“The Spirit and the bride say, “Come!” And let him who hears say, “Come!” Whoever is thirsty, let him come; and whoever wishes, let him take the free gift of the water of life.” Revelation 22:17
Reflection and Conversation
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing as I’m waiting is spending time with God and keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness all the time and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him! Very often God draws my heart to Him through love songs! My love for God/Jesus keeps on growing as I continue to pursue Him. During the night God wakes me up at certain times with either a word from Him and/or a dream. So here’s my journal entry for today..
11:06 In my dream I saw Lucas falling on his skateboard
11:19 I saw someone on stage playing the guitar.
11:22 “…it’s only just started and I know, you’re home I’m home… stars through the window they light up our disco it’s just you and I, the two of us starring in this show, we’ll never be alone, cause when you’re home I’m home…”
11:56 “I have met an angel in person darling you look perfect tonight…”
1:37 ..you heard it, darling you look perfect tonight…”
3:57 “I don’t deserve this, darling you look perfect tonight…”
5:13 “I know you won’t, you won’t let me go…”
5:16 I love you
I dreamt that I was on the edge of a cliff and then I fell over it and was hanging on. As I fell I saw a bit of a ledge that my fingers could grab onto and I hooked my fingers onto it. Then I saw another place beside that about an arms length away, and I swung to grab ahold of that. Then I was hanging there with my back against the cliff wall, calling out for help. Jesus was on the other side of the crevice, talking to someone.
5:47 Hope
5:48 My daughter, rest. Be anxious for nothing.
6:02 Papa, I’m determined to finish. I know deep in my heart that Jesus loves me. I need him so desperately.
6:05 I will help you My daughter. Come, you are Mine.
6:11 Papa, I have seen your guiding hand so many times. I pray that You will give me a better understanding about what I need to do with what You show me. And then I pray that You would help me sense where You are during, so that I can follow you. Help me also to remember that you love me so that I can come to you..
6:22 Papa, is this actually attainable?
Yes My daughter
6:36 Follow him (Jesus)
6:47 He’s calling me, he’s calling me… he’s never gonna let you go…
7:08 I saw food, like some granola bars at the bottom of a backpack.
7:15 A dark green backpack was dropped.
7:21 I was standing at the table with someone, feeling like it was Jesus my husband. We each had a gift that was on the table, and we were unwrapping it (It looked like it could be a book). It was wrapped in cloth. There was someone on the other side of the table, kind of to the side. The feeling I had was that we were being helped by a group of people. I’m going to pray into what this gift is..
I saw two people on a hill and a person at the bottom of the hill about to climb back up. This person had been walking alone and had walked to the hill.
9:52 I dreamt that the whole tech team had gotten new headphones. We were sitting in the sanctuary before the service and everyone was excited to have them and were cheering as they were getting them. I was sitting with someone and then I realized that we were going to be shown the preview of a production we had just put together. They turned it on and I saw it beginning to play on the front white wall. The lights were still on. I saw Jesus my husband among the cast; he was kind of laying down in the middle of the group, on his back and kind of on his side, propping up his head, posing. Then I wondered where Jesus was and thought that maybe he had come in the door already and had walked passed me to sit down. I wondered if he noticed me.
In my heart I cried out to God (while praying in the Spirit) asking for forgiveness and pleading with Him to have another opportunity this Sunday.
11:27 Yes My daughter, come.
11:31 I love you My darling. Come, all is well with you.
11:32 I worship You Papa, thank You, I love You.
11:38 “Yes My daughter, go for it!” While praying in the spirit I was thinking about this weekend and I heard the Lord say this.
11:43 I’m praying, taking deep breathes of faith. I’m walking by faith and trusting in my Papa who loves me so much. My God is able to lead me, so I will be as alert as I can and follow as best as I can and leave the results up to God. I know that Jesus is pursuing me; by leading and not giving up on me… please forgive me for doubting.. I’m gonna make it through because my house is built on You Papa.
I listened to Ana Werner’s 3rd teaching this afternoon and I remembered my dream; as I was listening I laid on my side and propped up my head as I listened and as I was taking notes. So amazing! Today she talked about angels and the names they have and that they do what their name is.
I asked the Lord what angel He assigned to me, and I heard Deliverance and Rest. Then I asked the Lord what I need to be delivered from, and I heard in my heart the word, independence. In the past I’ve needed to be independent in order to follow the Lord. Now I’m sensing to break from being independent and take Jesus my husbands hand and follow him…. thank You Papa..
2:11 “In following him” (I asked the Lord in what way I need to rest, and I heard in my heart, “in following him.”)
Thank You Papa….❤️🔥