“Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.” Proverbs 4:13
Conversation
My Papa, I’m so desperate for You!
Come, do not be afraid, for I am with you. I love you My darling.
Papa, I’m putting my trust in You, and I’m going to follow You even if it’s difficult. Your love never fails and it’s Your love that draws me and keeps me.
Come My daughter, all is well. You are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs or intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
11:52 A girl was being carried by Jesus (like a baby). She was fully dressed in a really nice dress and had Sunday shoes on. I think her shoes were black.
12:05 “Koinonia” (Intimate spiritual community)
4:22 I heard lyrics to a song, thinking it’s the same one as the one below.
4:33 “see Your blessing, see Your blessing every day.. this is how I wanna live, oh, I’ll never get used to this! This is my reward.” (I went downstairs to pray)
5:46 A vision of a large shallow bowl with kitchen utensils, reminding me of the show we watched yesterday where there were keys in a bowl like that, that unlocked the safe that had the reward.
5:52 “I’m gonna die to myself and get married again.” Sensing crying when the last words were spoken. (be in agreement as I always say yes to Jesus)
5:59 vaguely seeing an empty room with no chairs on the floor, feeling like it was a dance floor.
6:04 A vision of me taking my red sweater off of a back rest of a chair to put it on.
6:09 vaguely sensing cloth, holding it in my hand.
6:13 “See you soon” (I heard in my heart)
6:16 a vision of seeing or sensing a few people around a vehicle, carrying it out of a driveway.
6:23 “200”
6:25 I saw a green basket inside a blue basket, like the ones we use at youth.
6:35 “D”
6:51 “Carolyn could you hold this for me?” I was in the youth room, standing with L and another person. L had the clicker thing in her hand. The person beside her wanted to know what was in her hand and she moved her hand around to avoid it being seen; I saw someone trying to see what it was. Then she clicked on it and I heard the sound; then it was known what she had in her hand (clicked like I have an understanding?) When she clicked it, a screen began coming down; I was standing right underneath it so I quickly moved out of the way so that I was on the same side as L and the other person. They had been standing close to the stage and I was facing them. Then when I stepped closer to them, I was also standing closer to the stage.
7:24 “withdraw from battles”
7:33 Orange toilet seat; Today I was taking a long time in the bathroom because I was so deep in thought.
7:37 “All these made at Costco” seeing a sealed bag being opened; The top plastic part that makes the seal was being torn off, opening the bag. I’m praying about this.
7:39 “All these lives submitted to yours.”
8:01 Vision of seeing some peeled bananas laying in the same direction on a plate.
8:05 I was in a big stadium with lots of people. I was standing on a long green carpet (hallway in church?) on the side of the middle part of the stadium (along the short wall that circles the middle of the stadium). I saw a man pick up a boy with one arm (holding onto the back of his shirt) who had been on the carpet. He was facedown with his limbs hanging, lifeless. This is so difficult for me, but I’m sensing God’s leading to walk to the youth area tomorrow.
8:12 I saw someone kicking an orange basket ball
2:18 I saw a scoop of vanilla ice cream.
2:22 “My daughter, Love” When I heard “My daughter,” the word, “love,” overlapped it and was louder. I had become afraid of going into the Youth area and had fallen asleep as I was listening to a song, “…and the angels cry, Holy…” I will guard my heart because I know fear is a big tactic the enemy uses against me. I’m remembering what God told me, that I am loved, so I’m hanging onto this…. I made bread using a new recipe, so good!! 🤞🏼