Caroline, you are mine -declares the Lord.
Father, you have said it and I believe it!
My faithful daughter, I love you with all of who I am. I love you completely.
Father, you’ve said this also and I believe it!
Come my daughter, come near to me and I will give you rest -the kind of rest you desire.. I love you. Draw near to me and I will draw near to you.
Father, I recognize your pursuit of me; You are love, and love has pursued me all this time. The reason why I know this is because I’ve been found by you through the Holy Spirit. My eyes have been opened to this like the dawn of a new day. You are so good to me -I love you Dad.
Caroline, it is the dawn of a new day. I’ve given you much value and much worth. Come, there is much more for you to learn; my ways are not your ways, and neither are my thoughts yours. I Am Who I Am, this is who I am.
My Dad, I am only a child in knowing who you are and knowing who I am. Your love has just recently found me because of my resistance. I didn’t know I was being pursued by your love, and it’s only in knowing deep in my heart about my value and worth that I’ve learned of this pursuit, a pursuit of more ways than one. I ask that you’d help me now to grow in what it really means to be walking in the value I have in you and in the freedom I’ve gained as I’ve become aware of my true state.
My faithful daughter, this has been a long journey for you and you’ve done well. This journey is not yet over but will soon be. Come, let’s walk the remainder of this journey together, for this is my good pleasure -You are mine.
Reflection:
Never in my life have I been so deep in thought than the last few days. I feel like I’m climbing the high mountain of God that is his heart. I’m so exhausted yet filled by Him. It’s the deep love of God for me that so baffles me. God asked me to declare scripture every morning, the same ones for about two to three years, and its only in the last few days that I’ve realized what the Lord was doing through them. Every time I declared these scriptures, I had a picture (from a dream the Lord had given me) of me slamming what reminds me of Thor’s hammer onto the ground, creating sound waves and sending out ripples from where I was standing. The Lord was penetrating my heart one day at a time as I spoke Gods truth, his loving whispers into the darkness of unbelief in my heart that I was valued and worthy of his love.
Isaiah 44:24, “This is what the Lord says, your redeemer who formed you in the womb: I Am the Lord who has made all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself.”
John 1:1-18, “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through Him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness but the darkness has not understood it.”
Last week the Lord gave me a dream that I was with someone, keeping busy with things that had no purpose. The name of this person means, “Worthy of love.” God’s love has been in pursuit of those hidden places in my heart that only knew darkness. I remember coming to a realization about five years ago that I had no feelings of love, other than for my children. I felt no love for my parents or anyone else, but I tried to because I knew as a christian, that’s what we’re suppose to do, but I couldn’t make myself have these emotions. I think that just like no one can come to Jesus unless the Father draws them through the Holy Spirit, I couldn’t have come into the light of Gods love in these dark areas of unbelief in my heart if the Holy Spirit hadn’t drawn me. The Lord needed to do his work in my heart, and because he knows me better than I know myself, he knew exactly how to draw me near to him. Thinking about this, I don’t even know how he did it, all I know is that it’s been a long journey of listening, learning to hear his voice as I followed him every day. His words are alive and are always doing his work in my heart, that’s how he did it:)
A few nights ago God gave me a dream where I saw someone who represents, “the right way to go,” and she was sitting on an armchair with an open bible on her lap, and on top of the bible was a lit candle inside a transparent glass candleholder -she was talking about God in her life. The whole picture was a real peaceful one, and this is what I want to persevere in. Even if I have an audience of one, I’m comforted that God is always with me, and I’m so thankful.. living a sacrificial life for him who is unshakable!