Then I walked beside his bed and saw a package of Ramon noodles. It was at the edge of the bed and I adjusted it so it wouldn’t fall off. Then my dad was in front of me (looked young) standing on a ledge and stepped down. He was smiling and I noticed all of his straight white teeth. I think one of my sisters was there.
7:54 In a dream a yellow car was making a U-turn.
8:18 “As soon as possible”
9:12 A dream of having 3 white envelopes with lots of money and a fourth with even more money. It was early at an outside public event so no one was there yet, and I hid the envelops behind a couch and a wall to keep them safe. Then I went down a steep short water slide. Then I was with one of my friends; she went down a higher water slide and then I was afraid to go down the shorter one, the same one I had gone down before (there was a bit of a free fall). I had a vision in my dream that I was twirling as I went down because I knew the water slide would catch me, would gradually lead me down, but I was still afraid to go on it. Then I wanted to go and get the envelopes because I thought people would find them and take them, so I hurriedly tried to find my way there, which I couldn’t and it was frustrating for me. I vaguely sensed Bella was with me in the beginning of the dream because I was going to share the money with her. Then Connie was with me, following and resisting me. I had turned around because the way I was going was the wrong way. I could see the museum I was trying to get to but I needed to figure out where the path was that would lead me there. Then we had walked down a passage, walked through the door and the door closed. Connie quickly went and saw the door was locked. She tried the combination but it remained locked. But the passageway led us to where I wanted to go, and in front of us was the museum that I vaguely saw had 5 columns. This morning my window was open and I looked out and saw a beautiful bright yellow bird. After that I also saw a green bird and then a blue jay that had perched itself on a branch by my window.
August 13: 10:53 “The power of the Holy Spirit.” A dream where I had just walked into a field when a herd of bulls started running towards me. There was a bull that was pushing another bull towards me and I was trying not to get trampled so I quickly walked out of the way. I had a glimpse of a brown horse running with them.
11:12 “Quality time”
11:44 “David Crowder band” Dream where someone was at home in the backyard and a guy was in his car, popping his head through the sunroof, nervous and excited to see her. I encouraged him to go and see her so he went. She didn’t know he had come to the back yard and went into her house, so he sadly began walking back to his car.
11:47 “I have a Saviour”
12:06 In a vision I saw an orange cloth and a yellow cloth being put into my purse.
7:10 “Hold still”
I heard the word “grace” during the night.
8:47 “Faithful to the call” A dream where I was on the roof of my house in the country at my sisters place. I saw her coming and she went into my house. Then I had jumped off, went into the entrance to my house, excited to see her. I was looking down as I was going to go into the main part of my house, thinking it was totally okay that she didn’t even knock on the door but went straight in. Then I stopped, turned around and saw her coming in. I had a faint thought that she had used the bathroom which was right beside the entrance. The entrance had white walls and she stood still, her back towards the wall, looking at me but didn’t talk. Then I couldn’t see her; I could only see her shadow. Then I told her that I could only see her shadow. Then with my eyes I went back and forth and I saw her in stripes, like there was something covering the middle of my eyes. Then I heard music coming from the parking lot and I looked and saw a grey car and also a convertible with its top down. The person driving it began driving forward and stopped to wait for me. I could only see the side and back of the persons hair. I looked carefully to make sure and then I was so excited as I started to run towards the car.
10:23 “Carolyn” This morning I was feeling a bit hopeless and I heard in my heart the Lord whisper my name. I’m remembering that God is always with me, He always sees me, He always loves me and I’m so thankful…❤️
August 14: 11:25 “I’m alive, I’m alive” (lyrics)
10:22 I dreamt I had just gotten onto a very high slide.
11:04 “lifestyle”
Aug 15: 11:53 “quickly getting out of the car”
3:59 I saw a picture of a burger
5:53 Rest
6:10 a picture of two pans stacked together where the handles opened up and three water bottles.
