“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
Conversation
Papa, I love You and I worship You. ThankYou for Your ways with me. Thank-You for Your unwavering love and for Your faithfulness.
My daughter, rise up and follow Me, and I will give you rest. You are Mine.
Papa, I want to follow You. Help me follow You.
Come My daughter, I am faithful.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
1:23 “I am near” “I am faithful to my promise … When I stand here in your presence I have everything I need. The joy of the Lord, the joy of the Lord is my strength.”
2:33 In a vision I saw a toddler bending down like he was touching his toes. I noticed his head. (I went downstairs to pray)
3:44 Papa, I’m coming. (I went back up)
4:09 In a vision I was on a jet. I had a feeling like I was with some people and we had found our seats. Then I noticed a guy wearing a baseball cap, walk towards the door of the jet. I had a feeling like he was leaving because he couldn’t find a seat. I wanted this person to come.
4:17 In a dream or vision I heard my friend say, “Caroline,” Yesterday she called me as I was walking in the foyer.
4:14 “Some people only have one parent; it’s very sad.” There was peanut butter stuck on a curtain. I was looking at it with my brother. Then when we went closer I saw that it was in the inside of a transparent curtain like a shower curtain. I think there were two curtains and it was in the inside of it. There was a little girl I had been talking to and I had a feeling that she had made the mess, and I had a feeling like we were cleaning it up. Then I saw someone was pouring out dirty water out of a big white pail. Then I was carrying a pail to get clean water. There was about a foot deep of clean water on the ground that had green plant and small green Pine tree branches floating at the top. So I filled it, making sure to only take the water and began walking. Then I noticed it was only halfway full so I went back and put the pail in the water. As I was scooping up water, some green pine tree little branches went into the pail and I gently poured them out and scooped up more water, filling it to the top. Today we needed to clean up water on the laundry floor that came from the water softener. Since we moved here 13 years ago I’ve been emptying and cleaning the white tub part of the water softener and adding more salt. I hadn’t emptied it so the water had overflowed. So we emptied it again today.
Someone aggressively pushed me over a bed and onto the floor, and my back bumped against another bed. Then he did it again. Then I got up and began chasing him away. I heard my footsteps and then I stomped on the floor to make it sound like I was chasing him, and he kept on running. There were some people there. Before this dream in my prayer time I stood on Scripture and in my heart I became determined to remember who I am as a daughter of God.
5:19/5:20 “we finally will make their home.” Walking down a hallway, talking with someone
5:24 a vision of both kids having jobs at youth
5:29 scrunching up a white and silver paper into a ball
5:35 “it’s always a treasure to be found.”
6:50 “please come back!”
7:16 “All I want for Christmas”
8:44 All I want for Christmas”
I dreamt we parked in a very rich and powerful man’s garage. There was a big parking lot that it was connected to. We saw the man had parked his car on the other side of the parking lot and he had gotten out of his car. I think he was wearing white. Then the person I was with went and spoke with him to get him to come to his house. I had a feeling like we were going to talk. Then I was sitting in a white bed like chair and I had been asked to tell a story. So then I was thinking of what to say. While I was at his house there was a scene where I was standing over something, and all of a sudden it was like my water broke (I saw red) gushing out.
In a dream I saw the outside big black garbage bin; the lid opened and in my dream I heard , “good morning.”
I saw some black pens together and some pencils.
9:44 “his mom said that’s his calling.”
We had a wonderful time Christmas Eve. We sang karaoke and that was fun. We also played Pictionary.. I’m understanding that in order to walk forward I need to remember who I am as God’s daughter. This is my goal. I haven’t been able to spend a good amount of time with God during the Christmas Holidays and today I’m taking a bit more time. There were days where I stood on my feet almost all day doing things, so I thought I’d take a bit more time today than I usually do. Blessings…