My Dad, You are my strength and my salvation. You are my hope, defender, comfort and shield. You are my all and I give my whole heart to you… I partner up with you and walk deeper into your calling on my life.
Come my daughter, I am your covering, your hope and your joy -rest in me.
Father, I need to ask you something but I don’t know what it is to ask. You know my heart; please come and answer this unknown question.
Caroline, rest as we walk and you will clearly know the right way to go. Rest -I surround you with love. Allow this love to comfort your troubled and anxious heart. I know you well and I’m so proud of you. Be at rest -you are Mine.
Reflection:
Being at rest is something I always need to fight the enemy for. I don’t fight the enemy for it like he has it, I just need to remember that I am loved so deeply, that I love so deeply, and that Jesus and I are walking together. My mindset is coming into line with who God sees me as,, as a pastor in training, as I picture myself running towards the stage. Having this mindset this morning, I felt like I was the one that needed to go up onto the stage and present a sermon… and I was so nervous! I felt like I could hardly breathe, like my lungs had shrunk in size, and needed to run to the bathroom before the service! Pastors make it look so easy and do such a great job! I’m amazed, thinking I’ll be there one day, I can picture it actually being fun and having a deep sense of joy through being able to share my perspective of how God has worked in my life. God gave me a few dreams last night but I only have time to write about one today, and I’ll write more tomorrow.
I dreamt about many of my family members. My brother Henry was in my first dream, and his name means, “Ruler of the home.” I was crouching behind shelter, avoiding arrows that were being shot at me, and it was like an onslaught, coming from the enemy. I saw them coming and avoided them by ducking down behind shelter. My brother Henry was helping me from the other side, even though I couldn’t see him helping me. Then I saw the enemy change his location/position, and I saw him clearly as he ran to a place where he could clearly see me; he was getting his arrows ready to shoot at me again. From his position, I all of a sudden had no shelter to hide behind, so I yelled as loudly as I could to my brother to quickly get him with his arrows, to quickly shoot at him and get him because that was the only way I wouldn’t get hit. In another one I was walking into a place that my sister Connie was organizing. There where formal dining tables set up with white table cloths, and place settings were all ready and many people were sitting down. I was walking through the room and felt a little out of place because I had heavy winter boots on, so I walked to one part of the room and took them off. I also saw as I was taking off my jacket, that I had at least three or four layers of jacket that I was putting down onto the floor. Then I was facing one of the tables and some people had already left because they were done eating. My mom was looking for a big spoon and was looking for one and then she found one. I saw a few lady’s gather up some cutlery and I walked to Connie and told her, thinking they were taking them home, but she must have explained because then I knew they were helping to clean up because this dining setting was done. She asked me if I was going to apologize, and I said no because I didn’t know that they were helping to clean up (I asked the Lord what I needed to apologize for, and the Lord pointed something out which I’ll talk about tomorrow.). Then I was standing by some check-out counters where people were paying for whatever they needed to pay for, maybe the meal, and I saw paper cups, plates and other garbage that needed to be cleaned up, so I looked for a large plastic bag and saw one laying on the floor. I picked it up and began cleaning up. Anyways, I’ll need to continue tomorrow. I hope you’ll have a great rest of the weekend, blessings to you!!!