In my Father’s Presence

Matthew 21:22

“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

My Dad.

My darling -I love you. Come, you are Mine.

Thank-you Lord for inviting me into your presence. I need your refreshing.

Come Caroline, all is well with you. Caroline, I have a word for you.

Father, what is it?

I love you.

Father, my spiritual arms are trying to grasp and hold onto what it feels like to be loved. In our walk together you’ve shown me what it feels like to deeply love, which you initially planted in my heart, and I’m believing that there’s also a feeling to be felt with being loved. Help me to know what this feels like -spiritually in my heart. 

I will help you to know this my daughter. Come, rest in me today, for I am near to you. 

Reflection:

On the 25th I had a short dream where I saw the backs of two women as they walked away; I could actually only see their hair which covered their backs because of how long and thick it was. The length of their hair went all the way down past their waist and both were straight and brown, except the one on the right, all her hair was tied in a knot where all the hair was taken together and formed a neat loop near the middle/end of the length, which then hung down. I’m not sure what this represents, but long hair represents freedom, power and status. 

Last night I had a few quick dreams and I don’t remember in which order I dreamt them: In this dream I had forgotten my black runners in the church, in a smaller room, and I had gone there to get them. I was looking for them and couldn’t find them, though I could picture them where they were on the floor. Then I needed to go somewhere and thought I’d go back and look for them at another time. I’m not sure what this dream represents and I’m pressing into the Lord about it. 

In another dream I was standing, watching as someone was laying on the floor on their back, and someone was kneeling down, helping them go poo. There was such a large accumulation of poo, the size of a baby, that it looked like they were giving birth. Someone walked up to me and I pointed it out to them with my outstretched arm and said, “look!” So the person looked and we saw that all the poo had come out. I don’t know the specific meaning but I’ve always found it difficult to begin walking in something new the Lord is doing in my life because he always needs to prepare my heart for it first, and this is a painful process because I always need to let go of myself and trust in him about it. I’m not sure if this represents that I haven’t done something yet and am going to do it soon, or if this represents something totally different that will also be difficult to walk through. But it was an accumulation, so I know it’s not something new. I’m glad to have help..

In another dream it was dark out and I was quickly crossing the back alleyway and running along the length of my garage and quickly stepping around the corner, hiding from someone that was slowly driving passed my property. I had felt unsafe and didn’t want them to see me because I knew they’d come after me if they did. I believe this represents going through difficulty and hiding myself from sinking deeper into it. 

In another short dream I saw that my 5AM couch had received a gift: a large tray made of cardboard box that was filled with earrings. She was looking down at them, really liking her gift. I’m not yet sure what this represents. I’m not sure if I’m going to do cross-fit this week; many people are away and no-one so far has signed up. I don’t want to be the only one to sign up for such an early class, but if the Lord is leading me to do it, then I’ll need to do it. I hope you’ll all have a wonderful week -Blessings!!