Isaiah 43: 10,11,12,13
“You are my witnesses, declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior. I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—I, and not some foreign god among you. You are my witnesses, declares the Lord, “that I am God. Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?”
Conversation
Papa, you have all my heart; I love you desperately!
I love you my daughter. Come, you are Mine.
Daddy, I worship you with all my heart. I am Yours and You are mine.
Caroline,
Yes Lord?
I know your heart, and I am well pleased with you. You have denied yourself for my names sake.
Papa, I know Your eyes are always on me, and I’m so thankful.
Caroline my faithful one, I have a word for you today; rest, for it is nearly complete. You have proven yourself to me. You have wearied yourself for me and I am well pleased. My daughter come and rest; it’s almost finished.
Daddy, I know that our/my journey with you is filled with wrong choices where I’ve resisted you, and for this I deeply repent. Help me now not to resist you as we walk. Papa, I know your nearness right now and every hardship I’ve had is worth going through because it’s brought us closer together.
My daughter, don’t be afraid of whats ahead, for this is by My design. Come, rest, for I am well pleased with you.
Papa, help me be all you want me to be. I’m living my life with purpose; I know that life here on earth is short, and I don’t want to waste any of it! Draw me deeper to know you more.
I love you my darling; rest in My Peace.
Reflection
Hello everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Last night I dreamt that a group of us were each given a room and a vehicle of our choosing; the vehicles we could choose from were all lined up in a row in a parking lot. I saw the more modern vehicles lined up in a row and my eyes were going down the line. I liked the new, more modern SUV type vehicles, and then I saw the last vehicle in the row; it was a beige or light grey, older car that was in mint condition. It looked like one of those cars that people like to show at car shows. It had a really long hood and the shape went up on both sides where the round lights were. I was a bit disappointed that that car had been given to me because I wanted a more modern one, but then it was shown to me that the front was shaped the way it was because it fit perfectly with the curved couch that was made to go in front of it. When I was shown what reminds me of a rounded couch, and when it was placed in front of the car, I saw that the car was roundly indented to perfectly match the rounded couch like two pieces of lego that snap together perfectly. Somehow the car and couch were also a pizza. Another thought; the orange bubly flavoured water has a half circle that reminds me of the couch I vaguely saw in my dream -it was more a knowing or feeling like it was a couch.
The part about the room: When I saw that the house I was given was a square room (I saw the whole thing like it was cube in someone’s hand.) I thought and could have said that I’d rather have a house with an upstairs like the house I grew up in because it felt more like a home. When I saw the square room that was given to me, it was by itself and didn’t look appealing. Then I saw many of these separate rooms, and it was like they were all glued together to form one big unit, and that was appealing to me. I didn’t count them but if I’d make an estimate, the whole group was around 20. When I saw the top of the big unit of rooms, I saw that each room had a flat roof, but that was okay because I saw that each room was joined together to make one roof and was prepared for the weather; what I vaguely saw were lines? of tar or something overlaying all the rooms. It looked realistic so it didn’t look like a smooth sea of glass. I’m not sure exactly but this makes me think of community, that we are all individuals joined together under one covering, the church.
After church as I ordered my cappuccino with vanilla flavouring, I saw a U shape pastry; it right away reminded me of my dream where I was standing on a U shape flying in the air. I would have bought it but we were going to go out for lunch right away with our Korean friends. If I see it again I will definitely buy one.. If I don’t see it again, I know that I’m really going to regret not buying it today. This pressure of trying to figure out what the right thing is to choose, is spiritually tiring, but I’m laying it down at the cross and will try not to worry about it because I know that God/Jesus loves me, and I’m resting in that:) In our journey together, I’ve often felt like when I’ve made the wrong choice, that I had failed and then the opportunity to make the right decision has passed. But I know that the enemy always wants me to feel like a failure (not only like I’ve failed but that I as a person am a failure, and this has been so discouraging!). I’ve learned from that and am able to dismiss these thoughts. I’m resting in God’s complete love for me..
Changing the subject, I/we had a great time yesterday at the lake! I enjoyed my time with my kids in the water (I went all in again.. I was thinking that because I was in Petersfield, I wanted to go all in, in what the Lord is doing with the spiritual harvest that I’m sensing is coming.) God is at work in an amazing way, and I know that I will see wondrous things from Him in the coming years.
Yesterday we sat around a campfire on the beach (Petersfield), which is basically their backyard, and enjoyed fireworks. We got home around 1:30, so this morning it was difficult for all of us to get up. We canoed in a racing canoe, reminding me of when I rowed many years ago -so much fun!! One day I’ll row again.. This coming week we’re testing our one rep max for the three lifts; tomorrow there isn’t a class because most everyone who comes at 5 won’t be there, so we’ll test back squats and bench on Wednesday -my back is feeling really good. Many blessings…
August 7: Good morning… I won’t post today but thought I’d quickly share that today we’ll be going to Falcon Lake. Having a campfire at our friends backyard on the beach reminds me of my dream where I was walking with Jesus along someone’s backyard and walked to someone sitting by a campfire and introduced myself as a pastor/a pastor in training. God is so great and I’m so thankful for his love and his ways in my life.. I hope you are all enjoying the sunny long weekend.
This afternoon we went to Falcon lake and had a really nice time. I fell asleep as I was sun tanning, and I’m so excited to say that I dreamt that I saw a ring with a green diamond in a small square open compartment in Bella’s side door of the truck.. A few days ago she lost one of her earrings in the truck and hasn’t been able to find it. We ordered Papa Peppie’s Pizza (pepperoni and bacon) when we got home (and ate it on the couch while watching the movie), and I had Haggen-Dazs chocolate peanut butter icecream, so good!! We watched Top Gun this evening and are watching “Oh Brother Where Art Thou” —blessings. 🌴🌴😎