James 1:12
“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.”
Father
My daughter, I love you -you are Mine. Come, lets walk and talk. I have something for you today.
Father, what is it? I really just want to sit down now.
I know.
Dad, am I ready for what your’e making me ready for?
Yes, you’re ready. Caroline, there’s more. Step into…
Dad, I don’t know what you want me to step into, but I’m sensing it has something to do with my faith. By faith I can walk on water with you.
Caroline, there’s more in store for you. Come, lets walk in it.
Dad, I’m so desperate for you. Help me not to give up hope. I don’t know your timing but I still completely trust in you.. I’m just so tired.
I understand my faithful one. Come and rest as we walk together, for I am Holy.
Father, you are Sovereign. You hold all power and authority, so please come and do your work.
I’ve come my faithful one. I am near to you.
Dad, by faith I’m walking on water with you. By faith I step into where you’re leading us to go. Please make it clear to me to know what exactly I’m stepping into, because there always seems to be another thing I need to do or grow into doing.
Rest my faithful one. It’s complete. Time is standing still for you.
Dad, I’m so 100% ready to walk forward through the door that would show that this trial is truly over. As long as I’m on this side of the doorway it seems like this trial that you’ve said is over, isn’t over because not a lot has changed. I feel like I’ve been abandoned even though I know I’m not.
Trust Me Caroline, I’ve come and will surely set you free.
Father, Your ways are always good and right. So please help me in this place so I can continue to follow you.
I am your help my faithful daughter. Rest -all is well with you. Remember that I love you and that you are always Mine.
Reflection:
The guard I’ve had around my heart for most of my life has all come down because of Jesus’ love.. My heart is open for all the world to see, but what’s most important is that Jesus sees my heart as I truly am.. This birthing from the old into the new hasn’t been private and I’m so deeply thankful for that because then others are witnesses; the enemy can’t come to me and say that it’s all been in my mind and that it didn’t really happened. This is the wisdom of living in community, that we can build one another up and encourage each other so that we can go further into the deep end with the Lord than we ever could have on our own. I love learning the steps that have become a dance. I trust in Jesus’ leadership completely and I’m in awe of how he’s led… If I hadn’t been led in this way, all of what I’ve said and done would still be inside of me, laying dormant. I’m tired, but I’m tired for God, which is so fulfilling. This journey together with Jesus is filled with precious memories that we will always share. Wise men say that fools rush in, and I completely agree. Its so painful to walk slowly with Jesus and wait for his timing, but as difficult as it’s been, I will always look back and value every moment of falling deeper in love with him, which I can’t help doing… Jesus is the love of my life and I’m so thankful for him!!!!