“~for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9 NLT
Conversation
Papa, Jesus, Holy Spirit, I love You so much. Thank-You for Your work in my heart. I know that I’ve been through Your refining fire, and I’m sensing this is done or nearly done. I’m sensing a calm in my heart when I think of adversity, at least this is what I hope to have.
My daughter come, you are Mine.
I worship You Papa. You are the King of my heart. Help me to do everything You ask of me.
I love you My daughter. Rest, I am with you.
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs or intimacy with Him in dreams, because as part of the bride of Christ, Jesus is my husband. My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
4:32 “Joy, unspeakable joy, an overflowing well, no tongue can tell. Joy, unspeakable joy, rises in my soul, never lets me go…”
5:37 “outside the snow is falling and friends are calling yoohoo. Let’s snuggle close together like two birds of a feather would be.”
6:00/6:01 I dreamt that I was sitting at the back of the youth room while the service was going on. I saw the rows and backs of all the youth as they were listening: I saw the shadow of two people leaning into each other. Then I saw the youth pastor look into the crowd from one side to the other like he was looking for someone, and saying, “someone is missing.” Then in my dream I realized that it was me. Then there was a scene where I was outside on the parking lot and I saw a police car that was parked with no one in it, and I was slowly passing it. I’m sensing that God is inviting me to go to youth today, that he is leading me there. The empty police car I believe represents that the “police” role is done and that I won’t get into trouble for going.
6:21 “…hear, sleigh-bells in the snow. I’m dreaming of a white Christmas…”
6:35 While in prayer I had a vision of seeing inside a box that had food items in it. Then I saw a hand going into the box, searching for utensils.
6:51 “long lasting”
6:53 “People are genous “ (genuine with a ous at the end)
6:57 “I’m never gonna, never gonna let you go…”
I dreamt that I was at church, standing in a hallway, and then I noticed my pastor standing slightly behind me, motioning to the person beside him with a thumbs up about me, kind of pointing to me and smiling like I had done something amazing. I vaguely sensed to ask him a question when I first saw him, but this is vague and I’m not sure.
Then I was in church, in the morning and I looked down to a little girl who had gotten my attention. She said hi, like she was back after having gone through a break. I said hi and was amazed she remembered me. Then I told her that I wasn’t part of that program anymore. The program for the very young kids (Wednesday?). She was disappointed. I told her that the program was only meant to be for three years. I had a feeling like she had also been there for three years, and then she needed to move up to the next grade level. In this dream there was going to be a youth program happening in the evening that I think I was going to go to. Then the scene changed where Jesus was with the very young group of kids, doing activities with them. They were at a place where I had put out meat over an open fire. I was moving out of my house so I had taken out all the meat I had in the freezer. I saw a few, maybe three different types of meat; a few big pieces and some whole pigs. I saw them all laying over the hot coals and fire. I saw one of the baby pigs’ eyes blink a few times, and then they shut because of being cooked. I felt bad for them a little as I flipped it over so that its front side was on the fire. I at first thought that maybe I wasn’t supposed to have put out all the meat, but Jesus didn’t say anything.
8:06 I dreamt that I saw someone climb to the very highest of a mountain.
I put my cilantro in water, feeling like they last longer than if I’d put it in the fridge. The other plant is a Violet plant. I just needed to put it into a pot and it’s growing very nicely:) My Bible verse for today was John 4:43 and 4:44. Blessings…🙏🏻
I know that God always has a plan, and I know that I’ll eventually get there. I love you all… Blessings…🫰🏼
December 21: 2:08 Intimacy with Jesus… This dream was very clear; I saw it the instant I fell asleep and I woke up with a start.
2:13 I vaguely saw I had a bow and arrow. There were other people there and I vaguely saw they also had a bow and arrow in their hands.
5:37 “Home for the holidays.”
5:52 “I’m dreaming of a white Christmas…”
5:54 “Happy Holidays…”
6:16 “Happy Holidays…”
I’m baking a chocolate cake for the gathering today. I’m sensing that I actually made it….❤️🔥🎄🦋
December 22: 10:06 “Too far”
11:31 “Chestnuts roasting on an open fire”
4:13 Happy holidays to you…”
4:21 “…He lay, but little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay.”
4:33 Happy holidays, to you”
I think I had a dream about a water bottle with a cap on (sometime in the night)
5:38 “I hate going out in the storm, but if you really hold me tight, all the way home I’ll be warm.”
6:19 Let it snow let it snow let it snow.”
In my dream I was at church in the foyer (it looked different in my dream). As people were waiting to go in a group of friends were hearing songs and were worshiping, so I also raised my hands a little. As I was waiting I could see people in the sanctuary, and was a bit surprised that they all left, so when I walked in, it was basically empty. I saw that behind where the pastor preached there were pews where people also sat. Beside the isle where the pastor walked as he was preaching, there was a long box where people went into as there seat but they were playing in it like they were kids. It was in the front on the right side. I also saw two excited people sitting down on two seats on the right side facing the main congregation.
There was a scene where I sat down on a toilet outside of the church building. I was self conscious, and there was something about the colour light blue (today). It was summer and I couldn’t because I was in the public. There was a white fence beside the white toilet, and there could have been a small dog I’m not sure. There was a live green synthetic bird close to me by the fence. So then I got up and wanted to go to the bathroom inside an actual bathroom, I saw that in each bathroom it was clogged and full of poop, so I couldn’t go. The toilets I saw were like big round bins.
There was a scene where I was outside in a big wooden box. There was someone else in the box too in front of me who was bending down so I didn’t notice this person as the box started moving. The box was remote controlled and was moving up high and taking us for a ride. I was having a lot of fun. I noticed the cameras and was smiling as the box passed them. I vaguely remember turning around but I’m not sure. Then it was like I was on round two and the box went even higher than before. This time I was surprised and a bit overwhelmed, holding my breath and hanging onto the sides of the box as we went higher than the roof. I saw a tech person sitting at his desk on the roof, doing something technical.
7:02 “It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas, everywhere we go…”
7:04 I saw a red plaid jacket.
8:25 I heard something about taking a little break.
I also dreamt that Bella and I went to buy shoes and when we got home I saw they were slippers. I was a bit upset, thinking how will she walk with slippers? They were open toe.
Okay…