I Know Who I Am!!

My Father, I love you. Thank-you for your faithfulness.

My daughter come and rest, you are Mine.

Father, I sense that we’re in a time of celebration, and I’m so deeply relieved. 

Caroline, I have a gift for you today. Open your hands to receive it. 

Father, my hands are open, and by faith I receive your gift. My arms are open wide to embrace all you have for me. 

Then come. Now is the time.

My Dad, in my heart I’m running forward. Our journey has been painfully slow, but I know it was necessary and will be worth every moment.. Thank-you for this time of celebration that we’ve stepped into.. Help me to continue to be able to hear your voice in my heart and through the way you’ve designed. 

My faithful one, I have come and will draw you nearer to me still. I love you.

Reflection:

Last night at 228 I suddenly awoke and was wide awake. There was deep meaning in my heart from the Lord, and I vaguely remember a togetherness, maybe an impression in my heart from the Lord. 

Then I awoke at 4 and had had this dream: I was sitting on a chair; the sitting part and backrest was wooden, a light yellow, but the frame and legs were metal. All of a sudden it burst really high into the sky. Then as I was going up I passed a building and I saw through the windows that it was some kind of recording studio. It was empty with no-one in it, and I saw chairs here and there and a curtain that divided a small part of the room near the window that was open. It looked like it had been used but wasn’t being used anymore. As I continued to go really high up, I exclaimed that I was a star! Then when I had reached the turning point of not going up anymore, I began to come down and felt the rush of it. I remember deciding not to fear but be determined. At the turning point before I began to come down, I really quickly tossed away the chair, thinking I’m going to really enjoy this and make the most of it, and I changed my position into a diving position and began to dive down as fast as I could. As I dove down I saw something red and decided to grab it as I passed it, thinking it was meant to help me break the fall. So I grabbed it, thinking it was a parachute. It was all folded in so I began to loosen it all around the edges. It was rounded in shape and had a bit of black in it, like black netting. As I was pulling it apart I noticed I was near the ground and I began to push myself up like swimming in a pool. It worked a little but then I had done all I could do to keep myself in the air. The ground was just a step down, but I was hovering over the ground and it wasn’t by my effort. I saw that I could also not open the red “parachute” any more, like it wasn’t meant to open any further. 

I wanted to bring soup to the staff members but I couldn’t because of how it would look.

In this dream I was watching two young boys, friends, walking down the road away from us. I remember watching their pants and thinking that this was good and that they were good for each-other  -a strong friendship. 

I was outside and I think it was winter. I saw a reclining chair and it looked so comfortable. Even though it was cold I knew I could rest comfortably in the chair and was about to lay down on it.

Someone’s dog had taken a battery that was laying on the ground and began chewing on it. I tried to take it from its mouth, and then the owner, a man, came and I told him about it. Then the responsibility was on the owner.

I was in a place and there were some people a few meters away who were sitting. One of them said to me, “You’re an animal,” and I replied, “No, I know who I am.” Yes!! Theres such a deep satisfaction in my heart when its God who tells me that I know who I am, because then it confirms in the deepest part of who I am, that its true, that I really do know who I am, who God has truly made me to be -I love me. ❤️

There was an older pastor with white hair and white clothing who was standing, like standing in front of a couple, and said, “God bless you with grace and peace.” At home I always say a blessing over my kids before going to bed, which starts with exactly these words…

Another dream where my kids had asked to visit some people and I said they could. Then after they had left, I went to go find them because I was concerned for their safety. I went there and the people said they weren’t there, like they had taken them somewhere, and they were enjoying how afraid I was. I was really afraid that I wouldn’t be able to find them, but when I went to another place, they were there and were perfectly safe. I was so thankful. An on-going fear I have is that I’m afraid that they’ll be taken from me to someplace on the other side of the world and there’d be nothing I can do about it. But God has already reassured me that they won’t be going anywhere.

Today I’m going to make cinnamon buns again and chocolate muffins with a cream-cheese filling. Our wonderful friend is sadly leaving really early Wednesday morning. I’ve truly been blessed by her. And, I know who I am and who’s I am!!! 😍 Jesus is my hero!! Many blessings to you today….