“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
Today I asked the Lord how He sees time in my life, and I sensed the word, “sacred.” I’m going to be more intentional with spending time with God and what I read, all to do with learning how to grow in intimacy with Him. I wish I could watch movies but that’s okay, I need to be wise with my time. Going strawberry picking tomorrow morning with my sister Cathy. Life here is going well, though it gets a bit lonesome. I did a workout up in the loft of the barn this afternoon. I have a mat up there now so it makes things a lot easier. I did 3 rounds of 10 sit-ups, push-ups and wall balls. I’m hoping I can start doing this everyday. There’s a bench that I look forward to using regularly. There are kittens up there and some on ground level. It looks like it’s going to rain again tonight. Missing my kids deeper than I ever thought possible. I wrote the paragraph below, yesterday. I’m going to begin walking the land and declaring scripture; I’m so thankful for mentors. I’m learning how to create my own decrees but will be decreeing a lot from Patricia King’s book, “The Power of the Decree.” There’s a deer in the garden, so beautiful!
My windows are open and I can hear the rustling of the poplar trees by my window. I hear the rumbling of thunder and the beginnings of raindrops on the roof. The lightening brightens up the night sky with every second. I love hearing the rain on the roof and the deep thunder. It reminds me of how great and powerful God is. In a clear night sky I can see the stars shining so brightly and the firefly’s flying around. When I was growing up in my hometown I remember the firefly’s; we’d catch them and put them into jars, so fun. Today I planted two tomato plants (that were in pots) into the garden. I also planted some onion’s, hoping they’ll grow roots in the ground. I pre-soaked them (the root part) in water for about a week so I’m hoping they’ll grow. Tonight there was a beautiful full moon before the rain came and I quickly took a photo of it with the wheat field. I love being in the country. I’m reminded about God’s love and I’m so thankful. Right now there’s an electrical storm outside and I’m so in awe of God. Anyway, I’m sensing to let go and let God, so this is what I will do. In my waiting I’m going to pursue God with learning how to decree and ascend and pray from heaven because in my spirit I’m with Him in heaven. Blessings…🫶🏻
July 5:12:19
3:29 Hamburger meat and pirogies.
Dream that reminds me that God loves me.
A dream, seeing many airplanes coming straight down as we were going up and then we also came straight down, and I wasn’t afraid.
July 6: 12:50 “a thousand years”
4:54 “a thousand years”
7:01 A vision of Helena running past excitedly with a brown flowery blouse on (with anticipation).
7:07 “Do you want to come and watch?” Two teenagers ran up to me and asked if I wanted to come and watch something.
7:14 “that’s good” wearing blue and orange
7:20? “Good for you” seeing a rusty round door knob, opening a door to walk through
7:53 “Quanta confirmed that” Connie’s company had hired me and I was there early, before noon. She was going to get lunch ready. I had begun to walk around in the building and saw a white stairway in the back of the room and then I thought maybe Connie should show me around since she was my sister.
I was outside and it had just begun to rain. A little girl was outside, wet and dirty. She was carrying a cat who was also wet and dirty. Then a woman came running and began taking care of her. I began running to the front of the building where I had parked; I wanted to see something about my licence plate.
A scene where I saw two trucks parked on a parking lot that belonged to two guys. The way the trucks were parked showed they were rebellious. Earlier on I was inside and they had sat down on chairs on opposite sides of the room. I showed them my ring and said that I’m unavailable because I was married.
July 7: 1:56 “I have decided, to follow Jesus.”
6:30 “I’ll take you at your word. If You said it I believe it.”
I had a dream where I said yes about Jesus. I also had my mouth open in another dream, eating what I was walking into.
12:51 “It’s your love in my heart, running over. Every day of my life, I’ll draw closer.”
I dreamt that Lucas, Bella and myself went to a town and we said we’d go and do something fun, feeling like it would take a few hours. Then the next scene was that I had chosen to go on something like a train ride and had been away for a night. Then I missed them and wanted to be with them. So the next scene was that I had gone into the ride back and was going to be back within a few hours. I was on the phone with Lucas and there was the thinking about seeing where I was. Then I thought he could see on his phone where I was and that I was almost there.
I was in a house that was being built. It was all white and there was a slide going around and kind of going down. It was like things had plaster on them and they were being shaped (sanded).
July 8: 6:10 “order my friend”
6:38 “we can get together” (Lyrics)
I dreamt that I had been on a path that didn’t feel safe and I wasn’t sure if I should be on it. Then at the end of the path there was a group of people who were having a good time being together; everyone was very friendly to me and I was so relieved because it was finally fine that I could be there. It felt like the time of me not being allowed was over.
I saw there was nothing on the hallway walls of Lucas’ school. Everything had been taken down because the school year was done. I saw Lucas vaguely walking, knowing he was done grade 11 and was going into his last grade, grade 12.
