“Be imitators of Gods therefore, as dearly loved children, and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”
Ephesians 5:1,2
Conversation
Thank-You Papa for Your Great Love. Thank-You for Your faithfulness. I know that I am always safe with You.
Come My darling and rest. You are Mine this day.
Papa, I look to You and in my minds eye I see Your wonderful face. You are my hope and my deliverer, and I trust in You.
Come My daughter and rest. All is well with you. You are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
1:33 “The lord is my strength”
1:57 “This is, the day You have made. Let us rejoice, rejoice and be glad in it.”
2:51 Papa
I love you My daughter. Rest, all is well with you. You are Mine declares the Lord.
4:22 I had a vision of taking my white mug, the one with an A on it. I had given two of my friends the same white mug with the letter of their first name on them. When I bought them, the store didn’t have a C, so I bought the one with an A, for my middle name, Agnes.
4:33 “Life”
4:37 “Shiny lips”
4:40 “University”
4:49 Signing papers: I had a vision of seeing the President of the United States was going to the people around him and getting them to sign some papers.
4:56 “I have faith in what I see”
5:30 Someone rolled a small ball onto the road in the city and we were watching it to see if a car would drive over it. I was watching the wheels and saw a car’s wheels were a bit slanted, but none of the cars drove over the ball. Then I saw someone had kicked a white soccer ball and it rebounded off of a wall and went back to them. Then I saw it come directly towards me and it hit me hard in the chest. Also, a few of us were sitting at a table when a cup of juice or something was spilled. The cloth absorbed it along with the persons long sleeve shirt and the bend of his arm. Then I chose a reddish kitchen towel from the drawer to help absorb it. I chose red because it matched the colour of juice that was spilled and it wouldn’t show the stain. Sometime in the night I vaguely saw a red shirt or sweater.
5:52 Someone said something ending with, “have closed its doors.” I’m going to pray into this but I’m sensing that after our church three days of fasting and praying, this journey of facing my giants in order to grow my faith muscles is done. I’m sensing that now is the time of healing and restoration.
5:45 I saw two small packages (of two) of lettuce on the counter that someone was taking.
5:47 “Dancing in the dark…”
5:50 In a vision I saw an orange or yellow bus on a city street, parked in front of a building and in front of an intersection. People walked out of the building and crossed the street on the crosswalk, and I saw someone touch the bus by the door before walking across the street.
6:02 In a vision I saw a white police car and sensed the word, judgement. (to decree a verdict and make a decision?)
738 “I need you more, more than yesterday I need you more, more than words can say I need You more, than ever before I need You Lord, I need You Lord.”
9:59/10:00 “You uncovered My blessing.” I heard these words in my heart and saw a vision: I saw a quiet peaceful town, seeing rows of houses with a thick blanket of snow on everything. My gaze was directed to the snow on the roofs and I saw in them and through them the beautiful, endless deep blue sky. During the night I was pressing into the Lord, focusing on Him and seeing His face (rather than looking at the high waves). It reminds me of a dream I had when I saw the face of Jesus in the sky and I felt His presence so powerfully in my heart. When I awoke I still felt His presence and it slowly left. I cried and cried because in His presence I had a knowing that I was created by Him, for Him, and that I belonged to Him. If I could have had the choice to go to heaven right then to be with Him, I would have in a heartbeat. This was before we had kids. In waking life I have now learned to keep my eyes on Jesus.
January 4: 4:20 “This is, the day you have made. Let us rejoice, rejoice and be glad in it.”
4:31 You are faithful to Your promise
4:52 “When I stand here in your presence I have everything I need. The joy of the Lord, the joy of the Lord is my strength.”
5:34 “Come back!”
Papa, I don’t know how to come back.
5:35 Trust Me
Help me to trust You
5:47 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not in your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path.”
6:13 Papa
I’m coming
I’m coming too. I just don’t know how.
“Be the gardener of my heart. Tend the soul of my soul.”
7:35 “I was born again”
7:38 “See here” I had a vision of a lady who was in the airport. She was wearing a yellow shirt and a scarf with colours on (I think blue and red). She looked up at me and looked into the airport again.
7:47 “I have faith in what I see…”
7:52 “Sue Saint Marie” (I heard someone sing this)
8:35 “A reliable man.”
8:45 “I found a love for me, darling just dive right in, and follow my lead.”
8:49 “in your life”
I had a dream where it was dark outside. I had backed up from parking in the country and I saw bright headlights coming towards me on the driveway.
I had another dream where I was sitting in the passenger side of the car. We had arrived somewhere and the driver had gotten out of the car; the door was open and a dog came in and began sniffing around. Then a kid opened my door for me.
9:06 “Christs love for the church; it became strong.”
9:09 In my vision I saw a group of ladies standing in line praising God. I saw their backs. They had light blue pants on. Before I saw their backs, I had a vague picture of a lady whose face was right in front of me. Soar?
9:11 “stay by my side”
9:32 I was in a large school type building. There were adults in the hallway, and it felt like they were all going into a classroom. I was talking with a friend of mine and then I saw another friend walking towards me. She came so quickly (like she was walking fast forward like fast forwarding a video) that my other friend and I looked at each other and were amazed. In my dream I had seen someone walk fast like this before. We were going to have coffee and we started walking.
Then I was outside on the parking lot, and I saw my mom’s light on where she lived. It had a white curtain over the window. I used to live in the same room and I saw both windows with their lights on. The curtain was like a white bed sheet. Then I was getting up from being on my knees and began walking. I had a tight dress on, feeling a bit self conscious, and I adjusted it as I walked. It was in the evening so it was dark. There were others on the parking lot. Then I saw two toddlers playing together on the parking lot. Then I was bending down and lovingly embraced one of the toddlers. The other toddler was his friend. I said something like they shouldn’t be outside playing because it was dangerous (I heard a loud car engine), and I asked where his mom was and he was sad and said something like she was in bed, feeling like she was having a hard time emotionally.
I took a nap and at 1:13 I dreamt of seeing someone go up three steps. After I got my cappuccino (Sunday the 5th), I went to pray on the stage (3steps) in the chapel, pouring out my heart to God.
Jan 5: 6:06 I dreamt there was a fence that was really wobbly that I was trying to go onto, and then it broke. Then I was on the other side of the fence, on the ground, maybe in a ditch. I also dreamt that I was hanging onto an elephant trunk; the elephant took me up high to the ceiling where I saw a fan.
7:35 “Joy, unspeakable Joy. It rises in my soul, never let me go.”
I also dreamt I had a full bag of candy (among them were Nerds) in my hands that I was offering to people after the service. After I had let people take candy I looked into the bag and was surprised how much was taken; there was just a little bit left in the bag. I’m remembering the word I heard a little while ago about flying with candy or something. I’m praying into this. “I need you more, more than anything I need You more, more than words can say I need You more, than ever before I need You Lord, I need You Lord…❤️🔥🙏🏼