“Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.” -Proverbs 4:13
Conversation
My Papa, I love You. I praise Your Holy Name. I’m so thankful for these difficult ways of Yours because through them I’m learning so much as I’m being drawn closer to You. I’m learning more about who You are and learning who I am in You. I actually have a sense of value now; You value me so much that You’re taking all the time I need to learn valuable lessons, lessons that are changing my heart to look more like Yours, including gaining freedom from sin. Please enable me to take the next step. I’m resting in You about it.
My daughter, “GRACE.”
Papa this reminds me of writing and recording my testimony. This is the next thing You want me to do right?
Yes, you are right. Come, My favour rests on you. You are Mine -I love you.
Papa, yes I want to speak for You! Yes I know You are able to lead a person like me, and yes, I know You will enable me to do all You ask me to do. I am willing Papa. Help me to take bigger steps from now on. I trust You.
Then come, I am near.
I’m coming Papa, thank-You.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him. For the past while God has been taking me through a spiritual shower. I believe He’s preparing me for what’s coming up next. He’s purifying my heart so that my heart is clean before Him. It also clears the way for me to hear Holy Spirit better when there’s no mess in the way. I record the times when God says something to me because even in that, there’s meaning. Blessings.
5:43 I woke up and heard these lyrics in my heart and went downstairs to pray: “I sought the Lord, and He heard, and He answered, I sought the Lord, and He heard, and He answered. That’s why I trust Him! That’s why I trust Him!”
I dreamt that there was a 5 litre, blue water jug sitting on the floor in front of me, and the top was completely open; the whole top (not just the spout at the top) was cut off and I saw it was filled with water. I also saw two long curved white plastic “straws” (reminds me of the water pumps, the long thing that goes into the water, except these were flexible) going into the water jug that were each coming from two other jugs, pouring more water into it. I was worried that the jug would overflow with water so I took one out, saw a kid and gave it to her and asked her to put her finger on the end of it to stop the water from coming out. I knew the other one was still pouring water into the jug and I thought that is okay because it wouldn’t overfill it. I think this represents that my heart has finally turned towards Jesus my husband, and it’s his heart that I trust..
Before all of this, I saw a plastic “straw” laying on the floor and no water was coming out of it; I believe this represents that God has taken out what doesn’t lift me up. I’ve put Jesus first.. At first I thought this represented ministry time, but now that I’ve experienced today’s activities, I believe it represents my explanation above. I believe that it’s God’s timing to now only have Jesus my husbands influence pouring into my heart and into my life (God first of course). I volunteered at the World Cafe. I volunteered last Sunday too but that was because they needed another person. We watched Elemental yesterday; about water and fire coming together and at the end the daughter layed down on the ground face forward. It was to show the deepest respect to her dad. And her dad accepted it by doing the same for her. Reminds me of the time where I sensed to do that in prayer for God. I do this all the time at home when I’m downstairs spending time with God.
Today I finished John 2:25 in my Bible time with God, so tomorrow I’ll be starting John 3:1.
I realized this morning that I could have taken another step last week.. Rather than becoming discouraged about it I’m resting in God because it wasn’t revealed to me by the Holy Spirit to do it then. When the Holy Spirit reveals it to me in time, that’s when I’ll be ready to do it. I love you Jesus..
I was reminded to do another recording when I saw a quote from Piper. It also reminds me about Pipeline; I’ve put it on my calendar to read 25 pages from my leadership book, per reading time, twice a week. So when I follow this schedule I know I’ll have read the book by the due date. I’m sensing it’s really important to have read it by then. I also put it on my calendar to read my marriage book, which I”m enjoying very much!!! I also love my leadership book! I read to page 29 today. We’ve put our hammocks out on the patio, so I was reading outside today, so nice.
My mom gave me my dad’s watch, and now every time I see it, love fills my heart for him. I’m so glad because before I couldn’t feel love for him, and now I do, including peace. His watch is an analogue watch, and it stopped at 10:29.
Today at the World Cafe, I was shaking two shots of espresso in a closed container when, because of the pressure that was created, it exploded and made a big mess on the counter and my arms and hands. It reminds me of the movie Top Gun when they took a deep dive down into the steep valley where they took aim and released a bomb that exploded their target. I’m going to suggest watching Top Gun today; it’s Bella’s favourite movie (we always fast-forward the bedroom scene.) I love you Jesus… thank-you for being patient with me and for being so gracious.. You love me despite my weaknesses; I think I’m the most blessed woman in all the world! There’s no school tomorrow. I’m planning on going to Shopgym tomorrow. My back still hurts a bit so I’m hoping it’ll be okay. I got it to keep exercising. I had a bit of coffee left in my cup at church and the wind tipped it over! It reminds me of a dream I had a few years ago where my husband gave me his cup of coffee. There was still some in it and it was still a bit warm, but I didn’t know what to do with it. Then my father in law came and took it from me and put it into the fridge. But as soon as he put it into the fridge, it tipped over and spilled out. Many blessings…