“For He has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of His dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins.” Colossians 1:13,14
Conversation
Papa, I love You with all that I am. I believe that I have learned to submit myself to You in difficult situations. You are always faithful and true. I’m hoping I’ve been released from being given a hard time, including the difficulty that’s caused a kind of death within myself for half of my life.
My daughter come, I have called you blessed. You are Mine.
Papa, on the flip side of the coin is my destiny, the purpose You’ve created for me. When can this become a reality? Can it begin today, yesterday?
My daughter, rest. My timing is perfect. I will come.
Papa, You are good all the time. Thank-You for being near to me.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs or intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
12:39 “On the wings of a Snow White dove..”
1:08 Gently explore?
3:13 I saw two white open hands beside each other, seeing the palms like they are giving a high five. “And the angels cry, Holy, all creation cries, Holy. You will always be, Holy, Holy forever. Your name, is the highest, Your name, is the greatest Your name, stands above them all. All thrones and dominions all powers, and positions Your name, stands above them all.”
3:26 “And the angels cry, Holy, all creation cries, Holy, You will always be, Holy, Holy forever.”
4:40 “please everybody” (to please everybody)
4:48 Come My daughter, come up. (Feeling like to go upstairs to bed)
5:06 In a vision I vaguely saw someone was on her knees, kneeling with her hands lifted high together, and a man had come and put his hands overtop of hers, covering her hands with his. Sensing that I have been redeemed?
5:25 “wait, wait wait” In a dream or vision I saw a woman running up to a man with her arms open wide, running into his arms; his arms were also wide open. I saw her long hair and light coat flying in the wind.
5:35 a vision of seeing about an inch long piece of green celery in a jar that could have been salsa.
5:46 “she always study”
5:48 In a vision I saw someone (sensing a man) had opened a door for someone, and this person had walked through the door. I saw she had a spoon full of red jam in her hand. I sensed that after he opened the door, he had turned around and walked, sensing she was going to follow.
I’m not sure what time it was, but I had a vague picture of seeing 10%.
5:59 In a vision or dream I saw a dog running free in a field; I sensed someone saying that it must feel good to finally be able to run free. Also sensing they had put a tracker on her so that they always knew where she was.
6:05 I vaguely saw or sensed a woman in a hotel room, and hearing, “and Caroline” like some people were giving her instructions.
6:08 These could have been my own thoughts, but I heard in my heart, “welcome home.”
6:13 I had a vision of seeing a loaf or loaves of sliced bread on a table at church. There could have been some other baked goods on the table.
6:16 A picture of being in a bus, seeing two people sitting together further to the back, left side, and seeing all the other seats were empty. Seeing all the empty seats, I’m thinking I was standing further to the front.
6:27 “constantly being filled” or “constantly needing to be filled” I had a vague picture of a woman holding a plate that was filled with food. I think I need to read on a regular basis.
6:38 I was spelling my name, saying each letter (Caroline) sensing I was writing it on a paper.
6:40 “You are my strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek, You are my all in all.”
6:50 Disciples
7:10 “I like west.” I had a dream where I was in the back of the big truck. Jesus my husband, Bella and myself were sitting on the edge of the truck (with our feet dangling out) while it was backing up; in my dream, backing up was moving forward because we were facing away from the front of the truck. The truck would often brake at places and I had to hold onto something so I wouldn’t fall off, but it felt like I had nothing to hold onto. It felt like my husband was trying to get me to fall so that I would be run over by the tires. Then I had a picture of myself; my hand was on my tummy when the truck had braked, and I put my hands on my tummy to keep myself from falling (I vaguely felt like he was showing me that I had done that, and/or I had seen him looking at me when I learned this about myself). I saw a hydro pole coming closer, and then I was wedged in between the hydro pole and the right side of the truck. Then we had to make a few moves to get us unstuck. Then I was looking at the corner of the vehicle that had hit the hydro pole; I don’t know if I was still in the truck but I was outside somehow, facing that area (the right side of the truck), seeing the corner had hit the hydro pole, just slightly, and that’s why we couldn’t go any further. (Does this have something to do with feeling like I’m intruding?) So we needed to go forward (back up) to realign ourselves to get us unstuck. I have a feeling like I was helping to get realigned. At one point I saw Bella’s hand as we had braked.
Then the scene changed where I was in our boat and we had gone to a residential area, beside a house. I had a feeling like we were close to Jesus’ house so he could see the boat we owned (in waking life we don’t own a boat). The boat turned into a wheelbarrow that Bella was pushing. There was something we needed to go over so Bella lifted me and the whole wheelbarrow over it, and when it landed on the ground I had good balance and felt that the tire had a lot of weight on it when we landed. I was amazed that Bella could lift me up, thinking she was so strong. Then we were in someone’s side yard, kind of towards the back. I saw that my husband was pleased with himself to have brought us there, seeing a big smile on his face as he looked at me, satisfied and facing me. Then I saw the lady who lived there was in her back yard with her kids, looking shy and looking down as her and her kids started walking towards us to go into the house. They had been standing in tall grass that was about as tall as her. I had a faint thought or feeling like we were intruding. I think I remember someone talking about an intruding spirit? In waking life the feeling of intruding is familiar, thinking it’s because I’ve been given a hard time and not sensing his nearness or presence. But, I know this is Gods way of strengthening my character and determination (my inner man). It reminds me of when parents say to their kids, “this hurts me more than it hurts you…” I’m going to bake another loaf of bread this afternoon, and also Jam Jams. I’m sensing to read,”A Greater Passion.” I’ve been meaning to begin reading these books, and now that it’s been given to me I’m thinking this is a direction to take. I actually have all three books, but this gives me an opportunity to give one of them away, Lucas. Changing the subject, I believe part of my dream about having little water left has to do with me needing to read the NLT. In my walk with Jesus I’ve discovered so many times that I don’t know as much as I think I do; how can a person know this truth about themselves if they’re not being tested by God? (someone who they trust could point things out, that’s true) My journey with Jesus is definitely an eye-opener!! I’m so thankful for my spiritual community whom I trust for discernment. We watched about half of the movie yesterday. This morning I fried 8 brussels sprouts and mixed together 2 eggs, thyme, garlic, seasoning salt, turmeric, a piece of celery, 1 tomato, cilantro, Johnny’s Garlic Spread. Blessings and love…🙏🏻