Moving Up and Forward!

My Father, please come and fill me through your Spirit -I need your strength so that I can do another recording today. 

Come my faithful one, draw near to me and I will give you my joy.

Dad, I am your faithful daughter who’s heart has been restored, and I know my purpose because you’ve led me to it. I’ve done everything you’ve asked so far, so please help me continue to do all you ask in the future. Help me be faithful to you in the things you’ll ask me to do so that I’ll grow up in them. I strongly sense that you’ve told me that I’ve walked the hardest trial in my life and now it’s over. It’s now time to walk deeper into your heart, up and in -forward. 

Yes my daughter, this trial is over and you’ve done well -I am proud of you! It’s now time to draw closer to me in another way.

Father, I feel like I’ve graduated from something, like I’ve been refined. In this though, I also feel a bit overwhelmed like I always do during times of transition. Help me stay close to you.

I love you Caroline -all is well with you.

Thank you Father, for you are my refuge and strength and my place of rest. 

Ephesians 1:11 “In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will.” 

Reflection: 

Happy Saturday!! It’s getting so nice again outside! I’ve really missed spring and I’m so glad it’s finally here. In my dream two nights ago Jesus and I had gone into my sister’s house; both her and her husband hadn’t come home from work yet. We were in their living room and I saw two couches, like two love seats around a coffee table. I saw a pillow on one of the couches which indicated the place where he sat to relax. Then I had gone there and began sitting in his spot. Then the scene changed where I was texting my sister a question, to let her know we were at their place because I knew she would let her husband know that we were there. So I was indirectly letting him know we had come into their place so he wouldn’t be surprised. Then I saw that he had come home and saw that he had cleaned up the couches because the living room was now empty. Then he said he was going to go to bed to take a nap. I vaguely saw the face of a watch and saw the length of time he’d be napping, which was about seven hours..long nap! Then I was talking to him and he told me that he had parasites, and I saw his discomfort. Then I saw a hair pin/bobby pin on the counter in front of us and he told me something, that parasites were on the hair pin and that they were attracted to hairpins, so I knew to stay away from hairpins because of that (to me hairpins represents having hair up for formal occasions, or to act proper or presentable). It reminds me to let my hair down and just be myself in a time of rest… It reminds me that it’s unhealthy to not be myself. 

This weekend, maybe tomorrow afternoon I’ll be going to help my parents again. My dad’s health is getting much worse. He can hardly get up and doesn’t eat or drink very much anymore. So I’m not sure how long he’ll be able to stay in their condo before going into the hospital. His health always seems to decline faster when he’s at the hospital for some reason.