Proverbs 4:13
“Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.”
Conversation
My Papa, I love You so much! I worship You my God, the King of my heart. Please help me set my heart right before You. Show me if there are any hidden things I need to give to You. I want to love You and follow You in every area of my heart.
Come My daughter, you are Mine -I love you deeply.
Thank-You Papa that I know Your love deep in my heart because of all the work You’ve been doing in it. I hear the word, “restored.” Papa, is my heart restored?
Yes My faithful one. Come, now is the time; the time is near.
Papa, I rely on Your strength to help me finish this race. If I’m missing something, please lead me to know what it is. Help me be more sensitive to Your voice Holy Spirit! Please enable me to keep saying yes to You despite how I feel at the moment. Please give me courage and strength to keep going. Help me be prepared beforehand so that I won’t miss You again. I’m resting in You Papa, and I cry out to You to help me!
I will always help you My darling. Courage. You are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Last night I woke up at 1:51 with the lyrics, “Christ is my firm foundation. The Rock on which I stand…”
4:12 sensed to get up to spend time with the Lord but fell asleep again. Got up at 4:36 (I believe). After spending time praying in the Spirit I went back to bed.
6:42: I sensed the word, “Two,” and “separate them from the old” (to the new?)
7:03 I dreamt that I had a piece of puzzle in my hand. I was holding out my arm at a downward angle, looking at the puzzle piece.
7:19 I dreamt that I saw a semi truck driving on a highway; felt like it was north on Lagimodiere Blvd leading up to the perimeter highway. I dreamt about a semi truck years ago; it represented having all my things (writing) in it because I was going to move somewhere.
7:28 I was at the doctors office, admitting myself at the desk. The desk had a clear plexiglass between, seeing the counter and the opening where we give them stuff.
7:37 I vaguely sensed/saw a box of puppies
7:55 a short dream where I saw a bridal party, the women and flower girls all dressed in white, and a little girl /flower girl, was looking up to her mom who was the bride I think, crying or complaining about something. We were standing outside on a sunny day.
8:29 I was home and I had dressy clothes on: loose dressy pants; could have been purple but I’m not sure. Someone else had put music on to dance and I was dancing with Bella. Then another song was going to go on and someone (who I think represents Jesus my husband), walked over to me, smiling and looking down at me because I was sitting. Right when he came to stand in front of me the music came on and he chose me to dance with. Bella was sitting beside me and didn’t know what to do because normally we would be the ones dancing together. Then it was a few minutes later when someone asked to dance again, and I was going to but I looked at my watch and saw it was the hour and 51 min (I think), and it was time to go back to work so another song didn’t go on. Then a small scene where I was holding Bella in my arms (like a groom would hold his bride). She had long brown hair and was a bit older than she is now, and so beautiful! As I was holding her in my arms I had said something like, I’m going to keep her from school (so that she could stay home with me), and she put her head back and laughed, saying something like, “you wouldn’t do that would you?” And I smiled and said something like, “no, I was just joking.” I had a knowing that she really wanted to go back to school. Then it was a few min later when I looked at the time again and saw it was a few minutes before I needed to be back in the classroom, so I ran upstairs to do something and I saw a small black kitten run across the hallway that I was running in, and I saw the kitten had crawled underneath the opened door where the hinges are. I stooped down and put my hand in front of the door by the wall to catch it if it would run, and I put my other hand underneath the door to feel where it was. Then I felt it underneath the door and took it into my hands and began petting it, thinking it was so cute. Then I saw another little kitten laying on the floor, sleeping. The hallway felt like it was the upstairs hallway leading up to my room when I was a little girl. I don’t know what this last part represents. I’m praying that Holy Spirit will reveal it if it’s different than what I talked about in my conversation with the Lord.
One day when I was about ten years old I was vacuuming the same room that I was walking towards in the dream above; was empty at be time. All of a sudden I sensed an evil spirit in the hallway walking towards me, and I boldly told it to go away in Jesus name. Then I resumed vacuuming and wasn’t afraid because I trusted that Jesus would take care of me. I don’t remember how I knew to do that, except that my mom would always read us Bible stories, so I must have learned it from there. That was also the same room (thinking it happened close to the same time) when I went upstairs by myself and read the story about Jesus’ crucifixion. That’s when Jesus became real to me. I couldn’t stop crying for a long time and cried deeply.
9:13 I dreamt that I was standing in a public, common room (felt like it was a school), and I saw a teenager with longer hair wearing a white comfy sweater, walk into the room. She was a beautiful and peaceful person. She walked into the room and put her backpack, or whatever type of bag she was carrying, down onto the floor and walked out to go to the bathroom. The feeling I had was that even though she was content and at rest in her heart with God, she didn’t yet know how much she was loved by others…. She had an optimistic feel about her.
Looking at the picture of Jesus on the wall, peaking around the corner reminded me about a dream I had recently that I was playfully peeking around the corner and giving a smile. Then I’d go back and come back again, and peek around the corner, playfully with a smile on my face. I hope you all will have a wonderful weekend.. Praying I’ll be ready for tomorrow, to sense the Holy Spirit. Many Blessings…
January 7: I woke up at 4:54. Come and take me over, Jesus draw me closer, to your heart, Your heart, Your heart, that’s where I wanna be is Your heart, Your heart, Your heart.
I dreamt that I was outside among some people. I was trying to get away and I was looking down a gravel road that curved slightly to the right and had trees on both sides, so the road disappeared into the trees. I wondered if there was going to be something scary that would come at me as I looked at it. Then it felt like we were in a movie; there had been some fighting, then the people who had been mean to us, left (vaguely seeing them go up somewhere. It felt like we were in something). Then I was laying on the ground face up, sensing someone close to me. Then all of a sudden I vaguely saw a tall building appear; it had been invisible, and Dr Strange levitated down to us from one of the many windows, saying something like, “Do you want to come do that up there?” He was inviting us to come up into the building. He saved us!! I didn’t know he was up there, watching us the whole time. I believe I know the meaning (at first I didn’t). I want to be with you Jesus!!!!
Papa, I always hear you say “rise” or “rise up.” What does that mean?
Isaiah 5:11: ..”so is my word that goes out of my mouth. It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”
Papa, You have spoken to me and have given me so many dreams to confirm Your words to me. I’m standing on this scripture and ask that You please fulfill your promise to me this week. Please forgive me if I’m too bold, but I pray that Your word would be fulfilled this week. As far as I know, in my heart I’m ready to rise up. Please come Papa and enable me to hear you and follow You, because I am willing to follow You where-ever You want to lead me. I want what You want for me. I believe You Papa and I love You. Please come!
My daughter come, I have heard your cry for help, and I will help you.
Papa, I vaguely hear these words, “my word will not pass away.” Matthew 24: 34-37 says, “Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away. No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of man.”
I heard in my heart, “I am coming soon.”
I love You Papa, and I trust in You and in Your timing, for You are for me, not against me. Thank-You Papa, I love You, I worship You and I praise Your Holy Name.
I painted my first painting at home today! I followed a person online, and it was a lot of fun trying to figure out what colours matched the ones she used. There are so many flaws but hey, I did it!! A silhouette of a mountain with a sunset background. The orange cloud in the middle kind of looks like an angel, though I don’t think angels have wings. I’m planning on going to the box in the morning, and my days are open to subbing again, except Wednesday’s; this Wednesday is my first day of voice lessons again.. I’m excited about that (with Laurel Fast who used to come to my church). I could talk about church today (but it’s late), and I’m more thankful than words can say. God completely had mercy on me; I’m so humbled and so thankful. Many many blessings to you…