Psalm 33:3,4
“Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy. For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does.”
My Father, I love you. Thank you for being so near to me.
You are my daughter whom I love. Come, all is well with you. Caroline, I have a word for you today; speak.
My Dad. I know you have this for me, and I have this excitement about it in my heart. I think what’s holding me back is not knowing what to say.
You will my faithful one, when it’s time.
Dad, I know that speaking is coming in the next pocket of time. I pray that you’d cause my heart to be filled with the deepest awe of you, because then it wouldn’t be difficult to know what to say. Maybe this is what all my messages will “hug” while I prepare and speak.
I love you Caroline.
Dad, I pray that you’d break whatever it is in me that’s causing me to hesitate with going up. Please help me push through quickly. This is my hearts desire.
I will help you my loved one. Caroline, I have more for you.
Dad, what is it?
I love you Caroline, and I never hesitate in showing you my love.
Father, it makes me think that when I hesitate in doing what you ask me to do, then I’m holding back from fully loving you, and that my love for you grows as I obey what you say because love is an action word. Father, I hear, “embrace me.” Oh Dad, looking at it from this perspective, how can I live with myself if I don’t fully embrace you in this way? Help me Father! The doing part is far more difficult than to talk about it with you.
I know. I will help you my daughter.
Okay Dad, I sense my faith rising, and that you truly do want me to speak. It’s sinking deeper into my heart, the reality of it, and it feels like I’m embracing it more.
Caroline come, rest in me. We’ll do this together, you and I.
Okay Dad. I’m living the kind of adventurous life I’ve always wished for but had no idea how to make it happen, and I know that without you it can never be possible. You are the most amazing Dad. I thank you for your goodness in my heart and in my life. Thank you for taking me on this journey..
You’re welcome Caroline. I love you -you are mine.
Reflection:
This morning as I was driving home from the box I wondered what took me so long with going back; it’s so rewarding and I absolutely love it! One of the things we did for the strength part was weighted sled pushes from one side of the gym to the other. For the workout we did as many rounds as possible in 20 min of: single arm front rack carry, 45lbs – 50m, then goblet squats 45lbs, then another round of single arm farmer carry (other arm), then 30 russian kettlebell swings,45lbs, and it was tough! I subbed yesterday morning and today all day. I was only booked to sub in the morning today but then they asked me if I could also sub in the afternoon, so I didn’t have the time I was looking forward to having in the afternoon for my usual quiet Bible time.. My favourite app that I use all the time for my writing is Scrivener:) Tomorrow is my sisters get together for my birthday, yay!! I feel so honoured… Many blessings to you!