Another dream where I was on my knees on a floor, begging the person with my arms outstretched, to come away from the edge and come where I was where it was safe. I saw the person walk along the edge of the floor and she fell into a chair that had caught her. I saw she was smiling and was happy.
Yesterday I dreamt that Jesus and I were in the same dream; Lucas said we were in the same dream; at first I said no, then yes, a little. I also dreamt that I had my mouth open as I walked into something that surrounded me as I walked into it; I opened my mouth to eat what I was walking into. I saw it was going over me like a wave but it was solid, yet I was able to walk into it as it absorbed me into it (my scroll?) A dream where everything was white inside a house that was being built. I saw there was a slide going around and down that I was on. The inside looked like it was all white plaster that was being sanded to be shaped. Another dream of missing my kids so deeply and wanting to be with them.
July 9: I dreamt there was a row of doors; Lucas and his friends were all standing in front of their door (facing their door), all in a line, and they all walked through their door simultaneously. Then I was on the other side and saw there was no floor so they all had to grab onto the walls or whatever they could grab onto so they wouldn’t fall. I saw one of them walk on a small ledge along the wall that was close to the door.
Another dream where I saw my niece walking, looking at me. She looked deformed like the enemy was trying to disguise himself, that it wasn’t really her. Then I saw a hand that was lifeless, and there was a pen placed in the hand that was being held there. I sensed right away that this dream was from the enemy. (Maybe this is referring to me not writing)
11:16 “Jesus is waiting for, with open arms” For God so loved the world that He gave us His one and only Son to save us.
I had a dream where someone was standing in front of me and said, “September.” I had a knowing he meant the beginning of September. In my dream it was a date for an event but I didn’t know what kind of event it was going to be. In my dream it felt like there was an importance about it.
July 10: I dreamt that a group of us were hanging on a really big tree; we were all connected with one rope. The rope was intertwined between our fingers and it was a bit too tight for one person. I swung a bit too far and my group was concerned and wanting me to come back to them.
Another quick dream where I saw someone lift up something like a phone that was full of wires underneath.
July 11:12:02 vague dream of someone playing a card game. Today at the mall I bought the game, Pit, for $10. I’ve never played it so it’ll be fun!
3:22 Someone was looking at me and shaking their head.
4:21 “counting my blessings, all that He’s done in my life.” (Lyrics)
I dreamt that I was going to mow the lawn with someone and that I was going to mow the edges and he would mow the main grass areas. I asked what the address was and he said he didn’t know yet. I had a feeling like we’d know in the morning. This morning my sister Cathy and I went strawberry picking and had a lot of fun, but yesterday evening we weren’t sure about the address so I think this represents that.
Im sensing I need to freely share my dreams. I’m still not sure what they all mean and which ones are from the Lord. But I feel a lot lighter, sensing to write. This week Im going to be intentional with reading my e-books and learn from them. I’m such a babe with knowing spiritual things like when someone says that heaven is open for us to take resources from heaven; practically what does this look like because I always ask for wisdom and resilience etc. But I’m going to learn about my scroll. Practically I need to hear from the Lord in order to do the activations, and I’ve been told so many times that what I’m hearing isn’t from God. I need a breakthrough, clarity, knowing if what I’m hearing is from the Lord. Because if I don’t hear from God, how can I do them? I’ve just sensed His silence for so long that I’m a bit nervous when I think about needing to hear from Him in order to know what my scroll says and also for my walk with Him. I believe I’m done sowing seeds and now I’m in the season of reaping the harvest. There has been such a high cost with sowing seeds. How do I reap the harvest? I’m fighting to keep my eyelids open. Goodnight and blessings…🙏🏼
July 12: 2:38 I was awake for a few moments and then I saw a quick picture of someone sitting on his heels here on the land. He had a cap on his head.
4:40 “You’re perfectly loved no matter what…” (lyrics)
7:02 … grow, in the valley (lyrics)
These strawberries are so good! I think I ate almost half of the pail already! I’m going to read and work in the garden today.
July 13: 3:12 “Living in freedom, I’m alive and well”
I had a dream where I was in a city and I shot up into the night sky and deep into space to get away from some kind of conflict. I saw many lights, stars, that represented people. Then the woman who I was having a conflict with, in the end we overcame it and became friends.
3:55 “Umbrella that covers the entire”
4:09 a picture of a green onion that had grown a bulb
4:29 a dream, seeing a fork that had pierced a strawberry.
4:43 a vision of a red ball on the ground
7:37 “Let me tell you about my Jesus!”
9:16 “Citizens of Social Media”
I was at someones house and we had played a game and she was counting how many points we each had. Then she had counted them and to show that she won she put a green light into a small round hole. I didn’t understand why I got less points and she said that according to the game, I won, but according to the way it was played in Newfoundland, she won.
