Caroline, I have something for you today.
Father, I believe you. Thank you for your nearness -I love you.
Come my faithful daughter; you’ve walked a difficult road and have journeyed far with me -it’s nearly complete.
This is what I’m sensing Father and what am hearing from you. I can hardly wait for it to be done! I’m so thankful that I’ve done what you’ve asked me to do and what’s been required of me.
Caroline…what is your hearts desire?
To finally be able to walk into your promised land, my promised home.
Come, you are my daughter and I delight giving you your hearts desire this day.
Father I believe you. You’ve given me dignity and a sense of self-worth. Words cannot describe how deeply thankful I am..Thank you for rescuing me. Your love has been pursuing me and now I’m able to pursue you better. Thank you for your mighty work in me.
Caroline, come nearer into my heart, there’s more I want to show you.
Father I want to come nearer and know your love more. I know that by walking deeper into your heart leads me deeper into knowing mine as well, and even though I know this will be painful, I’m willing. There is a great cost to following you deeply but I want you to continue to mold me into becoming more like Jesus and more into who you’ve created me to be -this is the greatest desire of my heart.
I know this to be true my daughter, and this is my gift to you this day. Come and you will see!
Reflection:
Two snow days! I’m always so glad when my kids have snow days…it brings out the kid in me when I get to tell them. They’re putting on their ski pants to go play outside in the snow with neighbours, fun!
When I think about the Israelites walking in the desert for so many years and their unbelief about being able to go into the promise land, I can’t help but think about the doubt within myself about hearing the voice of God. In the past when I’ve doubted and wanted to stop writing my conversations with the Lord, I sensed God’s rebuke like a parent, and I quickly obeyed him again. Because of this quick correction, I know that I do hear him because of how important it is to him that I continue, but I also know that most of what I hear comes from him but goes through my mind, which is flawed because I’m only a person who hears in part. Having said this, I’ve been reading in The Power of the Decree by Patricia King that believing what the Lord says to us is like enabling his words to do what they’re meant to do in our life. Joshua and Caleb believed the Lord and because of it they were allowed by God to enter into the promised land many years later. So now I verbally tell God that I believe him when he says things to me because it’s also like a pep-talk to myself that reminds me that I do believe it…it’s not something that runs past my minds eye and disappears out of sight, but it actually stops right in front of me, and then I actually see it. When I see the words, I believe it, it reminds me how important it is to believe his words, and then I actually do believe it. It’s only through believing that Jesus is Gods Son who died for us because of our sin, and rose again, that we’re able to go into Gods promised heaven.
Yesterday in one of the dreams I had, two boys were teasing a girl, Desiree, when they took her winter jacket and hid it from her. I wasn’t completely sure what her name was but sensed it was true when I asked if it was Desiree, and she nodded and softly said yes. I believe that the Lord is telling me that I won’t need a winter jacket for much longer and that God says yes to my inner hearts desire.
Last night in a dream I saw a lady that had finished knitting her dress and had put it on. It was a plain, fitted dress that came just passed her knees. I don’t knit but I know it would take a lot of patience and talent to knit a dress. It also speaks to me about warmth, commitment, quality, and selflessness. I believe this represents my long journey with the Lord that’s required so much patience and selflessness. It’s required an every-day commitment for a many-years journey with the Lord, doing seemingly impossible tasks that I could not have done by myself. I also dreamt that people were getting ready for a big reveal.. and there was so much excitement about it! There’s so much excitement and joy in Gods heart. I think that in this world there’s so much evil and sadness, but if we want to stay healthy mentally, we need to be saying yes to walking deeper into Gods heart and seeing what he wants to show us and walking where he wants to lead us.