“Shirley goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:6
Conversation
Papa, I love You. I worship You with a desperate and hopeful heart.
Come My daughter, rest, all is well with you. You are Mine; be at rest.
Papa, in my walk with You, I will do my best. I can only run through doors that are open. So I’m putting my trust in You as I follow You in obedience.
My darling, I love you with an everlasting love. I am near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
April 2: 2:02 I saw a person wearing a brown round rimmed hat and wearing a brown shirt.
5:02 “Your pastor will say well done my servant.”
Dream about seeing Jesus. I brought food along to church and was serving it. I had a big pot of something that had sausages in it. I was enjoying giving the students lots of food. In one persons plate I gave a really big sausage and they indicated it was too much so I put the sausage back into the pot. Then I was in a room only with who I thought was Jesus. Then I saw his face and he stuck out his tongue and it reached down a long way past his evil looking face. Then he looked pudgy and not like himself and was smiling an evil smile. I knew this wasn’t Jesus.
Then I was in a scene where I saw the cab part of a semi truck on a trailer and I climbed up into it. It was a bit of a struggle but I managed. I saw the drivers side was on the right and there was white plastic on that side of the windows. Then I looked down and didn’t know how I was going to drive off of the trailer, imagining myself crashing so I got back down.
In another part of my dream I saw my sister in law. She was sitting on the floor, smiling at me and wearing a yellow plaid shirt. I noticed I was also wearing a yellow plaid shirt that looked the same as hers.
There was a scene where I was driving away from an event; I got onto my motorcycle and drove away. I vaguely remember wearing black boots.
6:21 “How long will I have to fight, just for me to stay alive, I know You’re there God please, meet me here tonight.” (Lyrics: When I Fall by Katy Nichole)
7:58 “I will bless thee and keep thee” I had a short dream or picture of a man and woman together. She was looking up into his face and he was gazing into hers, enjoying each others company. Sensing intimacy with Jesus…
This morning I made French Toast for Bella and her two friends, and then also for Lucas and myself. This reminds me of my dream about getting a plate of food after everyone else had eaten; in my dream I saw a row of chairs and seeing someone sitting on one end of it. I also had a handful of cutlery as I brought the food, maple syrup and the other pancake syrup, and plates downstairs for the girls.
I’m reading “Wee Sir Gibbie Of The Highlands” and as I read the name Galbraith (His real name is Sir Gilbert Galbraith) I remembered that I had heard this last name in a dream or a word (two nights ago) right before waking up!! I’m at the part where his real identity is made known. Blessings… 🙏🏻
April 3: 2:16 a white butterfly
5:17 You catch me when I fall
6:27 “Lonely, I need you to hold me… all the strength I got, you catch me when I fall, catch me b me when I fall…”
6:36 “his house” (sensing the Zeilstra house?)
6:42 please help me now…
6:54 “would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven…”
7:04 “close to home”seeing one lid melted onto another and someone cutting them apart
7:16 “Desperation Agree”
7:20 “only one that survives this”
7:24 seeing someone on a motorcycle ready to go
I was working in the kitchen and my friend was my boss. Someone gave her instructions about something and because of that she asked me to bake a pie. I had a ball of butter in my hand, feeling like I was almost done doing what I was doing but I needed to put that down and bake a pie. Then I had baked a pie. I had felt like I needed to eat a slice of pie that I had baked but because of all the calories I only ate a portion of it and had left the crust (I had a long piece of crust in my hand). I’m sensing that I also didn’t eat the main part of the pie. We had been talking about that her daughter was following me on social media. In waking life they’re coming over for lunch this Sunday and I was thinking of baking a pie.