I had a wonderful day, seeing an aunt and two uncles and my cousin whom I hadn’t seen for some years.Goodnight…Blessings…🙏🏼
Aug 16: 12:12 In a dream I saw a woman sit on a high slide. She had a light blue lifejacket on and she sat down backwards; she was going down backwards. I also heard a phrase in German, something like “du mats mat fora”(my mom told me I need to come with her and Connie to shop for groceries.)
“I surrender all, I surrender all”
Aug 17:
In this dream I was waiting outside of someone’s door and she opened it and was surprised to see me and invited me in.
In this dream I was downstairs in my room thinking I had been too loud; the couples’ bedroom was right on top of mine.
In this dream I couldn’t find Bella. Then I found her; she said she had gone with some of her friends somewhere. I was so relieved to see her again.
I was at the top of a hill when my phone slipped from my fingers, rolled down the hill and plopped into the river. My friend was standing beside me and we both watched; he had fixed it right before that happened. Then I knew that I needed to get a new phone because the other one was gone.
In this dream I saw Jesus’ hands; he was doing something with dental floss, showing how to use it effectively. His fingers were moving quickly. In part of the dream I saw the floss making a straight white line.
I had the most restful sleep last night; I left my phone in the living room and wrote down my dreams in the morning. After lunch the three of us got a dipped chocolate vanilla twist ice cream cone, so good. Then we went for a walk in the park and then she brought me home:) I bought a white leather blazer for four dollars at MCC! It was very nice seeing my aunt, two uncles and my cousin. Today Bella FaceTimed me, such a nice surprise! It’s raining here right now. Blessings…🫶🏻
Aug 18: 12:55 (or 56) “If you can imagine that you have a girl, or a boy and you write songs for them.” Then my friend when I was a kid looked at me like I had the most wonderful idea and said “I love that.” Her sister was sitting close to her.
4:54 “All these years; don’t give up.”
7:17 It was Noah’s birthday. In my dream I didn’t have a person in mind when I heard the name Noah. I also dreamt that someone asked me to say “a line” in a video; I said yes and laid on the sand like I saw someone laying on the sand (at the beach; I was laying on my bed as I was doing the Bible study online tonight). Another dream where someone wanted to paint and my sister offered him her shirt but I wanted him to use my shirt (because I had two of them.) Another dream where I sensed someone sitting on a chair but all I saw was a chair that was piled high with clean clothes.
In a dream I squeezed into the freezer and saw an orange kitten; its back legs were stiff from the cold; its head, front legs and tummy were okay. The areas that were okay were orange and the rest was a faded colour. I picked it up and gently held it on my tummy to warm it up. This week I’m going to read and spend quality time with God, and I’ll be bringing some plastic containers with some of my stuff to store at my mom’s place in her garage. I’m taking an online writing class all week; today was the first session and I’m really excited about that! God is going to fill me this week as I spend time with Him. I’m having salmon, mashed potatoes and an avocado for supper tonight. Blessings…🙏🏼
Aug 19: In a dream I was wondering where my kids and I would live for the winter. I finished my drawing for my flower painting. I’m going to start painting it tomorrow.
August 20: 12:13 “Baby baby baby”
Aug 21: 2:39 I’m turning
4:48 “we’re not pencil sharp”
5:41 in a dream I was at Helena’s place and I was having a hard time shutting off the water. I saw a leak in the tank and at first it wouldn’t shut off and I almost gave up but then before she shut it off I quickly tried again and I managed to shut it off.
A dream where I was at Connie’s house. I had a wet cloth in my hand and was following her, wiping off some of the furniture as I walked but was conscious about what I touched, thinking it represented something. I saw a pool table and a foosball table. A man and his teenage son came and she was talking to the dad who was from a different country. Connie liked working with teenagers and she told me that. I also told her that I liked working with teenagers. Then she went to the kitchen. I was sitting on the couch and the man was sitting also, and I began having a conversation with him, asking him if he was from wpg. He began describing his workplace. Then Connie came and she said something about her bringing three bowls of the soup that I had made (the last three bowls). In another dream I saw someone’s hair; the front part swooped down over the persons face and the side went out a bit, both were the same length. Another short dream where I was sitting in the back of my brothers car; he was going back home. In my dream I was eating something. I was thinking there was nothing else for me to do so it was fine that I went with him.
