My Father, I have a fear that when I’m out of this desert I’m sensing I’m in, that I’ll think I won’t need you and your strength as much and that I’ll not pursue you with all my heart any longer. I’m in anguish over this, sobbing at the thought!
My daughter, I will be near to you then too.
My Dad, I need to remember that my foundation in you is built on a love relationship that’s been built over time and is still being built -it’s not something that can break easily. Thinking about the other side of troubles, an easier life with less stress can actually be seen as being in the greatest storms, spiritually speaking, because it’s then that we don’t feel the need to be as intimate with you, which the enemy deceives us into thinking. Well my Father, I’m already guarding my heart for this and will continue to seek you diligently with all my heart; I’ll always need you desperately, possibly to face something you’re asking me to do which I’ll probably think is too big for me.
My faithful one, you are mine and you always will be. Always come directly to me, right here in my throne room. You’re always welcome here. I will be nearer to you still.
My Dad, please show me more of your heart and mine. I want to be your spotless bride, and I want to help others who don’t know you to come near to you so that together we can be who you created us to be. I have a sense that you want me to help others come close to you, to know you intimately. This would enrage the enemy which is what I like to do.
My faithful one, the best way to do this is to continue to pursue me with all your heart, and I will always lead you in the way you should go. You are mine and I love you.
Reflection:
I’m so thankful that God has revived my heart for him. He knew that I had put a few walls up even though I didn’t know. It’s funny how we can be deceived about what we know or don’t know. But as we pursue the Lord, he reveals to us what our state of mind is. It’s so true that because God has drawn me closer to himself, that I’m able to love him more and others more.. I’m able to enjoy him more as I do what he’s called me to do, and this is the greatest thing in life!