“As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.” Psalm 42:1
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I worship You with all my heart. Please draw near to me as I draw near to You,
I love you My daughter. Come, you are Mine.
Papa I declare that You have given me a clear and sound mind. I trust You with my life. I am forever Yours. “I love Your voice. You have led me through the fire. And in darkest night, You are close like no other. I’ve known You as a Father, I’ve known You as a friend, and I have lived in the Goodness of God. All my life You have been faithful. All my life You have been so, so Good. With every breath that I am able, I will sing, of the Goodness of God.” My life is yours Papa.
I love you Carolyn. Rest, you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
11:37 “I need you Lord, more than yesterday I need you Lord, more then words can say I need you Lord, more than ever before I need you Lord, I need you Lord.”
5:52 “I need you more, more than yesterday I need You more, more than words can say I need you more, than ever before I need you Lord, I need you Lord.”
I had a dream where someone gave me a gift bag (brown paper bag?); I could peek into it but I wasn’t aloud to take anything out until the next day.
Another dream where I went into a big room and I told someone there that someone was coming. (I’m going to a prayer event this evening with my sister)
6:44 “This land is your land, this land is my land… this land is made for you and me…” (song from a German album that I grew up listening to.)
7:32 “is 20 years old.”
8:31 (I think) “West Virginia” (Country road, take me home to the place I belong, West Virginia, mountain moma, take me home, country road.”
8:43 “Just because God told me” In a dream I saw a green Pine tree.
10:34 or 10:35 “Download”
Sometimes as Christians deep in our heart we don’t feel fully alive. Then, when we walk in an intimate journey with Jesus, He leads us into becoming fully alive as we walk in our God-given purpose with Jesus. This is what Easter means to me. Jesus died and rose again. We need to die to ourselves (our will) and let Jesus raise us up internally. Jesus modelled it and we need to follow him doing what Jesus did even dying on the cross to ourselves so that He can raise us up and live the life He has called us to live. This is what Easter means to me.
“For Christ died for our sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit…” 1Peter 3:18
April 18:1:22 (I heard a word, the name of a tool, and I don’t remember what it is)
2:08 “Meeting smile after smile” (Christmas song)
4:17 “stay”
4:31 A dream about a rabbit digging in the dirt in the garden (there was just dirt there, no plants. In my dream it reminded me of the garden area at my house)
5:53: “He was ten years wonder with fear” Dream where Connie or someone was trying to help me onto a roof that wasn’t very high. The roof had ridges (reminds me of my nails). She tried to give me a boost but I couldn’t pull myself up. There was water dripping from the tin roof, and there was a nail sticking out of it on one side. In my dream I had a feeling like I had been on the roof once before.
7:37 “I need you more, I need you Lord.” I’m going to my sisters church today… missing my family…