Isaiah 40:29
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”
Conversation
My Papa. Thank-You for leading me home!!! For me it means that I finally know who Jesus my husband is, deep inside my heart, that I can finally see his face!! and that You Papa are truly the King of my heart! And that my heart is rightly aligned; seeing and loving others through Your lens, through Your perspective, and earnestly wanting to follow You, being a fisher of men! My heart is filled with Joy and Thankfulness.
I love you My daughter. Now it is complete. Rest, you are Mine and I’m proud of you My daughter. You have come a long way. Today I am making all things new. Today is the day of salvation. Salvation has come to your house (my heart).
Papa, I can feel Your presence stronger in my heart. Thank-You for redeeming my heart.
Come My daughter, it is time. I have called you by name. You are Mine.
I am Yours Papa, and You are mine!
Conversation at Night
Feb 5: 2:51 Praise God. Praise God, from whom all blessings flow. Praise Him. Praise Him, for the wonders of His Love!
3:35 I heard in my heart, “Pisteo” (I’m not sure how it’s spelled)
Rest
3:58 “Papa, please bring me home.”
4:00 “My daughter, you have come home.”
4:02 “Papa, I’m home?”
4:03 “Yes My darling, you’re home.”
I remember hearing, “Just in time.” Papa, was that for me and is this actually true?”
Yes my faithful one, this is true. Come, rest, you are Mine.
4:12 Papa, what now?
Rest
4:13 Okay, I’m resting. Thank-You Papa, thank-You…
4:14 You’re welcome My daughter.
4:16 Please come Papa
4:17 I’m here My daughter. You are Mine. Rest.
4:20 Resting
Papa, it’s 4:22.
4:24 “All is well with you.”
4:29 Stay home
4:30 Papa, I’m staying home. Spiritually and physically; I’m going to paint my sunrise today.
4:40 Papa, I miss you…
I am near to you, My daughter. Rest.
Song “And I saw her face! I’m a believer! I’m in love, ooohh…
Reflection
Hello and welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him. For the past while God has been taking me through a spiritual shower, over and over again; I believe that He’s preparing me for what’s coming up next. He’s purifying my heart first so that I’m clean before Him, and also so there’s nothing holding me back from following Him with my whole heart. It also clears the way to hear God better when there’s no mess in the way of where God is leading me to walk. I also record the times when God says something to me because even in that, there’s meaning; I don’t want to miss anything that God has for me and is saying to me.
After sensing from the Lord to go back to bed, I went back to bed close to 5:00 and fell asleep: 5:20 I woke up to my alarm and had had a quick dream where I and a few others were in a large empty room, and I saw that they were walking to the front of the room to leave the room (the doors were in the front of the room). I saw the backs of some people as they were leaving the room, and I think the lights had been turned off because it was a bit darker in the room. Also there was a question (not related to my dream) that I heard was asked in my spirit, “Are you a seer?” I have asked God this question. I want to be first a pastor, then a prophet, then an evangelist, and also a seer! I want to see into the Spiritual realm like Ana Werner, to be one of many tools to be used by God to set people free! 5:37 Getting ready to go to Shopgym! I’m also behind with watching the sessions in her healing school, so I’ll try and catch up. I’ve watched the first two sessions and the first Qand A.
