“For we are members of his body, of his flesh and of his bones.” Ephesians 5:30
Conversation
Papa, I love You. Thank You for who You are, for loving me and pursuing me relentlessly. Thank You for Your grace that covers my life. Thank You for leading me. It’s my joy to worship You through all the difficulty I’ve faced. It doesn’t matter what people think or say, I will always follow You. I trust You with my life and with my whole heart. Forgive me when I’ve looked at the waves instead of Your face. I understand how Peter must have felt. I want You and I need You. I am the head and not the tail. You are raising me up to walk in the purpose You’ve created for me, and in Jesus name You and I will not be stopped!! I can feel a fire burning in my heart for You and to surge forward. You have ordained me to speak Your Word and even though I’m a babe at that, You will equip me because I know You equip the called; I’ve been called and I will go; I will make it. Open my eyes to see You clearly; I’m ready.
Then come My darling. I am near to you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious. What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through songs and intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today.
May 28: 3:09 “I want to say…”
5:37 “Come alive, come alive”
These last few weeks have been very difficult and I’m hoping I’ve come through the most difficult part of it. Now that I’m at my moms I have hope again, though it hurts so much not to be with my family… I don’t have a vehicle to drive so I can’t go anywhere. It hurts so much that I can’t be with Bella during her dentist appointment today (filling), and it hurts so much that I can’t see Lucas on his birthday or watch him during his Dragonboat race. It hurts so much that I can’t tuck Bella in for night. I never thought I’d be where I am right now. I know that because Jesus is in my heart, I’m home. I know in my heart about believing the best in people and it took a little while but I do now. I’m trying to erase my sad memories. I know there was a purpose for them. I know that I need to be joyful when I get persecuted for the cause of Christ, and in my heart I’m so glad that God has given me so many circumstances where I have been persecuted because of following Him. It is really an honour for me, I just need to get passed my emotions. I will never let go of Him despite any persecution that may come. I’m surging forward. It was really difficult telling my kids, and I have moments throughout the day where I’m in tears because I can’t see them everyday. I called Manitoba Housing this afternoon and I may need to find a part time job. I need to fill out an application online. I won’t go back to teaching. I want to say that I love You God, I do believe and I will follow You for the rest of my life. Much love and blessings….🧡🧡