“For whoever finds me finds life and receives favour from the Lord.” Proverbs 8:35
Conversation
Thank You Lord. I see Your love in others, in the words they share and my heart is encouraged. Thank You Jesus for Your love.
My daughter, though My word may feel like a needle in a haystack, I will be found by you.
Papa, draw me near to Your heart so that I can find You.
Come.
Papa teach me about You. Show me who You are. (While praying in the Spirit) Papa, through it all I know Your tenderness towards me; I know Your tender love. I also know and have a sense of Your compassionate heart for me. (After more prayer and reading an encouraging message my perspective has changed) Papa, I am already seated with You in the heavenly places (Ephesians 2:6). I am not distant from You. I knew that in my mind but I’m learning to step beyond what I feel. I don’t need to find You (from the perspective of not being near to Him) because I am already seated with You in the heavenly places and I’m already in union with You (so in this way I’ve found him as I realized this). Help me to always remember this. Papa I also know You don’t hold back from me like I don’t deserve anything… I am Yours and You are mine… I invite You Lord to come intimately close to me; I am desperate for Your presence!
I love you My daughter.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
12:13 “Who we talking about, that’s my King!”
4:36 A dream about a lion being caught.
6:58 In my time in prayer I saw a podium of three and in the middle, higher than the others there was a spring with a really big red egg at the top.
7:07 “Age and suffering” In a vision I had a sense that a father was talking to his daughter about that.
7:19 “No time to stop”
7:41 Vision of planting seeds in the garden
8:02 I had a vision of a woman on a bed pushing, giving birth.
8:09 “The whole truth and nothing but the truth” (I heard this in my heart right before waking up.)
9:04 “I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know. She shares my dreams I hope that oneday, I’ll share her home… I found a lover, to carry more than just my secrets, to carry love, to carry children of our own…” (I was standing in the kitchen looking out of the window when these lyrics came to my mind. Jesus is always warming my heart to draw me close to Him…)
1:15 In a vision during prayer I saw a power cord that was plugged in, and my hand was running along it. It had stripes running along it; there was a light blue stripe on each side of the flat cord (When I looked at the time, it was 1:14 and turned 1:15).
2:04 Reassurance
2:08 I saw a picture of taking Parmesan cheese from an opened clear plastic container with a spoon. (My sister Connie had this on her table when I was there.)
2:12 I saw a shiny silver pin in a sewn hem; the pin was open and I think I saw a hand doing something with it.
2:18 I saw a white airplane flying over green grass.
Today I went from feeling distant from God to having my perspective changed. I now have the perspective that I’m seated with Christ in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus. Thank You Lord! We’re going to B and J’s place for dessert tonight at 7:00. Hoping you will have a wonderful day today… Be blessed!🩵
May 10: 3:57 “…wind meets fire come on in, come on in” (Lyrics)
5:40 “Is anyone worthy”
6:44 Gaslighting
I had a dream where someone had done something to his friend which made him not remember who he was. I picked him up and cradled him in my arms. Then he slept again and when he awoke he was in his right mind and wanted to go home. The person was laughing about what he did and I told him not to do it again because it was mean and because he reaps what he sows. There was a part in the dream where I adjusted something on an iron thing. Blessings…
May 11: 1:03 In a dream I saw a red barn.
2:58 “Bold”
5:41 “Wind meets fire come in in, come on in”
7:16 “Wind meets fire come in in, come on in”
7:29 “God and man”
May 12:12:20 I saw a little girl with a pink dress on, I saw her back as she was looking out of a window.