On Friday when I came home Bella was at a birthday party and Lucas and his dad were watching, Murder on the Orient Express. They had been watching for about 20 min so I joined them for the rest of the movie. After supper Lucas played his saxophone and I took a nap. Then they wanted to watch the same movie again because Bella didn’t see it, so I managed to get up from my nap and basically fell asleep again on the couch after I watched the beginning part that I had missed earlier; I was so tired! This morning I fried brussels sprout, then added 3 eggs with seasoning salt -super delicious!!! Between Friday to Sunday I stopped to talk with most every person/kiosk in the foyer at Mission Fest! I’m so amazed at how different most of them are from each other while each having the same vision; doing what Jesus did and loving others, helping to meet their needs and leading them to the Lord. I’ve never talked with so many people at the different displays at Missionfest before, and with all of them I saw how they were so needed. The one that I could have just cried is the one where a lady was showing me her photos of the people who had leprosy. Yes I’m definitely wanting to go on mission trips after this! I’m planning to make nachos for supper tonight and watching The Chosen. I bought the book “not beyond reach” by Aaron Pierce. I’m really excited to read this book. It’s about reaching young people. That’s it for now.. still wanting to paint. Blessings…
February 6: Tonight I’m watching a Live conversation with Ana Werner and Bishop Tony Kemp starting at 7:30 on Youtube or Facebook; A Message For Leadership. At the end Ana Werner had a word for someone, “Isolated No More!” “Welcome to the family” “You are needed in the family, there’s space at the table for you to come and feast with us. You’re part of the body of Christ, and we need you!” “So, welcome!” Tony Kemp, “Welcome to the tribe, you have found your tribe!” It feels like this word is for Jesus my husband!!! Also for myself when I think about working at my church!! God is so Good!!!!!!!
This morning I woke up at 6:04 because I had heard in my spirit, “Christ for the Nations.” And then as I got up to pray, these lyrics came to my heart, “Jesus, hope of the nations.” “Jesus our hope, living in us. You are the Rock, in whom we trust. You are the light, shining for all the world to see, Lord we believe.” Ana Werner was sensing to pray for all the nations. In her vision she was high on a mountain close to a ledge and saw a cluster of eagles flying lower than where she was, and lower than they would normally fly. She saw the backs of the eagles and saw that the amount of feathers they had were thin. She heard the Lord say something like they were thin because they had lost or were losing intimacy with the Lord, and so as a result they were losing their feathers and couldn’t fly up higher to where He is. We need to keep spending time with the Lord because that’s the only way we’re going to grow in intimacy with Him. I can relate to this message because in my walk with Him and as He’s getting me ready for the task He’s given me, He’s purifying my heart, and it’s so humbling! I need to keep being humbled every day because any and all pride will cause me to lose feathers and intimacy with Him. I think this could relate to Holy Spirit working in my heart so that I can see the face of Jesus; when Holy Spirit opens my eyes to be able to see the face of Jesus, it’s because of His work in my heart that has led me to know who He is. Today is an important day for me because with the help and leading of my pastor, I came to the place of renouncing the lie I was believing about myself, that I thought God was tired of me (because I take so long as I follow Him step by step). The truth that I received from the Lord is that He enjoys me, who I am, and He enjoys spending time with me as we walk on our journey together. As I was listening to His words in my heart, I felt no condemnation from Him, only love. I deeply cried as I let the lie go, and I felt (and sensed the words) Gods Peace and Comfort filling my heart. I’m so thankful!! At home afterward I was listening , and because I was feeling much closer to the Lord because of renouncing the lie and God filling me with His Peace and Comfort, I began dancing with Jesus Christ as my Dad, as I listened to the song, envisioning dancing with Him and Him looking at me with Love; I began sobbing again as we slowly waltzed in my kitchen. It was so special! Then I imagined dancing with Jesus as my husband, dancing slowly in circles (and crying at first, of course!) in my kitchen to “Hallelujah” -so very special…. I believe God is doing a new thing and growing me up in Him. I believe that with Jesus’ help and leading we’ve built the bridge (I sensed this part this afternoon). I think the bridge represents several things, one of which represents healing and wholeness in my relationship with God. It also represents getting to know who Jesus is through the Holy Spirit, as we’ve been walking in our journey together.. I believe it also represents my growth in my relationship with God/Jesus of trust and belief, learning to trust as I made mistakes and seeing that I can trust him despite my mistakes and flaws.. As I learned to obey God, He prepared me always for the next step, one of which He told me that my calling is to be a pastor, wow! I need to be humbled every day; I’m so glad I’m not perfect because mistakes keeps me humble! Also knowing God and how Holy and Great He is. Okay this has been such a good time of reflection, thank-You Papa! I’m excited to go to Soar tomorrow; will connect to pray for our community. Also, we have in our hands an opportunity; I will keep myself aware; Holy Spirit help me!! Goodnight and blessings…