“We live by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7
Conversation
Papa, I love You.
I love you My darling. Come, for I am yours and you are Mine.
Help me overcome Papa, beginning in my heart.
Come my daughter and rest. I am near.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
March 31:4:58 “You catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall…”
5:51 “Joy, unspeakable joy, it rises in my soul, never lets me go.”
6:05 “how do you feel about the kingdom of heaven”
In this dream I saw a woman’s hair, pure orange with light radiating through it from behind.
I also dreamt that Bella had stayed downstairs at church to sleep; she had a bedroom there. I was going to pray so I decided to pray downstairs so she wouldn’t be alone. I heard in my heart right before waking up, “You should fast and pray” Today I’m starting another fast like a Daniel fast, though I’m not sure for how long.
7:01 “The following apps”
709 dreamt about eating what I made yesterday
7:16 A doctor was going to speak at youth tonight.
7:18 “It’s done”
7:25 “Can we settle?” A man with black framed glasses asked me this in a quick dream.
7:29 A vision (vague) about eating lettuce, also something about miles.
7:50 “fun” I saw a woman wearing all brown.
7:55 I saw a white set of drawers and I had put my blue home group binder in the top drawer.
7:58 A picture of a memory box and hearing, “she liked me” Someone sad or crying and saying this as they were holding it in their hands.
8:01 “if she passes away this evening”
I dream that I was in a garage. In the back of the room there were two small rooms with a very narrow hallway in between, and the door to each room was facing each other. I wondered how I could have carried things in such a narrow hallway. Then I had a knowing that someone bought the house and I was thinking about how they were going to change it. I thought they would probably tear down the walls that separated the two rooms so that it would be one big room instead of two small rooms.
I was in the sanctuary of a church that had the stage right in the middle of the sanctuary, and the chairs were facing the stage all around the sanctuary. I had walked to and stood behind the chairs. Then the scene changed where I had a bed among the chairs and I was sleeping, or had been sleeping and then I was turning around to face the stage.
I had been sleeping in, in the morning, not knowing that our neighbours were waiting for us to bring our kids there. Then we had driven past their place, stopped the car on the road and the kids went to the neighbours house who were still waiting for them. They were going to go somewhere right away.
I had a dream where I was in a new house, looking into some of the rooms that were in it. I was enjoying the newness of it. I looked into one of them and saw big transparent tubes of seeds or grain leading to somewhere. Then I looked into the room from where those tubes came (right beside; it was in a laundry room where I saw the washer and dryer beside each other. Normally the washer and dryer are the main appliances in a laundry room but in this room the tubes were the main thing, and something that had to do with the tubes was kind of on top of the washer and dryer like they had just been installed. I saw the opening of the tubes (two I think about one foot in diameter) where the tubes were filled and they led into the next room. They were open and completely filled with seeds or grain. Everything was neat and orderly.
11:32 During prayer and meditation this morning I had a quick picture, seeing the number 7 on an envelope or something.
How I feel about the Kingdom of heaven is that it’s all about God, to understand Jesus, get to know him, and love him with all my heart, soul, mind and with all my strength. God is able to do more than we can ask or hope for. I think of myself as nothing, and so for God to use me for His Kingdom, I need to keep believing in my heart and to keep hope alive in my heart and Him to give me an understanding about His will for me. I want the Kingdom of heaven to come and Gods will be done on earth as it is in heaven. I want to do what God wants me to do, it’s just so hard. Living by faith is easy to say but hard to do. I’m sensing that my faith is restored and I’m ready to come. Blessings…❤️🔥
April 1: 3:00 “You catch me when I fall, you catch me when I fall.
4:26 a picture of seeing someone looking at all their photos on the wall. I noticed that the bottom ones were missing, thinking that among the ones that were missing was a photo of me or my family.
4:31 “stupid”
4:58 dream of getting cataract surgery for the second time, same eye. I was trying to focus on the dot. At first I couldn’t and then I could.
6:18 catch me when I fall
I dreamt that Jesus spoke a sermon. I was laying in bed right at the front with my kids dad. Right at the last part Jesus said something and pointed right at the spot I was sitting, looking directly at me and stared at me for about 20 seconds. I at first kept his gaze but then I closed my eyes. He kept staring at me, giving me an opportunity but I kept my eyes shut. Then the sermon was done and he left the stage. Then I was on the stage, taking the chair to put away. I stood at the edge of the stage almost falling off. Then there was a wedding dinner that I wasn’t invited to. I saw my mom in line to get her food. I at first wanted to talk with her but then I went to stand in line by myself. I saw that she was sitting with three of her friends. I walked among the tables and saw a row of seats without a table and also a table where a woman and another person sat, and thought I could maybe join them. Then I went into the kitchen and saw they were cleaning up. I asked if I could still get my plate and they quickly began giving me my plate. Then when I got to the cutlery I ended up getting a handful, and counted the knives, four, soon they took back some of the cutlery.
Then I was laying in bed sleeping. I saw someone sitting close by, guarding I think. then I got up quickly to leave the room. Right after I got up I saw a man turn and put his arm where I had been, like he was putting his arm around the person there, except I wasn’t there anymore.
Then in this scene I was putting away a bottle of beer or something into a small fridge, and I noticed it didn’t shine a light to indicate that it was there, so then I ran upstairs and yelled for my family to run. The bottle of beer was going to be after us to shoot at us and kill us. I tried to find my purse in the mess in my bed but couldn’t find it and had to run.
Then in this scene there was deep water that Bella wanted to swim in and I was alarmed because I saw the danger. Then Lucas wanted to swim in it and I thought that maybe it would be okay if he had something like a bungie tied to him, so he could jump in the water. Then the scene changed where there was a van in the water and they were both in it. I went into the van too and found that I could breathe.
7:50 “Certain” I was spelling it
8:24 a picture of a hand in a big bowl of m&m’s, grabbing a handful.
8:40 “Majestic” I was in a jet, looking down onto a large brown city.
8:46 Galbraith (Anne of Green Gables? Gilbert?)
8:52 “if this is God’s gift to us…”
8:57 “I know this is a really cool concept “ in my dream or vision I was organizing a kids game called “telephone” and saw the kids sitting on the floor, getting ready to play the game.
9:12 dreamt something about being together
9:14 50% off all returns
9:38 “Cancelled “ Then sings my soul, my Saviour God to thee. How great thou art, how great thou art. Then sings my soul, my Saviour God to thee, how great thou art, how great thou art.Then Christ shall come, in humble adoration, and take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.”