Another dream where I had fallen in deep water and there was someone on a boat who threw a white round lifeline for me to grab ahold of. A dream where I had no fear of falling, knowing that God would take care of me. I haven’t been putting a lot of effort into writing my book but will work on it today. Last night there was a lightening storm, and it rained and hailed a lot. I prayed that there wouldn’t be any dents in the truck and there weren’t, praise God:) Goodnight…
Aug 22: 11:17 “Hi, I’m Carolyn. This is an event where I’m monuating.” In my dream this meant to agree with the rules of the building. (I don’t think monuating is a word)
4:21 Yes Papa, I give you my yes. (Praying)
6:34 “and I’ll sing because You are good and I’ll dance because You are good and I’ll shout because You are good, you are good to me”
Aug 23: 1:15 “Mother” My kids are coming over this morning and I’m so excited!! We’ll have the rest of the soup I made yesterday for lunch:)
Last night I had a vague vision of someone helping someone put on a white blazer. Today I had a wonderful time with my kids. They came around 9:30 and left around 1:30. I couldn’t help but cry when they came. I watched Know God, Gods word for us, Connecting with God, and Better Together. Something that was really good for me to hear was that Jesus read the Bible. Of course I’ve always known that but somehow hearing it really helped me to know how authentic and real the Bible really is; somehow knowing this went deep into my heart. Blessings…
Aug 24: I had a dream about going up.
Aug 25: Dream, seeing a hand reach down and a hand reaching up.
A dream, seeing a woman taking a sword and using it well. There were boxes stacked high and I vaguely saw someone standing behind the boxes as she pointed her sword in their direction.
A dream where it had been so difficult, but I made it as I took the last step up (from something like a sand dune ditch). Someone beat me because I was so slow because I was so tired.
A dream where two little boys squeezed through a small opening like they were just born, and I sang the happy birthday song.
I was sitting. A white paper. Peace. (In a dream a few nights ago I had said something about being in agreement with the rules of the building, and because I was offered help I emailed and asked for help.)
8:42 “You’re the summit where my feet are” I now know what it’s like being carried by Jesus.
I dreamt two nights ago that I was under a glass of water. There was a hole on my left where I heard that we were supposed to be quiet. Then someone beside me asked if I knew what this was as they began cutting the glass with something which would result in the glass breaking, causing the water to break open on us. There was a child beside me.
Aug 26: A dream where I was in a building with people, talking with someone, and I asked this person if they got my email. Then they said “oh yeah” and led me to sit on a stool. There was a scene where it seemed like they were welcoming me into their group; I was sitting at a counter and someone had their IPad on it and I saw a Notes app that they were clicking on. It seemed like they were going to give me a tablet to use to take notes on.
August 27: 2:20 “Menorah of God’s hope”
3:29 Ready
A dream where I was soaring really high above a mountain, seeing the greenery and having a feeling of such awe and wonder. Another dream where I was helping prepare for a wedding that day.
