Driving by Faith

My daughter, you are mine. Come, follow after me. 

Thank you Dad that you’re so approachable. Help me to be like this too. Thank you for showing me before it happened that I would be resisting you. It was only afterwards that I knew without doubt that I had resisted you. Now I know for sure that what I thought you were saying really is what you were saying. I want to be corrected by you when I’m wrong because then I know with more clarity what the right thing to do is. I want to please you because you’re my Dad and my God that I love. Thank you for helping me follow after you. 

My faithful daughter, I am well pleased with you. Come, and I will make you a fisher of men. 

Jesus, I’m so honoured that you want to show me your home, your personal space. Please continue to show me your heart and the Father’s heart. I want to know you more so that the fire in my heart for you will never grow dim, but will only continue to grow. Please lead me and teach me to become a fisher of men. 

Come my daughter, and you will see. 

Reflection:

This last Sunday morning I woke up and wrote down the dream God gave me. I dreamt that I had been driving in complete darkness, not being able to see where I was driving and being fine with that, when all of a sudden I slammed on the brakes because I became afraid of hitting people. In waking life I knew that I would somehow resist what God was doing in my life and took this as a warning and became more alert. Late Sunday night I looked online to see if there were any available days that I could sub, and I saw that I was being requested to sub the next day for my favourite grade three class. I thought it would be okay to sub because I wasn’t quiet sure yet what the parameters were when I had sensed the Lord leading me a week or two ago, to dedicate every Monday, Wednesday and Friday to focus on him as I prepare for and do my recordings. So I booked to sub Monday but couldn’t sleep well, thinking about it. 

When I awoke Monday morning I realized I had made a mistake because the Lord had corrected me in a dream that night. I dreamt that someone I know who’s name means, descendant of the bright-headed one, was stubbornly refusing to follow someone who’s name means, He Gave. This dream confirmed that I had interpreted what God had already told me about Monday, Wednesday and Friday, correctly (bright headed), that I am following Gods leading when I follow the person who represents “God gave,”when I give him these three days. By subbing on Monday, I was being stubborn, resisting God’s leading. I’m not sure if I’m explaining this clearly but, it makes sense to me. I’m glad that God warned me beforehand so that I knew with more certainty what he meant afterwards. I couldn’t cancel my workday because it wouldn’t have been the right thing to do, but today (Tuesday) has become my Monday for this week:) 

The last few days I’ve been captivated by the full moon. I think it’s so beautiful when in the winter, the moon shines so brightly that it reflects its light on the snow, lighting up the night. I will keep on driving without a map and without streetlights to guide me, because I know that this is the only way that I will be able to learn how to truly see. Blessings!