My Father, help me rest in you today as I do all the things I need to do today.
You will find rest, for those who seek me, find me.
Father thank-you for being so near to me and that you know me so well.
(almost 3 hours later- needed to make breakfast -omelet, fruit, toast, tea, and something sweet)
Father, thank-you for your peace in my heart. I feel loved by you. Help me to be able to walk in, fully knowing your love for me. Thank-you for waking me up so that I can be aware of this great need in my heart, and thank-you for beginning to take me on this journey which will lead me to walking in your love for me.
I love you My dear one. Come, lets continue to walk deeper in. My love is a rich love that I pour liberally into every heart that desires it. The more you pursue me, the more liberally I can pour my life into your heart. Those who seek me will find me.
Jesus I pray that as I continue to dive into your word and read how you’ve led others in their books, I pray that you’d quicken my heart and fan into flame so that what you want me to say will become a passionate fire that I can’t put out. Lead me Holy Spirit.
My faithful daughter, you are Mine whom I love deeply. I will surely do as you’ve asked. You are blessed.
Reflection:
Happy Saturday!! Yesterday we went to my in-laws for supper and stopped along the way to take photos in a sunflower field -so beautiful! My days here, speaking Portuguese with our Brazilian friend is going really well! She knows a bit of English so we figure things out. She’s such a joy to have in our home:)
Yesterday the Lord gave me two dreams but I didn’t have time to write and post, so I’ll write them here first. I only vaguely remember this first one because I was so tired in the night that I didn’t write it down until morning. I only remember that someone needed to do one more of whatever they were doing. I’m hesitant here because I don’t remember the dream but I remember the message in the dream, which was the ‘one more’ part. I also dream’t that I was in an emergency type of atmosphere where I was quickly grabbing some black clothing items from a pile on the floor. I hurried away a few steps but then noticed that I had dropped one of my short black socks, so I quickly went back and found it among the pile.
Last night I woke up at 4:44, got up and wrote down the two dreams I had received. I was sitting on the arm-rest of a couch and Jesus was sitting right beside me (on the left side of the couch). There were others sitting in our group and I sensed that we were having a meeting. Jesus and I were very close. We looked at each other and shared a kiss, lips to lips. It was a bit awkward at first but then we adjusted and our lips met again, and this time it was a lips to lips kiss that lasted more than a few moments. I was closing my eyes so that all my attention was on our kiss; We were savouring this long moment and I didn’t mind that there were others in the room watching because who I was kissing was more important than who was watching. I was also savouring the closeness of who I was with. I can still feel his lips on mine and it’s become a memory engraved in my heart… Then one lady in our group said something to the leader that she was going to either call or contact Jesus, the person who I was sitting with, and he hadn’t even known about this and was surprised by it, and said okay. Then as Jesus was getting up, we were still feeling connected. I think he needed to go to several places in the city.
I don’t quiet know how to explain my intimacy with Jesus. I never thought he would show affection this way with me AND wanting me to share this with others. I think because we are from a sinful world where satan has twisted what real intimacy is, is why I’m so pleasantly surprised because I can see how some people would be offended at the thought of that kind of intimacy with God. God is God and he’ll always go straight to the truth -he won’t stop revealing himself just because people will be offended by what he reveals and how he reveals. I think too that physical intimacy in a relationship should only come later when a man and woman deeply know one another (and only in marriage) because the physical part dominates if that’s the first way a couple shows their affection for one another, which also isn’t true intimacy because true love is grown in knowing the other person and is grown over time. Getting to know one another in who we are, how God has made us to be in our heart should always come first in building relationship. But what’s most important is building an intimate relationship with God first (knowing God and God knowing us in a friendship kind of way) because God is our true foundation. I believe the deeper our relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are, and the more we know and love who the person is that God has made us to be, the deeper our relationship can be built with our spouse. Then we can also have the right kind of friendships with those around us and be able to love our neighbour in the way God intended; walking in our God-given strengths, which I think is real love because it comes straight from our heart and is not an obligation but a genuine love. This way of living seems to be idealistic but when God is in the centre of our heart and relationships, and when we’re truly living the kind of life God intended us to live, it’s a reflection of himself.
In the second dream I was with someone who was showing me how to do something; how to cut through something that reminds me of a cushion case. The material was like a soft velvety material. The person was cutting through the two layers that had been sown together, cutting through it from corner to corner. I saw their hand cutting through it with scissors. When they came to the thicker part at the corner, I thought they would slightly go to the side where it wasn’t so thick, but they went straight through the thick part, making a straight line. Just before cutting through it completely, they stopped and pulled the rest apart with their hands. This was important because inside both layers could be a treasure that could only be found if I pulled it apart rather than just cutting straight through. Then I had a quick picture of many corners having been pulled apart already, and the sense I had about that was that this treasure needed to be found and wasn’t in every corner, so I needed to keep on doing this in order to find the treasure. I have a sense that this will be ongoing in my life, that I need to pull apart or dig deeper into God’s word and what he’s already taught me and then I’ll find more treasure, and this is what my mindset needs to be so that I’ll never give up.
I have more dreams but I think I may need to continue later or tomorrow… I hope you’ll all have a wonderful rest of the weekend!!