“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.” Mark 12:30-31
Conversation
I love You Papa. I worship You with all my heart. You are so Good, and Your purpose for me is so good. Help me to walk in Your purpose for me with better clarity. Help me to always love others wherever I go. Thank You for my family that I love so much… Help me to serve them in the way You’ve called me to do.
My darling, I love you. You are Mine. Come, it’s time to rest.
Papa, I’m sensing the words, well done. Papa, I always want to stay in Your perfect will. I know I’ve gotten things wrong in the past and I’m so thankful for Your grace and mercy. I’m sensing I’m still in Your will, is this true?
Yes My darling. Rest, you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
11:34 A dream of someone trying to figure something out.
3:58 “We were just kids when we fell in love, not knowing what it was, I will not give you up this time.” (Bride of Christ: I went downstairs to pray)
4:21 Yes My darling (I heard while praying in the Spirit)
4:25 “Darling just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own, and in your eyes you’re holding mine. Baby I’m, dancing in the dark…”(Bride of Christ)
4:27 Come, you are Mine
4:33 Rest
4:34 Be anxious for nothing
4:35 I will give you rest on all sides
4:36 Righteousness (sensing as I’m praying)
4:41 I love You Papa
I love you My darling
5:19 “When my heart was locked, inside a box, you reached inside” (“and now I see my future when I look into your eyes, I see it, I see it, I swear I do I see extraordinary magic, in you…”) (Bride of Christ)
5:21 “I know that miracles happen, who cares what they say.” (“This love is nothing short of a miracle happening over and over, every day.”)
5:29 “That’s just one capacity”
I saw a man walking
6:22 “Shopping cart”
“something new”
I had a dream where we were cleaning up in a house. There were two boys that I was telling to put something away. There was a box that one of them put onto the floor because it was too heavy, so the other boy picked it up for him (carrying his own and also the box for the other boy), and they were bringing both things somewhere, cleaning them up. A scene where I saw old wooden stairs leading down. I looked at it, thinking they were worn and dusty, and I asked my mom if she wanted one of the boys to sweep them. Then it was bed time and I saw one of the boys had the door open to go downstairs (feeling like he wanted to pray), looking at me. I didn’t want him to go downstairs because it was bedtime, and then I said he could go for about half an hour to an hour, or one to two hours I’m not sure.
8:37 south grade
8:45 “yes” (a submissive yes, hearing my soft voice)
8:48 “wo” a vision of having gone into the water and serging forward.
9:28 “Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favourite song”
9:46 A dream that I jumped into deep water, fully submerged. “I don’t deserve this, darling you look perfect tonight” (Bride of Christ)
Today I’m going to buy Light Molasses and finish baking the cookies. My kids are home today; school is canceled because of the weather. The meme said, “When someone helps you, and they’re struggling too, that’s not help. That’s love.” (Keanu Reeves) God’s Peace❤️🔥
January 21: 11:44 In this dream my left ear popped open!!! Jesus and my friend were there. She had her head down. I vaguely saw Jesus standing behind her. I pushed like I was blowing my nose and my left ear popped open. When it did I saw the puff of it in the air (the yellow ear wax that had clogged my ear), and I excitedly told her about it. She had her head down, not acknowledging that I was there. In my dream my ear was open and unclogged and I could hear so clearly!!! In my dream I had a thought that I knew there had been ear wax stuck in my ear. In waking life I wonder about that. At the end of my dream I was climbing up something that was close to Jesus’ office, about waist high (Kids Rock check in desk?)He was in his office when I climbed up and I began walking very quickly towards the kids. It felt like we were going on an event and Jesus was coming right away.
In this dream I was standing in a hallway that had several places to buy food. I was standing in front of a bakery that I had often gone to before (it had a different owner than before). I saw someone who worked there (in my dream he felt like the new owner) come out of the doors that I didn’t know. This restaurant only delivered food, it wasn’t a dine in restaurant. Then I saw a restaurant that was selling waffles: I saw lots of waffles on the table, ready to be sold.
2:46 “Come” (I went downstairs to pray)
Sometime in the night I dreamt that I was walking in a big room, seeing a closet or something on my right. It reminds me of the foyer at church.
Dream about seeing a streak in the sky. It reminds me of the test rocket thing that exploded in the sky a few days ago.
4:01 “I’d climb every mountain, swim every ocean. Just to be with you, and fix what I’ve broken. Oh I need you to see, that you are the reason…” In waking life, this morning as I was listening to this song, sensing the lyrics were directly for me from Jesus… and I embraced these words. My heart is accepting Gods love for me, that I really am the reason and that he needs me to know this, deep in my heart. I believe that I really do know this now.
4:07 I went back up
4:44 “13”
Today I’m going to finish baking pumpkin cookies and banana muffins. I’m planning on going to the prayer and fasting event tonight.
Because of the weather I won’t be coming to the city. I picked up Bella and both saxophones (Lucas always braves the weather:)) and drove out of town a little to see how the roads were, and I couldn’t see very far ahead. Today we’re having chicken noodle soup (I will only have broth), and tomorrow I’ll cook cottage cheese pierogies with gravy and sausages. I may end my fast at supper time tomorrow… I went to our church website and Grant Memorial website and I didn’t see that it would be going live so I missed it live, but I went onto Facebook around 9 and saw it was live, so I’m watching it now:) I took the evening (after I was done in the kitchen) to pray, but I’m glad to be able to watch it!!🫶🏼