Spending time with family; I’m glad for family… 🙏🏼
August 28: 12:04 “Oh what a beautiful day, oh what a beautiful life.” What a beautiful and sunny day today…🫶🏻
Aug 29:
4:21 “You are my all in all”
Sept 2: 1:24 I had a sense of being comforted, like God was comforting me. ❤️
Sept 4: What the enemy has planned for evil and destruction in my life, God is turning it around and using it for His glory. I’ve learned many things from this journey: I’ve learned what it means to pursue God. I’ve learned what love is. I’ve learned to fear God and overcome my fear of man. I think that some of my dreams are from the Lord (and some are my own thoughts and desires) but for the most part I don’t know the difference. I gave my life to follow Jesus, I’ve grown closer to God, to Jesus through it. I’m learning to pray decrees and will be praying this way from now on. Blessings…
Sept 6: 7:18 In a dream I took a sip of a brown mug with at blueish green (Teal) handle. My heart is willing…. Blessings… 🙏🏼
Sept 7: 1:15 (saw yellow in a dream)
In my prayer time yesterday I heard in my heart a soft “be still,”
October 5: It’s been so long that I don’t know where to start. I’m enjoying my time, though it’s also so very difficult. I have the most beautiful view of the lake but I’m sad that winter is coming so quickly. Mondays are our day with no schedule; two weeks ago on a calm and sunny morning I took a kayak and went all the way to the south end of the lake, taking about half an hour. As I was paddling, huge fish (a few feet long and about a foot wide) would pop out of the water close to me.. it was so beautiful. I joined the worship team, two women and myself. One of them is teaching me the guitar, and I’m so excited about that. I’m enjoying singing, harmonizing with them. They have such beautiful voices. I’m in housekeeping (cleaning bathrooms, sometimes laundry or getting rooms ready for people when they come for conferences) in the morning and in the kitchen in the afternoon, baking, cooking a soup or something or I’m helping cut up veggies. There was a young adults church group here this last weekend and I made a big pot of cabbage borscht for one of the meals. I also made the filling for stuffed sweet peppers. I made butter the other day and it actually tastes like the butter we buy at the store! I’m growing closer to the Lord here, growing more in love, in intimacy. We’re reading Under Cover by John Bevere, a very good book. We also have a Bible reading plan to read the Bible in a year. I’m reminded that I’m not going back to “Egypt,” and that my life going forward will not look the same as it did. I want to grow into the new wineskin; I want to keep looking up and every day keep growing and becoming more like Jesus, being more confident about His voice and His direction in my every day life. I was flagging during an event here, a 23 hour worship time and I know there was a breakthrough in doing that. My heart is soft and open for the Lord… God showed me in a dream a few weeks ago a lady putting her finger over her lips and I’m thinking it means not to share my dreams anymore. I’m pursuing God more intimately, growing deeper in love with Him. But what I know for certain is that God leads me and He has a better plan for me than I could ever think of for myself, so I’m trusting in Him. I’m completely in a place in my life where the only thing I can do is rely on God, and I’m relying on Him for everything in my life. He has my heart in His hands…
My sister gave me a zucchini so I baked zucchini loaves and chocolate zucchini muffins today… 🫰🏼
October 11: Happy Thanksgiving… The first Sunday I was here I took a nap and I dreamt, seeing someone putting a finger over their lips, shushing me, so I thought I was supposed to not share my dreams anymore. I thought that was from God. Two nights ago I dreamt that someone walked through a door and it closed (not transparent) behind them, then I was by a transparent door and wall beside the door; someone was walking to the door to open it for me.
Sept 7: In a nap I saw a woman putting her finger over her lips, showing me to be quiet. She was smiling and it was peaceful.
Sept 9: “Pass it down to Peter.” I awoke from my nap because I sensed a shadow go passed me like someone walked by me in the light, causing a shadow.
Sept 11: 2:19 “Dignity”
9:44 “I did it”
10:10 “you belong to me”
11:06 “you are the reason”
Sept 13: I had a dream where I saw someone walk through a closed door. I hadn’t seen it the first time and then it happened again and then I saw it.
Sept 14: 4:01 “Your name is power, Your name is healing, Your name is life.” (I’m thinking I needed to be able to receive God’s rest, and I thought I did)
4:17 Yes
5:26 (PM)Lyrics from the song, Gratitude. I woke up because I felt or sensed a shadow cross my eyes (there was no one in the room).
Sept 15: “Revelation 1”
8:05 “In Christ Jesus”
8:07 “This is where Jesus starts”
In a dream I saw a big train engine parked in a garage.
