Psalm 95:6,7
“Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the Lord our Maker; for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, the flock under his care.”
Conversation
Papa
Come, My daughter. You are Mine and I love you. Speak.
Papa, I need You so desperately. Please draw me closer to Your heart.
I am near.
Reflection
Welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Happy New Year!! Hoping you had a good New Years celebration. We went to friends of ours and had a very nice Korean meal. Later the kids watched the second Hunger Games downstairs and we watched Jeremy Camps true life story, “I Still Believe.” (a Lionsgate movie about always having hope) Sohee suggested watching it -I hadn’t watched it before. What caught my eyes were the shoes he was wearing when he went on stage (black with white around), and also the part where she said that he was meant to save her.. It was such a good movie and yes, I cried a bit:) I just heard about a movie called, “About Time.” We’ll need to watch it! Their neighbours had fireworks so Sohee and I watched them from the front window. Our movies were done at around 1:00 if I’m remembering it correctly.
Last night I dreamt that I was around a few people in a public setting. There was a prophetic person there too who had momentarily left. Then a boy came who everyone was afraid of because of how he acted out in public. He was in front of me having a temper tantrum , and then he walked to the prophetic person’s purse and started taking a white pearl necklace -I saw the necklace vaguely. I quickly stood up and said something to him that he cant do that, that he had to put it back. He looked at me when I said that, and I rose up and became a big person over him. He looked up at me and became afraid of me and put whatever he had taken, back into the purse. I’m sensing that the prophetic person is me and the boy is the enemy who wants to steal my identity as a prophetic person. I’m realizing that I need to decide to stop being afraid of who God created me to be as a leader and prophetic person. I’m sensing that there’s a control spirit over our home, and when I write it becomes angry and intimidating to all who live here. I need to stay grounded, knowing that God is still working in my heart and that I haven’t been left to fend for myself.
Then the scene changed where the prophetic person was going to go, and I was disappointed because I would have loved to have talked with her and have her pray for me. Then the scene changed where I was in a small space that was kind of dark, talking with my main pastor’s son. We were both sitting in desk chairs; I vaguely saw that he was doing something at his desk/computer; he was telling me about himself and I thought that he was such a kind person. I only saw him vaguely, but I think I was sitting behind him, doing something on the wall with papers as we were talking. The papers remind me of index cards that were in slots on the wall. Then there was an emergency out on the road somewhere and he quickly left to go help this person. Then the prophetic lady came (on my left) and sat in the chair beside me and told me that she had time for me, and I was so glad! She began by asking me to tell her about myself. Then my pastors son came back (on my left) and waited as I moved my chair back to make room for his, and he was glad as he took a step or two to his chair when the dream ended. So it was the three of us sitting close together in that small space. I didn’t know that I was prophetic. God has given me so many dreams and many of them I don’t know the meaning of but have a vague sense of what they mean. I know that God has a plan for my life that I don’t want to miss. I’m more than sad that I had taken a step back just because I wasn’t ready. I know I need to pursue God like I’ve never pursued Him before because my life, the life He’s chosen for me, depends on it.
Yesterday on the way home from church I fell asleep and dreamt that I saw someone in a cabin at the top of a mountain and I saw a snow storm outside through the windows. I had a vague feeling like this person was receiving a Christmas gift. Sunday morning as I was getting ready for church my eyes were dry and I was trying to get something out of my eye; a little while later when I looked into the mirror to put my make-up on I saw a blood spot in the white part of my eye, thinking that a mini blood vessel burst as I was trying to get something out of my eye. I’m planning on doing the Daniel fast. I’ve never done it before. I was going to fast food the next three days but I have a Christmas meal on Wednesday evening, so I’m not sure what I should do. I think I’ll do a social media fast including watching movies, and get ready to start the Daniel fast right after that. Today I saw 12:23 and 12:32; Thinking about what I missed at the end of 2023 and sensing from God that it’s this year.. I’m not sure if I’m interpreting it correctly, but it gives me hope. I’m going to paint a sunset first. Blessings…
Jan 2, 2024: 6:05. I was standing on a platform at church and there was a round pool (above ground) filled with water. This pool was a place where people could go into. Joao had gone into the pool fully dressed in a suit and tie, and he had a blue winter jacket on (our MEC, filled with feathers so it’s poofy) that was zipped up, and he was sitting on something. The thing he was sitting on reminds me of the back of a horse; I saw that there was a pouch on both sides of the “saddle”, and on his left side there was a row of yellow books, a series of books that reminds me of National Geographic. The “saddle” pouches were about two feet long. I could see that because there wasn’t anything in the other side, the side with the books was heavier so it was a bit off balance. I think he adjusted the way he was sitting, I’m not sure, then all of a sudden the weight of the books (with nothing in the other side of the saddle) pulled him into the water. It completely took him by surprise; He was fully submerged in the water, and I could only see his jacket, maybe one of his hands. I waited a bit, knowing he couldn’t hear me. Then he got up and began walking out of the water. I wondered if his phone got wet. I had a sense that he was wearing a dark blue suit.
Then after writing down the previous dream I fell asleep again. I didn’t look at the time right away but when I did it was 7:33 : Someone was looking into a small black garbage can that was filled with dry garbage. As they were looking into it, he/she excitedly pointed at something they could see deep in it and they or I pushed the garbage to the side and saw loonies and toonies (gold and silver) on a rectangular shaped plate that was the size of a hand.
8:14 I heard in my heart, “I feel so lost without you.”
8:36 I was in a room and saw Lucas’ bed along a wall. I saw that on the wall right beside his bed were black things growing , like clusters of dust. I looked up along the corner of where the two walls meet and saw it was full of this stuff. Then I saw my brother in law Wendel laying tummy down on their bed and Shanna was doing something on her phone. I told her that I was going to clean Lucas’ wall and the other stuff later today, especially where he was sleeping. I asked her if that was okay because it was their bedroom too, and she said yes, it was okay. I had dressy black clothes on. They were preparing to do something fun as a couple, with other couples, and they were practicing singing a song. I said something like, “that’ll be fun.” (The kids wanted to sing at Sohees house and I didn’t want to do it.)
9:12 dreamt vaguely that I was in a car, getting ready for something.
9:21He will never fail, he will never fail. I woke up with a start.
9:32: I was on a train with someone and I heard or sensed “72 hours.”
9:41 I heard in my heart, “That night we had our very first kiss.”
I woke up at night at 3:04 so I got up and went downstairs to pray. It was also my sobbing time. I went back to bed at 5:04. This is silly but I was aiming to be in bed by 5:03 but it was 5:04. On New Year’s eve I could feel the love of Jesus and I cherished every moment. I’m going to church tonight. Blessings…