My Dad, please come and do your mighty work in my heart, a work that needs to come to completion in me. I miss, so much, where you’re leading me, even though we’ve not walked there yet. I recognize now the reason why I had been running from your love, and it’s because of how I was feeling about myself, that I had no value. I love where you’re taking me,, knowing you’ve poured so much value in there as well.. I think that our cup has been filled by you Father, and I’m now ready to walk together with you where you lead -with no fear. Thank you Father for your thorough work in our lives. Surely your goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the home of the Lord forever!
My faithful daughter, you are mine -I love you with an abundant and everlasting love, which will never leave you.
Thank you my Father for comforting my heart. Thank you for keeping watch over me. I know that I’m secure in your love. Thank you for being my faithful Shepherd and for leading me into intimacy with you.
You’re welcome my daughter, I love you.
Thanks Dad, I can truly say that I believe it now. I love you too.
Reflection:
I’m thankful that the Lord continued to pour his love over me when I couldn’t love him in these areas of unbelief. I’ve come to realize that unbelief is a barrier that prevents healing. I think that when we continue to pursue God, who is Love, he will help us understand things we don’t understand, drawing us to himself through the Holy Spirit. He never gives up on us and we should be like him in this way too, not to give up on him when we think he’s keeping something from us. Love is good all the time. In my pursuit of Him, I’ve always felt invited by him, which is part of how he made me; I need to be invited and am one to hold back instead of going to take a better seat. I think I can also be too cautious though, but I also know that I’m more secure in his love for me, so trust will come easier.
Last week I had a dream where I was in someone’s vehicle and we had crossed over a frozen dam. When we had crossed over to the other side, I saw a lot of green and saw that the dam was flowing freely, and it looked so beautiful. I think this is a picture of the resistance I had, because of how I was feeling about myself, and it was gone. When God transforms our lives, it really is so beautiful!
Last night I dreamt that I was looking out of a completely opened doorway and I saw a vast, completely calm and peaceful ocean, and it was sunny outside. I looked to see what a calm ocean represents -emotionally stable, or balanced…that’s good to know! At first there was a road that separated this place from the ocean, and then I saw that the ocean was right at the door. In this same place, God also showed me that someone asked me to speak to youth in a camp type setting, every day for twenty minutes for a month, on stage. I thought it would be fine but then I realized how much preparation it was going to take. The theme was WW2, so I thought to show them a movie about someone who was alive during that time, and vaguely sensed someone talking about it instead of showing them a movie. I had been sleeping but was now awake. My prayer is for the Lord to show me more specifically…I’m a bit apprehensive about what I’m thinking it means, but it could also not be directional. However, this is what I’ve been doing, writing and speaking about God in my life. I’m keeping my rest and won’t worry about it because I know that I will never walk alone….