Sept 16: I heard “5:29, yay” right before waking up.
2:49 “Nothings gonna take me away from your love.”
Sept 19: A dream where I went straight through an intersection; I saw someone standing on my left, showing me that I needed to turn left but I had already gone straight so I kept going. The road was rough and I went two blocks. Then I stopped because the road was blocked by high walls of snow so I started to turn around but got stuck. (I didn’t know what this new road looked like so I had kept doing what I had been doing, laying down at the alter during class. When I got this dream I stopped.
Sept 20: In a dream a man and woman were getting married; he was standing in front and she was sick in bed close by. He said he loves her and that she’s beautiful. At first I thought she looked old but then I thought they looked the same age.
A dream where someone jumped into a cone shaped thing. He landed close to the small opening at the bottom and walked through. There was a rope attached to him that broke when he landed (no strings attached?) I stood at the edge about to jump, seeing flaps open at the bottom. (Because I had heard the word, dignity, I laid down at the alter when someone began playing the guitar and the pastor was almost done preaching. I’m sensing that in doing this in dignity, I’m on the new road.
Sept 21: “Sheza A” (In church I sang more comfortably on the worship team. I remember when Sheza first began singing and when she was a bit shy to start.)
Sept 22: 2:36 “I just want you”
3:50 “I know a name”
A dream where someone opened a hidden arched doorway and I followed her through. It felt like a library and a place of learning.
Sept 23: 3:21 “Every time I call your name”
Sept 24: A dream where a woman gave me her burger. It was cut in half so I asked her if she wanted half and she said no, that I could have the whole thing. I was so thankful because I knew she gave me everything she had and didn’t have anything for herself.
Sept 25: 4:49 “Angels” (later in Abide someone said he saw angels in the room when we were all dancing with flags)
5:55 “Talking to Jesus”
Sept 26: “What a friend we have in Jesus”
Sept 27 “I will come for you.”
Sept 29: a dream where I was trying to jump up onto the back of my truck, trying to land sitting. I attempted a few times and then succeeded, sitting beside someone who was sleeping.
October 1: A dream where someone was constantly shooting arrows at me and I was constantly deflecting them with a small shield.
October 2: 4:20 “Royalty of God”
October 3: 2:38 “God You’re so good to me.”
October 4: 1:24 “I just want you”
October 5: 7:09 A picture of a woman sitting in the captains room in the front of a ship. I saw lots of windows and saw it was sunny and the water was calm.
October 6: 10:27 I saw a picture of brown horses running on the water in the middle of the lake.
October 7: A dream where each of us needed to go into a place where there was a lion and I was so afraid of it. Then I had gone into a small windowed area and had closed the transparent door. I saw my parents on the other side of the door wanting to come in but I was afraid of opening the door. Then I wasn’t in that room anymore and then I saw the lion and saw it was only a small cub that was sleeping on the floor. Before that I vaguely had a picture of hugging a great big lion.
October 9: 3:06 I saw a picture of the numbers 555 at the bottom of some ingredients as I was baking. (I made 8 pies for Thanksgiving)
I had a dream where a horse was with my sister Connie. Then another dream where a horse was trying to bite my lips and I was kind of holding my breath.
Oct 10: A dream where I saw a door close behind someone. Then I saw someone walk to a transparent door, opening it for me.
Oct 12: 4:47 “Today”
(Or 4:47 “On the edge of His will)
I had a dream where I was on a high hill. I had jumped over a high crevice to the other side and was afraid to jump back over it and couldn’t. Then we were doing something else.
A dream where a girl who felt like she was my daughter. I sensed she was about to run away into the city and I stopped her by telling her to come back to me. She listened and then I was hugging her and told her that she’s beautiful and if she would run away, she’d be running away from love because I loved her. I hope I’m doing the right thing by posting these… I’m trusting in God. Love and blessings…🙏🏼
Oct 13: 12:58 “Thank You Lord, I just want to thank You Lord.”