I was at someone’s house which was a mansion. I was at the top of a white stairway and someone was at the bottom of the stairs and was looking up and said hi as he was drying his hair with a towel; he had just taken a shower. Then as I was talking with this person he came up the stairs and I did something like a turn around when he walked passed me. Then I saw Bella was there and had been staying there. I was talking with her when the door was closing behind me and I saw someone standing there waiting.
I may read on the beach today. I’m trusting in God’s timing for my life… Yesterday I was really digesting or eating what I was reading about being a king and a priest. Knowing this is helping me know who I am as a daughter of God. I’m planning on making strawberry cupcakes with my fresh strawberries. Hoping you’ll have a wonderful day today with whatever you’re doing… 🙏🏼
July 14: 4:54 “I’ve been thinken about family…” (Lyrics)
5:31 “Time”
A dream where I was in a place with my kids. It was like a water slide room that was warm. I couldn’t see very well so everything was white and blurry. I called “Jesus” to Bella because it was time to go, then I thought I should use her real name. Then I was standing on a high area and I just about fell because I couldn’t see very well, and I told the person who was working there that it was because of my eyesight. Then the person working there said something like it was time for us to go because he was going to use the waterslide. Then I was in a room that was part of the whole theme experience and saw Lucas laying on the bed, being comforted by the warmth. I touched it and could feel that it was very warm and I began leaving the room because it was time to go. Today is a cold and rainy day so I needed to put on the heater for a few minutes; I did feel the warmth and it was so nice. In order to run with God, leaving my own will to obey God’s will, I’m sensing I need to do what He says. I need to stop trying to save myself because in order to save myself I need to lose it, for Christ. I love God and I’m walking in love with Him. I watched a Christian movie last night called, Finding Normal.
July 15: 12:55 “I belong to you! This love is a band of gold!”
1:16 “…but they can’t take away can’t take away what’s true… I belong, I still belong, I belong to you! This love is a band of gold!”
7:12 “It’s a beautiful day”
I dreamt someone released a bunch of short black snakes.
A dream of painting an oval shape on a paper for a face, blue, blending in a line (it was water colour and I was erasing the line by blending it). In waking life I keep watching people sketch faces; I’ve been wanting to sketch a face for the longest time.
A scene where I was with some kids (Lucas’ friends). He wasn’t feeling well and I was encouraging him to hang out with a friend who I knew was a nice guy. I didn’t remember the name of his friend so I asked what his name was. There was something like a stack of brown boxes, each belonging to one of the kids. A scene where a group of people (adults I think) were getting ready in the gym like they were rehearsing for a play. The door was open a bit and I looked in and quietly began closing the door because I didn’t want to interrupt. I went to Good Earth and I bought a medium Heavenly Sea Salt Caramel Latte, so good…Blessings…
July 16: 1:53 A vision of a woman, wearing an orange dress, coming down from being in the back of a pick up truck. There were two men that were walking or standing on the ground. I also had a dream where I was in a house that just had girls or women in it. I saw a toilet with a black comfy seat and it looked inviting to sit on, but looking closer I saw the black round seat was on a brown wicker basket.
July 17: 11:52 A dream of passing heavy machinery on the hwy.
1:24 a vision of a vehicle window opening and seeing someone looking at me.
1:51 “I belong, I belong to you”
2:32 “I hope you know, this love is a, band of gold.”
4:04 “I belong to you”
4:27 In a dream I was at the end of something.
4:49 “I belong to you”
7:11 “Let it go, let it go, can’t hold it back anymore”
Last night I was awakened by mosquitos and couldn’t sleep for hours. I don’t know where they were coming in. I ate one of my strawberry cupcakes. We may go strawberry picking again. I have some left; I may make pavlova today. I’ve never made it before. Last night I washed my dishes (I had planned to write but the mosquitos were coming in because of the light) I always need to heat up the water on the elements to wash my dishes. Connie’s at my mom’s place today; I may go and visit. Missing my family so very much…
July 18: 1:13 “Dear Carolyn”
6:24 “David Wilson” (I don’t know anyone by that name)
Dream about combing lice out of a celebrity’s hair. Then it turned into food having lice. The celebrity was going to take a bite from the food with lice and I quickly stopped him from taking a bite. Then I saw cute little pink spoons and silver spoons with long handles and I was taking some pink ones.
