Matthew 4:20,22
“At once they left their nets and followed him. …and immediately they left their boat and their father and followed him.”
Conversation
My Papa, I love You. I worship You. I adore You with all my heart. I praise Your Holy name. Draw me nearer to Your heart Papa. My heart belongs to You.
My dear one, you are Mine and I love you. Rest, for I am near. Caroline My dear one…
Papa, help me hear You more clearly; I’m resting, leaning into You. Papa, I’m sensing the words, “come out.” Is this right Daddy?
Yes My darling.
I worship You Papa. You are all I need. Please come and fill me with Your Presence.
You heard right My dear one. Come, follow Me -the time is right.
Papa, its my honour to follow You. Thank-You for making my heart ready for this moment so that I can leave the nets that would want to hold me captive, and instead follow You as You teach me how to be a fisher of men. I am Your disciple and there’s no where else I’d rather be than to follow You as closely as I can.
My faithful one come -all is well with you; you are Mine.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Last night at 5:28 I woke up with lyrics from the song A Sky Full of Stars from Sing 2 in my heart (I never know how to say it.. do I say in my mind or in my heart? playing, singing?). The lyrics that I remember exactly were, “…I think I saw you…” The lyrics to the song: “Cause you’re a sky, cause you’re a sky full of stars. I’m gonna give you my heart. Cause you’re a sky, cause you’re a sky full of stars. Cause you light up the path. I don’t care, go on and tear me apart. I don’t care if you do. Cause in the sky, cause in the sky full of stars, I think I saw you. I don’t care, don’t want to tear me apart. I don’t care if you do, ohhh, cause in the sky cause in the sky full of stars, I think I saw you!!!” I don’t remember what the character’s name is, but I’ll call him King Kong.. he sings this song while doing a battle dance (like at camp this last spring); he was defeated but then finds courage to get back up again by the beating of the drums and his friends and audience, and he overcomes his fear and wins the battle; wins and overcomes the lie that told him he’s nothing and begins to believe in himself. What this means to me internally is that I’ve also begun to believe in myself, in my worth, and I think because of that I see Jesus to be much more approachable, not distant or intimidating. I see him, his heart, and my heart warms at the thought of embracing him and where he’s leading me.. I’m comfortable with Jesus; he feels very much like family and that I belong to him and him to me. Yesterday I felt a transition where I’ve begun to know the underlining words of what Jesus is saying to me when I hear/read his words to the general public; the Holy Spirit is quickening my heart to know more quickly. Today after having made my decision about one thing or the other, almost immediately afterward I saw the orange and what it means to me.. But having the mindset of thinking that I’ve failed if I don’t choose correctly, is really stressful, so I just need to trust God that this way of walking with Jesus is nearly complete.
I woke up at 6:55 and had a sense of the words, “Respect myself three times,” and “A little left to go.” I don’t know what God is referring to.
In this dream I was on a small platform that was hanging from a tree like a swing. There was someone with me on the platform. It was wooden but the wooden part was doubled to make it more square; I didn’t see if clearly but I sensed it was just big enough for the two of us to stand on (skateboard? the wooden skateboard that I saw someone skateboard on/ the one I skateboarded back into the gym/storage?). In my dream we were in the woods and there was a lot of water underneath us. At first I saw we were high above it because I was looking down and saw it. Then I was on my knees and I purposefully dropped a small torn piece of white paper the size of a guitar pick, down into the water. I felt like at first I couldn’t let go of it. I felt like the enemy didn’t want me to let go of it and didn’t like it that I did, so this action was big. I don’t know what the paper represents, but then I noticed that the water was closer to us. I saw something sticking out of it; something that was laying on the ground was sticking out of the water and then I knew the water wasn’t very deep. The water was muddy so I couldn’t see through it to see how deep it was. Then I climbed off of the platform and stood in the water. Then I turned around and saw that the person who was with me had climbed off the platform exactly at the same time I did, and I didn’t know that he was going to come off then, so it was a good surprise. When I turned around I was facing him, and I saw that he walking towards me.
Then I saw three deep green house plants on a counter in my house. The one that was directly in front of me is the one I noticed the most. It was a plant that looked like daisies except all the flowers were all a deep green and they were small, and there were many many small flowers in the pot. I saw the rich soil, and the pot was low and long like a casserole dish. The soil in this flower pot came up a lot higher on the end of one side, almost like a wave, and on that side the plant also came up higher and was more full. The three (there could have been more I’m not sure, but there were for sure three) plants were all only green, and the green couldn’t have been more rich and deep and healthy. It felt like we had eaten from them like a garnish or seasoning on our dish. I vaguely saw that there was someone with me and that we had eaten from these plants together.
Last week I think it was, I was driving on the church parking lot, and because I had driven there so many times, I had a good speed as I was talking with my kids, not noticing that the gate was closed. So my son urgently told me to look and to stop, so I looked and had to slam on the brakes so I wouldn’t crash into the gates! So we went through the other gates that were open:) Then the next week I drove more cautiously and made a sharp left turn to go through the other gate, reminding me about a dream I had had about having to slam on the brakes and needing to make a left turn. I just quickly wanted to mention that I had talked about a harvest a few weeks ago; I meant a revival:) That’s it for now… going to the box tomorrow for 6:00!! I don’t have time to check for punctuation.. Many blessings -have a good night!!!