“Those who are wise will shine like the brightness of the heavens, and those who lead many to righteousness, like the stars for ever and ever.” Daniel 12:3
Conversation
I love You Papa
Come, you are Mine. Rest. I love you.
Papa, I sense the word, “safe” (about asking first instead of just doing something). Papa, I pray that You would help me to discern your voice and have a clear understanding. I praise Your name Papa and I want to follow You always and do what’s right. The greatest desire of my heart is to please You.
You are Mine My daughter, and I am pleased with you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
12:29 I saw a man walking with a younger person, walking like the younger person was being discipled. I saw their backs.
12:44 Ashton
2:37 In a dream I saw something like a barrel roll off of something, maybe the back of a truck, on a ramp. (I went downstairs to pray)
3:07 “I found a love, for me. Darling just dive right in, and follow my lead.“ (Bride of Christ)
3:58 Come My darling, rest.
4:48 “my mom calls me that with all her heart.” In a vision I saw tall white curtains with pleats coming all the way from the ceiling to the floor. (This morning I saw a video about how a mom thinks with her heart and I also sawa blue sign in the video)
4:52 “I don’t deserve this, darling you look perfect tonight.” (Bride of Christ)
4:59 “Swimming” (I heard a man say this)
5:03 In a vision I saw a big pan of cinnamon buns. I’m going to make cinnamon buns today.
5:12 “I will not give you up this time. Darling just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own. And in your heart you’re holding mine.” (Intimacy with Jesus as the bride of Christ)
6:47 In this dream I saw two kids sitting beside each other, watching a movie in a theatre.
7:30 “I don’t deserve this, darling you look perfect tonight.” (Bride of Christ)
11:17 “Yes” crying out to God. I made vegetable soup today and cinnamon buns:) The recipe I used was; 2pkgs yeast, 8eggs, 1 cup sugar, 2cups milk, 1tsp salt, 1cup becel margarine and then about 7cups unbleached flour. I let them rise in the pan for about half an hour and baked them for 15 min.
The soup recipe I used is, I cooked a pork bone for a few hours to get a good broth. Then I cut up a red onion and 6 potatoes let it cook in the broth. Then I Star Anise, Peppercorns and Bay leaves. Then I added cabbage and let that cook for about 20 min. Then I added kale, salt, some Mushrooms and Parsley. Then I added some tomato sauce and thick cream. It’s a soup I make often.
10:31 “boy, girl”
10:37 “I’ll take You at Your word. If You said it I believe it…” (lyrics)
January 15 12:52 You look perfect tonight (bride of Christ)
4:21 “Keeping you safe… And I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I’ve broken. And I need you to see, that you are the reason.”( I heard this in my heart (keeping me safe and I’d climb every mountain ) right before waking up; bride of Christ)
4:47 “I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I’ve broken. And I need you to see, that you are the reason.”(I fell asleep and heard “I’d climb every mountain,” just before waking up).
5:03 “every single thing that you have done…” (lyrics from, Creation to Salvation)
5:21 “I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I’ve broken. And I need you to see, that you are the reason.” (Bride of Christ)
5:24 “And woke up” I dreamt I was in an airplane really high in the sky.
10:10 Nature walk (I had taken a nap and heard this in my heart right before waking up.)
10:46 In a vision I saw my purse being swung up. I had swung my purse up with my arm in a joyful way. It reminds me of when kids swing their legs back and forth while supporting themselves between two counters. In my heart I can feel God building up my strength. I’m going to remain being a risk taker… I’m going to get ready and go to my moms today. Blessings…
A few thoughts… Ashton: My very good friend, her and her husband have a son whose name is Ashton. They moved to BC when he was around 5years old, about 20 years ago.
10:36 “memorize scripture “ In my prayer time this evening I had asked Holy Spirit to help me remember things from the Bible, and I wasn’t thinking about memorizing scripture when the thought came to my mind. Growing up I needed to memorize a lot of scripture in private school, and I remember some of what I had memorized.
January 16: 2:20 “I’ll take you at your word, if you said it I believe it…” Before waking up in a vague dream I saw feet in the air like they were being swung. I went downstairs to pray and went back up around 3:20.
2:48 sensing the word, “sign.”
4:07 “I’m gonna be on it”
4:21 “yes” In my heart I asked, “Papa,” asking about work.
5:37 In a dream I saw a square opening (about 3inches by 3inches) through which I saw a couple walking on the beach together. He was wearing a yellow shirt. It was like it was a funnel, and I was looking into the funnel from the wider end of it. Moving picture.
I dreamt that Lucas was really excited about a painting that we painted earlier. He brought a notebook to me/sheets of canvases and we began looking in it, looking for the painting he had painted. It was folded in it somewhere. Then I saw one and thought it was what he was looking for but it was a different one that I had painted that had palm trees on it. He was disappointed that it wasn’t the one he was looking for.
A scene where we were going to have our picture taken, me Lucas and Bella. I was sitting in the middle, Lucas was right next to me on my left and Bella was beside him to his left. We could each get a photo taken the way we wanted and that was the way Lucas wanted his photo taken. I wanted a photo where Lucas was in my right and Bella was on my left where they were both higher and I was sitting in the middle on the floor level. Then as we were posing (with Lucas and Bella on my left) a group of people went in front of us, all wearing black. It was like they were also posing, facing forward. I told Lucas and Bella to keep looking at the camera just in case the photographer would get an opportunity to take a photo. Then I saw someone go in front of us who was mentally challenged, also wearing black, and someone came and got her.
A scene where I had a white wedding dress on and a photographer was taking photos of us (I didn’t see that I had a wedding dress on but I saw it in a photo). Then I walked to the printer to see our photos and had was looking at them in my hand. I saw a few where I was standing by myself and over exposed. I also saw some photos that had fallen, and I picked them up to see if it was mine and it wasn’t; I saw someone else’s wedding photos (of the bride). (Bride of Christ)
4:40 a vision of a fighter jet, with purple around it like it was a painting. The jet was about to take off.
I saw two squares beside each other. There was something in the one on the left.
6:10 “Peter and John went to pray” I heard in my heart while awake. It reminds me of the song, “Peter and John went to pray, they met a lame man on the way. He asked for money and held out his hand, and this is what Peter did say. Silver and gold have I none, but what I have I give you, in the name of Jesus Christ, of Nazareth rise up and walk. He went walking and leaping and praising God, walking and leaping and praising God in the name of Jesus Christ, of Nazareth rise up and walk.”
7:36 “What are we waiting for! What are we waiting for!” (My alarm went off)
There was a scene where I saw a small object on a ledge and I excitedly went to it to see what it was. I thought it was a wind up toy that played music. I had it in my hands and looked through a crack and saw there were gears in it, and I turned the handle to wind it up. Then I heard the music as it played. Then I turned the handle more so I could hear music again but I didn’t hear it. While the music was playing during the first time, I sensed there were people watching but it didn’t bother me. I will always follow Jesus.
11:55 “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. When I feel afraid, think I’ve lost my way, still You’re there right beside me. Nothing will I fear, as long as You are near, please be near me to the end. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” After declaring scripture the first part of these lyrics came to mind.
Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
9:22 In my dream I saw Jesus walk quickly. He had a white dressy long sleeve shirt on with a navy blue vest.
9:38 “I’ll take You at Your word. If You said it I believe it!”
This evening I read chapter two of, “The Heart Of Heaven” to Bella, Blessings…🙏🏼