5:50 I had a dream. I was in my house in my bedroom. Beside the bed on the wall was a higher and lower line of coat hooks. On them were kids jackets and other things. I was cleaning up so I walked beside the bed and took the jackets off the hooks. As I was walking I noticed how close the bed was to the wall; it was so close that I could hardly walk there. I walked beside the bed getting the coats, turned around and walked back. Then I saw hooks on another wall and was going to put the jackets onto those hooks but then I saw my kids had outgrown them so I was going to bring them somewhere else. I was looking at each of them and saw a bit of a warmer toddler jacket, a toddler spring jacket (and wondered if my kids had been warm enough while wearing it), and a toddler’s white splash pants. I decided not to hook them on these other hooks because my kid(s) had outgrown them and was going to put them in another spot. It was spring so they wouldn’t need them in the summer, and when summer ended these jackets would be too small on them. Behind these second area of coat hooks there was a cubby area in the wall that had many brown lunch bags. It looked like they had food in them. I noticed that if the hooks had all the jackets hanging there, they would cover up the lunch cubby and people would need to reach past the jackets in order to get to the lunches.
Then the scene changed where I was in the kitchen and saw lots of water on the floor. I saw the water had just started to come from somewhere and was going underneath an appliance so I quickly went and grabbed the first towel I saw (a light beige face towel that had a striped imprint in it that was on a small appliance; Connie always gives me this kind of towel to use) and I put it onto the floor and was on my hands and knees seeping up the water with the towel. Water had already gone under the appliance like a stove, though in my dream I didn’t see what kind of appliance it was. Then I was standing and I noticed the house began to tilt. As it was toppling over I was bracing myself for the heavy things that would hit me, but as I waited for them, standing upright even though the house was toppling over, these things never came. I knew there was so much water in the attic (I had seen lots of water dripping or maybe even pouring into the kitchen from the ceiling before that) and was expecting all that water to pour into the area where I was but nothing came.
6:54 A vision of a small table filled with many delightful things to eat.
7:54 I dreamt about seeing candy, some yellow, and a little bag of some chocolate eggs (white with two blue) and I chose that.
8:02 “Appliance”
8:07 “Testimony the game”
8:44 “Back to the table back to my heart, … never let go.” (Lyrics)
A dream where a mom was putting candy on the ground, leading her as she was walking and her child was picking them up and eating them. I saw a yellow one I think and I stepped over it. I think I picked up the child, enjoying holding her. Today I’m planning on finishing my painting (an orange), and I’m planning on starting another one this week, an apple. Also making bran muffins today. Enjoying the warm weather! Blessings…
This evening Connie and I went for a walk; such a beautiful day! I’m going to go for a run tomorrow morning and hopefully begin to do that more often. I was in the kitchen for a lot of the day today so I’m planning on finishing my painting tomorrow. Blessings…
May 13: 12:04 A vision of someone giving their friend of the same gender who had red eyes a smothering kiss on the cheek.
12:08 A vision of someone giving someone a needle.
1:56 “Is anyone worthy”
6:09 “It’s gonna be okay, as long as you stay”
8:24 Dream of two people walking in the door and one of them had a yellow thing in their hand.
During the night I also had a dream where a daughter was getting married and the aunt and uncle of the person who she was marrying came to her parents house to thank, welcome or offer a congratulations. I had a feeling like it wasn’t expected but they went out of their way to do this nice thing. The aunt had her head shaved except had some hair on the top of her head and it was sticking straight up. I thought it was neat to have an aunt like that and I gave her a hug.
Another dream where Jesus came to my house. He came because of Lucas. Before that I was standing by the door of my house, welcoming people who had come with him and I was hugging each person. There were some (maybe two) people who had walked passed me as I was hugging other people, and I wanted to hug every person who came through the door, saying they could only come through me, meaning, I wanted them to give me a hug before coming into my house. Then I was in the kitchen with some of the people. I was looking into a bag or something that someone brought from church. There was kitchen stuff in it; I had a feeling like they brought food. Then we were looking for the paper plates they brought. At first I couldn’t find them but then I did, seeing the white in a stack on the counter. The kitchen was full of stuff, a bit messy. I’m going to go for a slow jog. Blessings…
I finished my Orange painting! I went running this morning and I think it went well. Tomorrow I’m planning on going for another run, but I’ll leave a lot earlier though. I’m planning on sketching an apple tomorrow and start painting it! I’m very excited about painting, now that I know a bit more about it. Blessings…🙏🏼