“Be my rock of refuge, to which I can always go; give the command to save me, for You are my rock and my fortress.” Psalm 71:3
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You with all my heart.
I love you My daughter. Rest, you are Mine. Come, declares the Lord.
Papa, You know my heart; I’m doing the best I can. Please enable me to come Papa.
I will enable you My daughter. Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
Aug 29: 12:29 Does someone have “a plant or a nation”
4;16 “And the angels cry, Holy, Holy forever..”
I dreamt that Jesus my husband and I were at a place where we had been several times in the last month, maybe month and a half. This place had deep water that we were walking through. I was walking beside him, and we were talking; I had a feeling like I had nothing on waist down and I was asking him if he took my clothes away, and he said yes. Then I thought, well how am I supposed to walk home if I don’t have my clothes. Then the scene changed where I had passed a very deep water area by jumping across through the water. Then I saw along a wall several piles of rags and I took a few to cover myself, and I was fumbling with them. I’m not sure but it could mean that I passed a difficult situation.. I’m not sure what not having clothes represents; in my dream Jesus took them from me, so maybe it means that he’s giving me new clothes; a new identity.
7:31 “So we wait, for now, till the day arrives, when we meet, once more, and I’ll say something like, “I always knew you could be like this I saw flashes and glimpses before, now it seems like a distant dream and now you’re walking through the door. When I see you again, on a gold street, standing next to me I know, gonna see you again, darling it wont be long till every trace and trouble is gone, we’ll be together and I’m not sure what that means but I know it will be better than we ever dreamed, when I see you again…”
8:29 “Someone is at their table” I was planning on getting together with two of my friends for the next workshop, so I”m wondering if it means that I’m sitting at the wedding feast table?)
9:44 I had walked through a door of a church and was standing in the foyer. It felt like I didn’t use the center doors but used the ones next to them. I was standing a bit to the left of the sanctuary doors. The doors to the sanctuary were open and I saw the right side of the aisle that all the chairs were full of people who were waiting for the bride to come. I vaguely saw something white over every person’s head as they were waiting. I made it in the doors?
10:00 It’s better to “walk through it.” I had a feeling like it was better, and I heard, “walk through it.”
10:08 I was laying in bed needing to get up and I had been thinking about cleaning up the mess after youth when I must have dozed off and had a quick dream of seeing that someone had just put down their clear plastic cup that had about a quarter cup of orange juice left. I saw the movement of the orange juice like the cup had just been put down. I have a feeling like this isn’t good, that I had put it down. This morning I was feeling depressed because I’ve been trying to follow for so long and it seems like I can never get anything the first try. And because I don’t get anything the first try, something is always added, so it feels like a never ending journey. I realized that when I saw the shadow of the baby trying to get up by putting up her hands represents me raising my hands in worship despite feeling low. I know God is good all the time and so I will always praise Him. Having said all that, I’m going to try and focus on God and not on my circumstances. Love and Blessings…