“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11: 28-30
Conversation
Papa, I love You. Thank You for breathing new life in me. You surround me with Your loving presence and my heart is open for You.
Come My daughter, it is time to rest.
Papa I feel like my heart is light. Thank You for Your love. I believe that I am finally able to rest. Thank You Lord for Your faithfulness. Your love truly does endure forever!!
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
May 14: 3:11 A tree (I woke up and had a sense about a tree)
5:20 “Where wind meets fire come on in, come on in”
6:39 In a dream I saw a bouquet of white carnations. This morning I went for a run and I really enjoyed it. I walked a few times to catch my breath but overall I think I did well. In a dream one night a long time ago I saw the face of Jesus and felt His complete love for me. I knew then that I was created by Him, for Him, and to be with Him forever. This morning I baked banana muffins, an awesome new recipe. I’m going to take a quick nap and then find and sketch an apple to paint.
Even though Jesus was on the cross, all that was on Him, yet He refused to take all that as His identity; those things weren’t who He was and He knew that. He endured the cross and despised the shame ( He didn’t accept that as His identity), but sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. So with following Jesus, I also refuse to take shame and rejection as my identity and I’m taking my rightful place with Him. I know who I am in Christ so I’m focusing my eyes on Him, His face, His heart; this is where my identity comes from. ❤️🔥❤️🔥 I’m having my sister over for supper today, and then we’re watching a Jane Austin movie, “Little Women” with my sister and my niece, so much fun! This is my 735th post!! My website began with being a bit more inspirational and now it’s more like journal entries; I’m hoping it’ll become more inspirational again…. Blessings…🙏🏻
May 15: 2:12 “Greek” (salad) In my dream I was at a public place like a museum. I was following my mom up some stairs; we were taking the few steps to the top. There were some little kids sitting on the stairs to our right. My mom was carrying a light beige cloth tote bag and I put two water bottles and some kind of food item in the bag. When I dropped them in the bag it became heavier and I said I would carry it for her (This morning I carried a big water jug upstairs for my sister.) The handles of the bag were clear plastic like the clear straps on a shirt that help to hang it up on a hanger. I vaguely saw one of these straps still hanging down. When I put the waters and food item in the bag the little boy who was sitting on the stairs said he was hungry, and I said something like, “you’re hungry? Probably your mom has food for you.”
3:20 “Back to the table back to my heart, with my arms are wide open I’m running back to you.” (I don’t know if these lyrics are how the song goes, I just heard or had a sense about the lyrics when I woke up)
4:45 “For the first time in ages I know this is true, with my arms wide open I’m running back to you”
Yesterday we watched “Little Women” and I really enjoyed it. I had seen it years ago but I had forgotten a lot of it so it was good to watch again. I would love to watch Pride and Prejudice; I just saw the Trailer and I’ve never seen it before.
I finished my apple painting! I started drawing it today and I finished!🥰 Blessings…
May 16: 4:44
9:42 “I have faith for today, so praise the Lord.”
I had a vague dream of someone standing on a painting of the sun. The painting was big (or she was miniature), and I saw the light coloured sunbeams “shining” or going out from underneath her, seeing the streaks of sunlight.
I sensed the words “Sense and Sensibility”
As I was in prayer this morning I heard in my heart, “I love you, stay.” It reminds me of the lyrics, “as long as you stay…” I have Peace in my heart…
May 17: 2:44 “With my arms wide open I’m running back to you.”
“Peace be still”
I had a short dream where I saw a lady that had a shawl on, a cloth that goes over the shoulders; it was the exact same one that Connie gave me yesterday. It had a big square pattern. The lady was wearing it as she sat on a chair, excited to wear it when someone came and showed her she had one too, and then I showed her I had one too. Then the lady’s excitement was let down. I’m sensing the squares represent religion or putting God in a box? and that I’m climbing out from that way of thinking. Blessings…🙏🏼
May 18: 6:02 In a dream I was on a roof of a house and I saw a door (the door was vague; I saw the key in the doorknob) with a key in the doorknob. Then I was inside the house, hanging onto a ladder that was high in a wall, gathering strength with each pull I pulled myself up. Then I had a knowing that I was in someone’s house. They were there too and I vaguely remember telling him that there was a key in the door knob. Then I was still in his house and his mom was there. In my dream there were some people there and she was going to let them in and give them a meal.
