Faithing, Hoping, Trusting

Proverbs 9:9-11

“Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still; teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For through me your days will be many, and years will be added to your life.” 

My Father, I’m so sad that we couldn’t go to the fundraiser today. I’m sensing that even though the roads are clear right now, the snow will come and then my kids and I will be left stranded. I believe the dream you gave me two nights ago, to not go on a path/road because even though I may not see danger at first, it’s still there, represents today. And if I’m wrong about this, then I’m still fine because my motive is right and I always want to obey you.

I love you my daughter. Rest, all is well with you. Come my daughter, I have something for you today.

Thank-you Lord, please tell me.

You are Mine and I’m taking good care of you.

Dad, I do feel cared for by you, thank-you. I know that I’m secure in you. Father, is there more?

Yes my darling, there is; rest, you’ll be okay.

Lord, you know that I’ve been worried about the spot in my nose. I will ask for prayer for that.

My faithful one, you have my blessing -all will be well with you. 

Reflection:

This mornings sunrise was beautiful! I awoke at 4:27; I had had a quick dream at the beginning of the night, and I was so tired that I fell asleep again before I could reach my phone to right it down. So I woke up again during the night and thought I’d remember and that I’d write it down in the morning and fell back asleep. When I woke up at 4:27, I didn’t have any other dreams and I regretted not writing it down, so I quickly did, and I hope I remembered it accurately. I saw a small plate of food on the table, and my glasses were laying in the middle/on top of the food, open. The feeling I had was that something was cut in half, though I’m not sure about this last part. 

Then I went back to bed and a while later I awoke and had these words in my mind, “I didn’t recognize a key that was in there.” I have no idea to what this refers. My prayer is that the Lord will reveal the key to me that I don’t know about. Then I fell asleep again after my alarm at six and woke up less than ten minutes later and had dreamt that I was standing in the sanctuary of my church, at the back of the room and area where we always sit. I had a knowing that the church had purchased some plastic beige chairs that they were going to put among the first section of chairs that were already there. I had a picture of some chairs, about six or seven (less than ten) mixed into the first section where I always sit and maybe in the section beside. I had a vague feeling like the church was going to purchase more of these beige chairs and put them into the first section of chairs , slowly replacing the existing ones? The part of replacing the existing ones is so vague that I’m not sure if it’s accurate. 

Last Wednesday at youth I went into the grade 8 girls because no one showed up in my group. When I got there they all could ask me a question. One of the questions was how old am I? I didn’t answer that one and brushed it off. At home later I remembered my dream about someone brushing off a persons question while at youth and I had told that person that they just missed a teaching moment. I now know this applied to me and I’m sensing that it was more about the question and how I feel about it rather than what the teaching moment was for that student. I also remember someone saying something about our age, so I know that this is still an issue in my heart and I know that it’s only through the Holy Spirit that I can be set free from feeling less than because of my age. I just feel that I’ve missed out on so much and now the Lord is so miraculously giving me another chance, but my age and the double chin that’s begun to grow during my time at home during covid, really makes me feel old. Anyway, I know that this has nothing to do with me as a person or my worth; I just feel vulnerable and I’m really leaning into him, trusting and hoping. I’m really missing church right now.. I’ll be making jam jams again today. Blessings…