Why Not Today?

James 5:16

“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”

My daughter, you are Mine -come, lets commune together. I love you.

Oh Dad. You are so great and so good! Please come and be near to me as I draw near to you. I need to be near to you in order to hear what you have to say. Please open my spiritual ears and help me understand the words you say to me. 

Come my darling, the stage is set -the time has come to set the captives free. Come, and I will make you a fisher of men!

Father, in order for me to come, I need your help. I need help with not being anxious about knowing what to talk about in my next recording. I need your anointing so that I’m not doing this in my own strength but yours. Also help me keep my eyes on you so that I don’t get discouraged from now until I’m done with my recording, which I’m hoping to do early Thursday morning. 

I will help you Caroline! Come -I delight in you!

Okay Dad, thank-you! I love you and I’m running after you!  

Reflection:

This last night I dreamt that I was in the drivers seat of my car. I saw a huge snake come right in front of the car, and as if there was no windshield, it brought it’s head right in front of me in the car. It’s head was a mans head and it looked at me and had a huge smile on it’s face. I saw it had perfectly white teeth, perfect smile and a handsome face. It complemented me saying something like, “oh don’t you look pretty,” and I leaned forward and kissed him. Then he shifted to the side and I tried to punch him in the face two times but I couldn’t; my fist stopped right in front of it’s face because I just couldn’t hurt him. Then the scene changed where my family and I were at a cheap hotel, and my mom had a room there too. In my dream I had a quick picture of the basement of the hotel, and I saw that the snake had coiled itself around the hotel a few times and the hotel was in it’s control; the snake would eat the people who didn’t follow his ideas, so anyone who ever stayed at the hotel was either living there permanently under his control, or he would eat them if they resisted. I saw the dark, mirky/hard-packed muddy basement and saw that the snake’s body was flat. I wanted to go see my mom, so then I was looking for her room and someone pointed it out and I saw her name vaguely on top of her room; she was working at the hotel, cleaning rooms. Then I was in the room where she was cleaning and I saw the snake man lying in bed sleeping underneath the covers. I saw that his head was also covered, and then I saw that he looked to see who was there, seeing me and went back to sleep. I also saw a kid coming quickly through a hole in the wall, like he was playing hide and seek with another kid. I knew that there were many holes like these where people had access to any room they wanted. This reminds me of how mice make holes in walls and go wherever they want. Then I was standing in front of my mom who was cleaning in the man’s closet, holding jackets and organizing. I saw her face and I thought to myself that she shouldn’t be the one to clean so hard like this at her age. I told her, “mom, we have to go,” with great urgency because I knew about the evil and danger in this place. I saw that she was doing her best like she was cleaning for royalty. I saw her face and saw so much joy as she smiled, and I saw that she looked younger than her years and looked beautiful. Then I was back in our room and I told Joao that we needed to go right away, and I had my moms big bag/sack in my hands. I noticed it was already filled with clothes, and I had put two transparent mugs that had a coloured wide ring around it, into the top part of the bag. The clothing part of the bag was closed with what felt like a drawstring, and the top part where I had put the two mugs were also part of the bag but separated from where my clothes were -the top part also had a drawstring that I vaguely saw. 

In all of what was going on I had quietly confided in my two kids that they needed to be careful and not go into the big holes in the rooms because of the danger; I didn’t want them to go near the basement because I had seen the snake. I had also walked around the hotel with someone to see what it looked like. As we were walking in a hallway that opened up to a busier area, I saw that it was dark and smoky. I looked to my left and saw a few salon booths where people were getting their hair done. I saw other things too which I don’t remember enough to write about. Then I also saw at least three big empty rooms that didn’t have walls anymore; these were the rooms where people had stayed that hadn’t agreed with the snake-man’s ideas and so they had “disappeared”. We walked passed this. Going back to the scene where I was in our room, talking with Joao, and Bella was there too, I was filled with such urgency to leave that I wanted to just leave everything there and go as quickly as possible, hoping that we’d be able to leave safely. Then it was like the snake-man, just in the form of a man, had appeared out of nowhere and was standing in our room. He looked genuine and acted like he was being fare and kind, trying to persuade me to stay. He said something about us having received some things, like we owed him, and I said that’s because we paid for it, which he quickly agreed to, saying that yes we had paid for it. So because I still wanted to leave, he came right in front of me, coming in closer as I was trying to back away. I desperately called out to Joao with all the names we call him, pop, dad, hon, and I saw that he was wearing black, and he was looking down with his back (or side) kind of to me. When I awoke I wondered why I didn’t tell them about the snake, that I had seen the reason why we were all in such great danger. The history/background of the snake was because of the involvement of witchcraft/cult/secretly putting a curse on people. I had woken up before five, thinking about all of this when I dosed off a bit and I had a quick dream that I was in front of a counter or table, and there was someone standing on the other side, which I know was Jesus whom I only vaguely saw (his torso/robe), but I had a sense of his greatness and authority. There was a fresh loaf of bread sitting on the counter between us, broken apart, and I had a piece in my hand that I was eating hungrily. Jesus only slightly drew away the loaf of bread as he asked me, “Why not today?” Why not today? I wish I was already prepared so that I could do my recording today; I so eagerly want to please him! Yes, I’m going to cancel my plans of going to see my mom and going to the chiropractor. I normally go to the chiropractor once a month to get my lower back and my neck adjusted. I began going when I was doing crossfit because I didn’t want to be lifting heavy weight if my back was out of place. 

I sense the urgency of my recordings so this is what I’m going to do today.. I realize that in my dream I was eating a piece of bread from the loaf that Jesus had prepared for me (which looked so good!), so I’m going to take communion today at 1:00 if anyone else would like to join me? I realize this is last minute so even if you do it today sometime, then we’ll still be doing it together… The scripture I’ll be using is Matthew 26:26-28. Thank-you -many blessings to you!!