Incredibly Loved….

“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” Matthew 21:22

Conversation

I worship You Papa. You are King in my heart and in my life. I love you and I honour you by running to You and to all You have for my life. I’m so excited about my future, and I’m so excited to show You that I’m running to You and not resisting you anymore. 

Carolyn, come, you are Mine and I love you. Be at rest..

Papa I declare a divine shift in my heart and in the atmosphere surrounding me; Your will, will be done in my life this week. I am Your daughter, whole and incredibly loved by You and Jesus. I’m diving into faith, trusting in Your word, in Your promise, and in Your deep love for me. I declare that Your purpose for my life will be accomplished this week. I charge Your mighty angels over me in Jesus name. 

Come My faithful one, now is the time.

Papa, I pray that You would light up the way you want me to go, and in every moment, help me to remember and know it deep in my heart that I am deeply loved…

Yes My daughter, you are deeply loved and have found favour with God and with man. I bless you My daughter; rest, all is well with you. 

Reflection

Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious!  What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..

1:02 I saw a purple tag in a black sweater. The sweater looked like it was hung up on a hanger. The purple tag reminds me of the purple Tag that came with the plant I bought a few days ago from Costco. It’s a Tropical plant, Ficus Elastica. It’s a symbol of Abundance and Prosperous Growth, nice! I only looked it up now:) 

1:07 I saw a family walking into the Co-op gas station 

1:09 red sweater on a chair, reminds me of my desk chair.

1:11 “Big commission”

1:52 I saw a rider on a horse; the horse was taking a big jump over what felt like a crevice. I saw their silhouette in the night sky. They were facing right and reminds me of the movie, ET; we’ll need to watch it. Then I saw it as a picture on a tote bag, thinking it was on my light blue and white tote bag. 

2:05 “Darling we’ll be alright this time…”

2.:10 I vaguely dreamt something about a sweater.

5:25 I vaguely saw a circle or a bright ring. “Oh I found a lover, to carry more than just my secrets. To carry love, to carry children, of our own…” 

Last night at home I realized that I needed to do something “different.” I hesitated because I really don’t know what I’m doing when I do rock paper scissors, and this one was even different than that. I really need to “get” more things about the youth culture..

I bought a Tropical plant from Costco the other day and it’s so nice to finally have a plant, but two days ago the dog mauled it. Now I need to put it onto the piano when we leave. Having a plant is also good because it reminds me to open up the curtains.

Thinking I need to sit at the front right side on Sunday. Yesterday I parked (sat) beside the big yellow tractor, inching to that side. I avoided being hit and moved a little but I inched my way back and stayed. I actually hadn’t planned it beforehand but I felt the Holy Spirit’s prompting. I raised my hand when the message was done because I want to follow Jesus… I shot some hoops. I wasn’t sure if I needed to bring something sweet with strawberry jam, so when I saw the word “sweet” I thought to make it and bring it; I made it in the last few moments before coming. Later I remembered that I dreamt about cleaning a utensil and a pot I think, and I’m so thankful for these moments. I strongly felt the Holy Spirit when I was sitting on the church, and I had a strong urge and excitement to pray for the leader. In the beginning I recognized hearing the number but I thought that it applied to Sunday, that it was still on the table and didn’t realize that it applied to yesterday.. I’m realizing now about the blue box and the two mega ice cream sandwiches on the front cover…

6:59 I had a quick picture of seeing three bottles of dish soap. One of them was opened I think and a hand could have been taking one I’m not sure. I faintly heard the word, closet. I have a photo of a closet that I want to share, thinking it’s so neat! 

7:06 Someone was showing me some bottles in the fridge that looked like brown wine bottles with the long “neck.” (The person who I saw was a lady and she stood beside the fridge, looking at me. The fridge reminds me of the one at y church. I’m thinking the two wine bottles could represent the two wine glasses I saw in another dream, which represented the two ice cream sandwiches on the blue box. I’m thinking that it’s not too late to have one..

7:10 I was remembering B’s red dress and it stood out to me suddenly as I was falling asleep; wondering if I need to wear my red dress again on Sunday? Yesterday while sitting on the couch I was feeling the Holy Spirit.. I’m thinking that the dream about seeing a vehicle slide on the road and thinking in my dream that I was going to crash into the vehicle has something to do with the couch? I slightly moved but inched back and stayed.. wondering if this counts? 

7:24 I heard “just to survive,” not sure if this was just me.

7:25 “Come My darling, all is well with you.”

7:28 In this dream I began to walk along the hallway by youth with a lady, and when we walked passed a corner (like how the family bathroom entrance goes in), I saw someone standing there that had a white coat with straight edges.I need to wear my white dress.. I had seen a lady wearing a white dress early in the week so I’m going to wear my white dress and sit in the front right side..

7:34 “I’ll never get over you…” (A Band of Gold) I saw a round table.

7:38 I saw such a cute baby sitting on the coach! Meaning that sitting on the couch and crashing counted?

7:43 Jesus my husband was holding the bathroom door as I was going to the bathroom because the door didn’t lock. He was holding it open but closed enough so that I had a bit of privacy from other people.

7:47 In German I heard “vara heya” “here again.” (I have no idea how to spell in low german)

7:51 “always keeping by your side.” (Band of gold)

7:55 I saw someone in a wheelchair going around a parked car on what felt like the south parking lot. The person was wheeling himself and said, “hello, good to see you.” I have no idea what this could mean. 

7:58 “We were kids back then, thinking we would live forever…”

8:00 Someone picked something off of the floor that had fallen (feeling like this was in my kitchen) and put it onto the counter. I’m wondering if this represents the name tag I picked up.

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