Proverbs 4:13
“Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.”
Conversation
Daddy, I need you so deeply.
My daughter come, you are Mine. I love you. Caroline, I have a word for you today.
Okay Daddy, I’m so thankful for it and my heart yearns to hear it.
Abide in Me and I will abide in you.
Thank-you Jesus, I will do my best.
I love you amy daughter -all is well with you.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal. The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him.
Last night I dreamt that I was on a school playground and a girl (about 8 years old) I knew came running up to me, really excited that she had made two new friends. The feeling I had about these two friends were that they were people who were stronger than her and would protect her and stand up for her. The feeling I had about them was that they were guys. She was really excited to be with them and eagerly began running towards them. As she was turning to begin running to them, I called out to her that she’s one of the cool kids now! I’m sorry to say that I’m not sure what the Lord means by this, though it could mean that I can meet two new friends or that I’m reaching a deeper level in some friendships that I have already.
This next dream is so neat! I was in our three story house, and I had a feeling like our purchasing and moving in was fresh. I looked up to the white ceiling and saw where the ceiling and wall meet, and I saw that it had begun to roll inward like someone was rolling up a scroll or a role of cloth. The rolling began on the third floor because it was the top; it was the the highest floor. There was a woman on the third floor (who I think represents me because I had seen the house begin to roll up). When the house began to roll up, there was such a panic to get our essential clothing items and run out. So when the house began rolling up, there was a lady on the third floor and I was on the second floor. I saw a boy who was a few years old who was in a state of panic because the house was ending to roll up that he was running around peeing on the carpet. His mom was nearby who needed to get their things together so I told her to go and do what she needed to do and I would take care of the boy. So she was fine with that. Then the scene changed where I needed to get my own things as quickly as possible so I was running towards my room, and I think I shared the room with another woman. As I ran into my room I saw two very nice, new white dressers but they didn’t feel like they were mine so I told her that I couldn’t get my clothes because I couldn’t find my dresser.
Then I was outside, close to the house, facing the house. I saw a little bit of the house at the bottom of the door and the concrete floor/foundation (I saw the thickness of it, about five inches or so.) I saw some water coming from between the door and the concrete, and saw something like caulking make a line to seal the gap tween the bottom of the door and the concrete. The feeling I had was that we had passed and had gotten out, and now it was locked into place.
The the scene changed again; I didn’t see the person who was with me but sensed that they were there. We were walking on the sidewalk going passed our house, and we had walked a few steps passed it. The person who I was with said something like the house wasn’t there anymore, so I looked back and saw that it was gone because it had been rolled up. I saw that where the house had been it was flat/level with the ground around it and there was grass and other things growing as if the house hadn’t been there for awhile. I saw too that we were walking on a residential area with green trees/shrubs/grass.
Then I felt like it had been several days since the house had been rolled up and we were back in the house again. Then to my surprise the house began rolling up again the same way like before. We were wondering why it was rolling up again and then I had a knowing that it was because we hadn’t washed the inside of the house; we needed to wash it clean so that it wouldn’t happen again. Then I wondered about the lady on the third floor; she had been rolled up with the house the first time because she hadn’t gotten ready in time, so I wondered if she would be ready this time. In waking life I know that the lady on the third floor represents me, that I hadn’t been ready to do the announcements last time. I’m not sure if it could also represent speaking my message? I know I’ve taken too long for that. In my dream I couldn’t find my dresser but only saw two new ones; I’m thinking this represents that I’ve put off the old and put on the new (I’ve put off the old man; the dream where I took off my shorts which looked like men’s swimming trunks), and God needs to help me recognize the new that he wants me to wear -walking in the spiritual freedom he’s called me to have.
On July 25; 2:52 the Lord woke me up with the lyrics, “oh come on my soul, oh don’t you get shy on me lift up your song, you got a lion inside of those lungs, so get up and praise the Lord!” Here the Lord’s encouraging me to step up and present my message, and I’m going to, definitely, I’ve just not had the time to practice it; it seems like everyday I need to get up really early and then go to bed really late because I’ve not had the time to do my devotional time with God. Last Monday the sun was so orange at sunset! I ran outside around the church but I’m thinking I won’t do it again by myself since theres been sketchy people hanging around. But after I did my 4k and was sitting inside listening to worship, Bella took the photo I posted above, which reminds me that God is filling me with his light and wants me to begin speaking it out. I had a really good time biking with the Youth, and today we went to the beach; I went into the water and went all in, glasses and all! I think it’s so cool how God is slowly waking me up and getting me out of my hiding places (in my heart) in so many ways:) I think it’s also to show that I’m going all in with Gods plans for my life. Many blessings…