In my dream I was with my sister Connie in a house and I was standing in front of a tv and there was so much power inside of me. I think I was holding a phone. There was something about journeying on a road with horses. Our other two sisters were coming and I was clearing away snow that was on the stairs going downstairs (the floor of the house where we were was upstairs). At first there was just a narrow path and then I cleared it so that the whole width of the stairs were clear (I think) for them to walk up the stairs on. In waking life I was taking a nap and Lucas woke me up at 7:40. I was in a deep sleep, and he said I was breathing so hard, and this was when I was dreaming of standing in front of a tv with all the power inside of me. This afternoon as I was thinking about my walk with God I heard in my heart the word, “Dignity.” I feel so undignified and broken because of my difficult journey, feeling anxious about coming back to church. I know there’s a reason for it; I read somewhere that God brings people through difficulties in order to build them up in Him as preparation for what God wants to do in their lives for Him. Changing the subject a bit, I’m realizing that in my writing I’ve been focusing on the hardships in my life. I’ve not had the energy to think beyond it, but I’m thinking that I’m going to read more and talk more about what I’m learning.
May 19: 12:49 “rich and famous” (I was already awake for a few moments when I heard this in my mind) This is not something I’ve ever striven for.
4:07 “I have met an angle, perfect tonight.”
5:42 “And he walks with me and he talks with me and he tells me I am his own”
6:37 “I’m coming back to you”
I had a dream where it was Spring and plants had started to grow their fruit. I saw buns were growing on plants in the garden. I said to someone who was with me, “can you actually believe that buns grow on plants?” There were peas growing on plants beside them, and they were both nearly ripe, though they were ripe enough to eat.
May 20: I dreamt that someone went into a box like room (I think it was black) and a girl excitedly ran to the door after it was closed to listen underneath the door.
2:25 “So I throw up my hands, and praise you again and again, cause all that I have is a hallelujah, hallelujah”
5:20 Hallelujah
7:05 Jeffery (God, Peace)
May 21: “Lead me, in your love and fill me with your heart and lead me in your love to those around me.”
4:27 memories (Sally Clarkson)
5:37 a vision of walking steadily up the stairs in my house
6:30 “How did that happen so fast.” A vision of walking through the door of a small shop, onto the concrete outside.
Dream of Connie and her friend sitting together on a hill, sharing and eating snacks and then Connie got up and left. I saw some packages of soda crackers and Connie didn’t want any. They were going on a trip and were eating their snacks early because they were excited about it.
Dream where I was walking on a garage floor with socks and there were lots of puddles of oil on the floor and I was sliding with my feet. Jesus was walking behind me and I was enjoying being with him. Then as I was walking around a corner to see if my phone was there (I had been there before, talking with someone. There were shelves there with mechanical parts), I was telling him that I was getting concerned, thinking I lost my phone when I looked back to see him and I was surprised that he was looking at me from behind a door that had a square window in it. Then he said something like he was going to New Bothwell (feeling like that was where he was going to do his work shift). Then as I was walking back I passed a long line of people all wearing white. I saw a woman trust falling to the person behind her; she was at or close to the front of the line. I had a feeling like they had just come back from work.
In another dream I looked up into the night sky and saw the Big Dipper shining so bright. It took up the whole sky and I was in awe. Then I was on something that took me up so high that I was beside the Big Dipper. I was trying to get my phone to take a picture but I didn’t have it on me. Then I thought I couldn’t take a picture anyway because I couldn’t see it because of how high I was. Then all of a sudden I was being brought down so fast and it didn’t scare me. Then I was being brought up again.
