“Shirley goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:6
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I worship You with a desperate and hopeful heart.
Come My daughter, rest, all is well with you. You are Mine; be at rest.
Papa, in my walk with You, I will do my best. I can only run through doors that are open. So I’m putting my trust in You as I follow You in obedience.
My darling, I love you with an everlasting love. I am near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
April 2: 2:02 I saw a person wearing a brown round rimmed hat and wearing a brown shirt.
5:02 “Your pastor will say well done my servant.”
Dream about seeing Jesus. I brought food along to church and was serving it. I had a big pot of something that had sausages in it. I was enjoying giving the students lots of food. In one persons plate I gave a really big sausage and they indicated it was too much so I put the sausage back into the pot. Then I was in a room only with who I thought was Jesus. Then I saw his face and he stuck out his tongue and it reached down a long way past his evil looking face. Then he looked pudgy and not like himself and was smiling an evil smile. I knew this wasn’t Jesus.
Then I was in a scene where I saw the cab part of a semi truck on a trailer and I climbed up into it. It was a bit of a struggle but I managed. I saw the drivers side was on the right and there was white plastic on that side of the windows. Then I looked down and didn’t know how I was going to drive off of the trailer, imagining myself crashing so I got back down.
In another part of my dream I saw my sister in law. She was sitting on the floor, smiling at me and wearing a yellow plaid shirt. I noticed I was also wearing a yellow plaid shirt that looked the same as hers.
There was a scene where I was driving away from an event; I got onto my motorcycle and drove away. I vaguely remember wearing black boots.
6:21 “How long will I have to fight, just for me to stay alive, I know You’re there God please, meet me here tonight.” (Lyrics: When I Fall by Katy Nichole)
7:58 “I will bless thee and keep thee” I had a short dream or picture of a man and woman together. She was looking up into his face and he was gazing into hers, enjoying each others company. Sensing intimacy with Jesus…
This morning I made French Toast for Bella and her two friends, and then also for Lucas and myself. This reminds me of my dream about getting a plate of food after everyone else had eaten; in my dream I saw a row of chairs and seeing someone sitting on one end of it. I also had a handful of cutlery as I brought the food, maple syrup and the other pancake syrup, and plates downstairs for the girls.
I’m reading “Wee Sir Gibbie Of The Highlands” and as I read the name Galbraith (His real name is Sir Gilbert Galbraith) I remembered that I had heard this last name in a dream or a word (two nights ago) right before waking up!! I’m at the part where his real identity is made known. Blessings… 🙏🏻
April 3: 2:16 a white butterfly
5:17 You catch me when I fall
6:27 “Lonely, I need you to hold me… all the strength I got, you catch me when I fall, catch me b me when I fall…”
6:36 “his house” (sensing the Zeilstra house?)
6:42 please help me now…
6:54 “would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven…”
7:04 “close to home”seeing one lid melted onto another and someone cutting them apart
7:16 “Desperation Agree”
7:20 “only one that survives this”
7:24 seeing someone on a motorcycle ready to go
I was working in the kitchen and my friend was my boss. Someone gave her instructions about something and because of that she asked me to bake a pie. I had a ball of butter in my hand, feeling like I was almost done doing what I was doing but I needed to put that down and bake a pie. Then I had baked a pie. I had felt like I needed to eat a slice of pie that I had baked but because of all the calories I only ate a portion of it and had left the crust (I had a long piece of crust in my hand). I’m sensing that I also didn’t eat the main part of the pie. We had been talking about that her daughter was following me on social media. In waking life they’re coming over for lunch this Sunday and I was thinking of baking a pie.
April 4: In a dream I saw a wood burning stove, like the one we had in our living room when we lived in the country.
This morning I had a picture of a tree standing underneath the ground; it was really dark.
8:11 I had a vision of two people wearing yellow, jumping into something together that was on the ground. I saw their backs.
8:36 “Yes my daughter” I heard in my heart during my prayer language. (I also heard in my heart, “I know” when I told Him I would do anything He asked me to do)
8:45 “Yes my daughter, it’s all done.”
9:41 “I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I know that full well.”
9:49 I saw a medium sized pot facing down, like it was drying after it had been washed. “That’s an old friend”
9:58 In a dream or vision I saw someone drink from a water fountain.
10:03 In a vision I saw a young woman sitting in a chair and kind of giggle.
Blessings…🙏🏼
April 5: 5:55 “You catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall…”
6:06 A vision of Jesus looking up and laughing “ha ha ha,” a wonderful sound to my ears…
6:26 “Trust the process”
7:03 “spoken over you”
7:05 “to finish this fight”
7:08 “just to let you know” I had a vision, very vague, maybe more like a sense of the colours green and red and seeing gifts.
7:10 “Your name”
7:35 “Value” untangling my sister Helena’s hair and my own at the same time (one hand in my sisters hair and my other hand in my own.) I had seen her smile and part her hair with her pointer finger, parting the top from the bottom, and I was untangling the bottom section of her hair. Bella was standing behind me, helping untangle my hair (I was helping her untangle it.) I also saw something that was moving on the ground kind of circling us where we were sitting, and when it stopped moving I saw it was a small piece of a needled pine tree “branch.” I think I saw it was green.
8:15 “You catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall”
8:17 vision, there was a ring hidden in the folded, outside part of the bottom of a cereal box (could have been a yellow cheerios box). Someone wanted to take the box and the person who knew it was there was going to take the ring before the other person could take the box (to protect the ring).
9:47 I woke up. I had another dream but I don’t remember it.
Today I’m making soup and an apple pie for tomorrow, and going painting at 1:00. Yesterday Bella and I had Greek food at the mall; we shared a plate (salmon meal). I believe my heart is at rest, trusting in God. ❤️🔥
April 6: 1:00 “I want to own a house”
5:01 I began hearing, “you catch me when I fall, except I heard “you watch me”(I didn’t hear “when I fall.”)
5:50 “I brought my hard fought, heartfelt, it is well hallelujah”
7:49 a caterpillar (I think) on a something like a branch in a garden. It was a beautiful garden like the garden of eden, in a park. (I could have heard my sister in law’s name) It was like the caterpillar had just come out and was looking at something. Blessings…🙏🏼