Psalm 37:4-6
“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.”
My Dad, please help me to always stay right in the center of your will. Help me to receive all the help that I can get so I can go where you want me to go. I’m just so sad that in my dream I let go of Jesus’s hand. I never want to do that, so please help me know in advance what the root is that made me react that way so that when the time comes I will keep holding onto your hand so tight.
I will help you my daughter. Fear not, for I am always right by your side.
Jesus, if I could see you face to face, I would beg you to please not give up on me. I know this journey has been so long and you’re always waiting for me to take the next step. I see your love so clearly.. I’m so comforted by your nearness and the sound of your voice as I rested.
My sweet daughter, I’m here and it’s the dawn of a new day. The battle has been won. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. I delight in you my faithful one.
Okay Dad, thank-you. I love you..
I love you my daughter.
Reflection:
I’m so excited to say that this is post number 375!!! I can hardly believe that I’ve written so many. Today I made a Cinnamon Apple Pecan pie for our Pie Auction tomorrow. My description will be that it’s home-made, deep dish, and represents a courageous, adventurous and passionate journey with Jesus:) I woke up this morning at 5:57 but I had my alarm set for 7:15 -I went to bed so late last night, or I should say this morning! Then later when I woke up I had these lyrics in my mind…”nothing is better than you.. you turn mourning to dancing…. you turn seas into highways…. you’re the only one who can.” This morning I put cream on my sore and I smelled the smell that I thought was my sore, so I think it was only the cream! The day before yesterday I went to my moms and we watched the first half of “Fiddler on the Roof.” My mom never watches tv or movies, and I could tell she wanted to watch the second half of the movie. I had seen it many years ago and I got these vhs tapes thinking of my mom and dad, so watching it with her was special.
Last night in the first part of my dream, there was a really huge and really deep dark hole that people were falling into. The person I was with fell into it and I heard him yell as he fell. Then Bella also fell in but I quickly looked into the hole and saw that she was looking up to me and had grabbed ahold of something that was sticking out along the side, so I very easily grabbed her hand and pulled her up to safety. When I had grabbed her hand, it was like our hands were already holding together, so I had just needed to pull her up. I didn’t feel any sadness in this part of the dream; it was just an event. The hole had many thin metal things coming out of the sides of it. Then the scene changed where there was a man in front of us, talking to us about a condo that was really high up in a really really tall round building. There was a picture that was being shown so that people could see what the condos looked like way up in this building, but it looked like it was an actual condo. I saw that the condo had a pool, and I saw a lot of blue, like the lining of the pool was blue; it looked peaceful. There was someone there who wanted that exact condo, and the man said it twice that that exact condo was really high up. The picture looked so real that she thought it was right there. (Here I’m thinking that something I’m hoping for is very real to me.) We were standing right next to it, and as I stood beside the man who was explaining this, I looked up to see how tall this building was, and it was so high that I couldn’t see to the top. I vaguely saw lights up there. The first section of this building didn’t have condos; whoever wanted these condos needed to climb up many flights of stairs or something in order to get up to where the condos were; in waking life the height of this section of stairs was about ten or more stories high. Then the scene changed where there were very many people that were beginning to climb up the stairs. I grabbed ahold of my friends hand who was in front of me. We had already begun to walk so when I grabbed ahold of his hand, he had already begun to walk up, so he put his hand out behind him and I grabbed ahold of it, and then we began to walk up the stairs. I vaguely remember that each stair was a little high, just a little higher than they normally are. Then as we were climbing up, I was feeling a little like a child as we were holding hands so I let go:( thinking I’d just follow, but because there were so many people walking up too, I soon lost sight of him. Oh no, I wish I could go back in my dream and not let go.. (I’m thinking where in waking life do I feel this way? I’m thinking that as the Lord asks me to do things, many times I feel like a little child because I’m so new at doing them, plus I need to do them in front of others where they can see me stumble which is very humbling. But I know that this is the best way to learn because then pride can’t grow, and I’m also trust falling at the same time. So I’m apologizing to Jesus, I’m so sorry in advance for any future letting go of hands.. I’m going to try really hard not to but if it happens, then I need to think about the reason why it happened and then work through that reason so that my trust can keep growing. In my heart I’m always holding tightly onto Jesus..)
Then the scene changed where we were walking up, but it also reminds me of walking on a bridge; the space that led up to where all the condos were was like a bridge. As we were walking I had a thought, a little fear of the building falling, and because the condos were so high up, if that would happen we would fall a long way. But I had a sense that the building was very strong, so even in my dream I didn’t think that would happen, it was just a ‘what if’ kind of thinking. Last year the Lord gave me a word, “Deep roots that are being grown is a deep friendship being built.” Just like when tree roots grow in really deep over a length of time, the taller the building, the stronger and deeper the foundation needs to be. So when I remember the tall building, I know that the foundation is very strong.
Then the scene changed where I was still with my friend and we were walking together on a road/path of a themed park, and I saw a lot of green trees and other greenery. As we were walking I saw to my right a section of the park that had a superman theme. We had already walked by where the path started and went into the forest. And then as we kept on walking, I saw that it had rounded a corner and had come up close to where we were, and this was the end of it; There was a sign on the fence facing the end of that path, a superman logo, the big red and blue S on supermans chest. I was really excited and pointed it out to my friend who I think was looking at something else. So I pointed it out and he looked. Then I knew that before we could go there, I needed to go back and put some pants on. Up until then I hadn’t realized I wasn’t wearing any pants! So I began running back, really excited and pulling my shirt down around me for privacy. It didn’t really go down far enough for privacy though, but I was so excited that I just kept on running. Okay, I’m sensing from the Lord that there will be a point where I will be so excited about what God is doing that I won’t even think about my heart being exposed. Blessings..☕️