A picture of a couple who had just gotten married. I saw their backs and he had his arm around her. He had a black suit on and she had her white wedding dress on. (I saw a photo where a couple just got engaged)
I had a quick dream, seeing a woman wearing black and white on a boat, fishing. She was standing up and doing something.
“The Lord announced the word, and great was the company of those who proclaimed it.” Psalm 68:11
May 22: 1:58 I dreamt that I was helping a toddler by wiping his or her nose. I would wipe his knows and he would make cute sounds and I would pray in tongues in a cute way to make sounds with him. So cute. Then he blew his nose and a lot came out as I held a kleenex to his nose, and then lots of water came out of his mouth like a fountain. Last night I spoke the Lord’s Prayer and declared scripture as I prayed.
2:29 Something I did reminded me about the toddler (I don’t remember what it was that I did in my dream)
3:00 or 3:01 (I don’t remember writing this or what I dreamt or heard)
6:36 “I’m ready for my bride of Christ.” Have a blessed day everyone !!! 💛💛
May 23: 2:56 “Arms wide open, I’m coming back to you.”
5:27 “The hour I first believed”
6:34 I picked up a cup of water
In a dream I saw a full grown rose.
May 24: 6:42 “Coming back to you”
7:43 “When I was an orphan, coming back to you”
May 25: 1:06 A dream that Connie had a knitted dress and I loved it, wishing I had one.
4:00 “When I was an orphan, running back to you.”
4:27 A vision of a white blanket being opened to reveal a grinning toddler.
May 26: 3:05 “Oh oh, Your way’s better, oh oh, Your way’s better”
5:36 “Coulda woulda shoulda”
I dreamt about a few things: From a Birds Eye view I saw one of my sisters sitting in front of a window by a desk. It was her job to help people when they came to the window for information, and I thought I would like to do that. Another part of my dream was that I was on a roof opening a mat. I was going to suntan. Then I saw through a window some already prepared food items on a counter, and a lady told me that my name was on the paper which meant that I was my job to put the rest of the food onto the table. It felt like it was morning and that everyone would come that day to eat. I wondered how the people knew my name to have my name written on the paper (I told the lady that, and then she told me or I had a knowing that she was going to volunteer at another spot). In another part of my dream I was going to leave a house because the season was done, and I saw a window was open a little so I closed it. Last night my window was open a little (at the crises unit), and I closed it like in my dream. I’m hoping this represents closing the window to the stuck part of my life. I went for a walk this afternoon and enjoyed the sunshine in the back yard. I had my Pepsi with my name written on it. In my walk with Christ I’m praying that my eyes will be opened to see. Blessings…🫶🏻
May 27: 11:59 I had a vision of a girl smiling.
4:49 “Running back to you”
7:33 I had a dream that she wasn’t crazy but that he ended up being the crazy one.
7:36 I had a vision of a lady who had a big bun in her hair that looked like a bouquet of roses. I saw the elastic band holding her hair which looked like the stem of the bouquet. I had a feeling about knowing something, like “she knows.” I’m sensing this represents my mom. She puts an elastic in her hair before she puts it in a bun.
7:57 I heard something right before waking up, something like, “He rushed to the doctor and the doctor was…(like this was a suspense) and then I had a feeling like the word was “him.” I dreamt of seeing a woman rush into a hospital room. (Early this morning at about 5:30 I read a story in a book about someone’s son needing to be rushed to the hospital) I spoke with a councillor today.
7:59 “Going to the next step”
8:59 “When I went to the doctor something was revealed.”
9:28 (I think) I saw pancakes in a dream (crepes)
9:47 A dream, seeing lots of water movement in a crevice. I saw that the water was deep, and the movement was like it was being rocked.
I had a conversation today with a councillor and he shared a story with me about something in his life about running in a 800 metre race. The coach asked him where the race ended so he pointed to the finish line, and the coach said yes that’s true. Then he asked where it started, and so he pointed to the starting lines and the coach said where the race starts is in his mind; he needed to believe that he would do well. I’m looking forward and upward, knowing that everything will be alright. Blessings…