October 14: I know I’m on a new road but I don’t know how to walk on this new road. I don’t know what this new road looks like and I don’t want to bring what I walked through onto this new road. I keep getting dreams about me sitting. I’m not a slave anymore and have risen with Christ. I’m clinging onto hope… I’m learning how to bake with gluten free flour. The heart beside the pie plate I didn’t do; I saw it there and knew God gave me this to remind me of His love so I put it into the center of this pie. It has been so very long… my faith is resilient; I know that God will finish what He started. I still believe, Lord help my unbelief ❤️❤️
October 20: I just have a few thoughts. I desperately want to do the right thing, and I desperately need God. I’ve known a difficult journey with Him so that’s what comes to mind when I think about Him. I don’t understand my walk, but I know that I’m walking under cover in Godly submission. The last part of my dream last night was, I saw Connie walking with someone and I didn’t want her to see me but she did, and she told me she’d see me then; in waking life she’s coming here on Thursday, and in my dream I said yes, I’ll see her then. She was peaceful as she smiled at me. Two nights ago I dreamt my kids had rang the doorbell in my place of community and were waiting for me to open the door. This morning I finished reading the book, Compelled by Love (Heidi Baker), expanding my heart for Gods love, and I’ve started reading, Classic Christianity, by Bob George. Blessings…
Oct 21: “The radiance of the people they forget.”
12:50 “The joy of the Lord is my strength.” I heard this in my heart as I was in prayer. I’m beginning to live my life on purpose and simply choosing not to worry. I’m also choosing to be thankful; gratitude helps me not to feel sorry for myself… I have a bit of a headache. In a dream last night I saw and wondered how a lady could breathe under water. I’m so deeply thankful for God’s grace, which I need so desperately. I know my posts have been so boring; I’m sorry… thank you for being patient with me… I’m thankful for God’s faithfulness. On Thursday I’ll be working in the kitchen, baking apple rhubarb crisp and rhubarb cake, everyone’s favourite!!! I bake everything here gluten and dairy free -I’m so glad for the opportunity to learn this! Blessings….🙏🏼
October 22: 10:29 “Carolyn”
2:22
I had a dream where I made a little bit of soup, a dream where Connie was working at a fast food restaurant, and a dream of intimacy between a husband and wife, resting in each others arms. I’m making two kinds of soups tomorrow. I cooked a broth for both today so I’ll put them together tomorrow. Blessings, have a wonderful time, this warm autumn evening…🙏🏼
Oct 23: 1:11 “Varum” (“why” in high German)
I made a big pot of gluten, dairy free cream of cauliflower soup and a cabbage roll soup. I’m turning the table of worry. Love and blessings…🙏🏼
Oct 28: I had a clear vision: I saw a turtle with two strings, one on each side of its shell. Each of the strings had weight attached at the bottom and both strings were cut off at the shell, freeing the turtle to swim better. The turtle was in water. A turtle represents humility, wisdom, protection, a time of hiddenness, a seasoned leader, a father or mother of the faith (Unlocking the language of dreams -Dr. Luc Niebergall). I’m not sure which one of these is represented in my dream. Blessings…🙏🏼 Going swimming tomorrow. In a dream last night I saw my sister. I went for a run today, so out of shape. Having the mindset of knowing the God of life instead of the genie Jesus. I’m currently reading Classic Christianity by Bob George, and in it he was talking a bit about that, not genie but a form of Jesus rather than the God of life. Blessings…
October 31: I had a dream where I was standing by a table and someone made room for me by moving over, and I sat down. I had made it in time so there was a spot for me. I felt like I was royalty, a daughter of the King, and in my dream this was the King’s table (I had landed firmly on the ground before that). I had asked the Lord the evening before who I was, and I sense that the Lord is saying that I’m His daughter. I had a wonderful time swimming today, jumping and diving into the water, floating and resting in the deep end. 🙏🏼