6:41 “I believe, there will be breakthrough “
I had a dream where I saw a young girl standing in the water beside a small boat (canoe) and she fell into it. At first I wondered if she fell into the water and then I saw she fell into the boat and was protected by her mom who had her arms over both her kids, one underneath each arm. I thought oh good, she’s safe, now sail away, but the next moment I saw she had gotten out and was in a battle. My heart was in an intense battle today, but after reading, decreeing God’s favour, reading in Galatian’s and listening to encouraging podcasts, my heart is encouraged. I had a wonderful time with my sisters today. Goodnight, God’s blessings to you…🙏🏼
July 19: 12:56? Ice is melting? (Vague)
2:56
3:39 “This love is a band of gold”
5:30 “Can’t take away can’t take away what’s true.. I belong to you..”
July 20: 5:51 I dreamt that a jet balanced itself as it was quickly flying up into the sky.
In a dream I had been given something yellow.
July 21: 1:32 “strong” (I heard in my heart the last word of the song, Strong, by Anne Wilson. The lyrics to this song I feel has been my life)
1:39 I felt and heard God’s breath on my arm close to my face. I was asleep but it woke me up.
2:30 Right before waking up I sensed someone shake their head.
4:05 “This love is a band of gold”
6:24 “Fanta (something like that) Soap Tragedy” A dream where I was showing someone how to clean underneath an arm of a chair. The armrest was covered by a cloth, coming down about ten inches, and underneath the cloth was full of stuff that needed to be wiped out (I looked underneath and saw the stuff had reached to the edge of the cloth -like it had grown like a plant). I had cleaned the other side and I needed to show this person how to do it (wipe it away using a cloth). I was helping her to cover herself with a towel so that she wouldn’t get that stuff on her; The towel was covering her legs but I saw part of one of her legs so I brought the end of the towel over that part and covered it.
9:16 “Carolyn, say that you and yours truly”
This morning it poured rain and I loved hearing the rain splashing on the roof. The clouds are clearing and the sun is shining again, so beautiful. It was really windy last night and now there’s a calm in the trees around me. As I was washing my morning dishes I had such a strong sense that God loves being here with me, and love and peace filled my heart. All of a sudden I didn’t feel so lonely because I have the God of all creation right here with me. I love being here with my kids and I had a strong sense that God feels the same about me. I’m reminded that God is looking forward to enjoying making many good memories with me as I walk in my purpose with Him…
When I was with my mom and sister we went for a walk by the park and I picked up a book from one of those little library stands (love those) by Beth Moore, Praying God’s Word. I’m looking forward to reading from it. I have such a hard time finishing books. I cleaned inside and the top of my mom’s cupboards on Saturday, and she gave me a mug that says, Warm and Cozy. I love mugs and this is my favourite because of what it represents to me. All my mugs have a special meaning.
Gratitude is playing right now and I’m so thankful for God’s closeness. Seeing my kids, my family yesterday at church was overwhelming for me. But this morning I have a fresh realization and knowing deep in my heart that God is with me, that Love Himself is with me and inside me. I have an inner joy and peace in my heart, and I’m not giving up… ♥️
July 22: 1:03 I dreamt that I was carrying a little boy and he was carrying a box of cookies that had either red or green on it. Then a man began shooting at us. I had surrendered already but he shot us anyway, and I got a bullet in my neck and I slunk down onto the floor.
1:27 “the bridge between”
1:41 “…and that’s cake”
5:26 I was holding material in front of me, wishing to have a dress made from it. It had one big pocket in the middle like an apron.
A dream where I had gone into the drivers side of a truck, standing on the ground (the door was open). Then the man and woman exchanged spots. Then I thought I’d go and sit in the middle so I’d be sitting beside the person who I wanted to talk with and then the dream ended.
In this dream a man and woman were asking me to forgive them. She showed me what happened and I could see that it was all innocent. After I forgave them (they were so happy that I understood and forgave them), I told him that I could see that he was a man of integrity, and he was overjoyed that I knew that. He was standing beside me as she showed me what had happened. In my dream he was the kind of person who I could trust. He was smiling and had his glasses on.
A dream where there was a toddler and there was a lady talking lovingly to him in his ear. Then a man came to say something to the child, and when he wanted to whisper something into the child’s other ear he heard the woman’s voice and he walked away very angry. I saw the boy’s neck up close as the lady was talking to him.
Today’s a rainy day, thinking to bake bread or cookies. I made 2dozen Soft Cocoa Cookies today and used the apron my mom gave me. This evening I watched the first session of The Gifts. I weeded again today but because I have the time, I’m planning on taking in as many courses (and reading) as possible. Blessings…🙏🏼
July 23: 3:36 “And I know it’s not much, but I’ve nothing else fit for a King, except for a heart singing hallelujah, hallelujah”
6:55 “This love is a band of gold”
7:09 “I put my fingers on your cross”
7:33 “I belong to you”
I’m reading Pioneer and I’m in chapter 4. It’s so good to read about learning to hear God’s voice. I’ve been in “the cave” with God for a long time but I’m glad for God’s refining.