Proverbs 9:10,11
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For through me your days will be many, and years will be added to your life.”
Conversation
Papa. I love You and I worship You. Thank-you for this season of Christmas which reminds us about Your passionate love for us. Thank you for leaving the splendour of heaven and becoming a helpless baby here on earth. I love You and I worship You with all my heart -I am Yours.
My daughter, I love you; you are Mine. Caroline, I have a word for you. It is time to rise up and speak. Come, I will help you.
Papa, You are such a Good King, such a Good Father. You, who’s created the whole universe and Jesus, You who died on the cross for my sins and the sins of all mankind, has asked me to speak. Well, I will! I’ve walked with You intimately long enough to know You enough to be able to trust You and to do this thing that is way above me. I believe You’ve qualified me through the time we’ve spent together, so because You don’t expect perfection, I’m willing deep within my heart, and I will obey You my Papa Father because I love You.
I know you do My darling, and I love you too. I’m waiting here for you, come.
Okay Dad, I’m genuinely coming and I’m excited about coming. Thank-you for being near to me.
Reflection
Hi everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
The snow storm we got yesterday evening was so unexpected! Early afternoon I went with a friend of mine and got a french manicure; I’ve never really appreciated manicures and pedicures before, but since I got one last spring and now again, I appreciate them so much more! The way to the city was totally clear but the way home late afternoon, the roads were a bit icy already. I had driven a bit off to the side, still on the road, when the truck began sliding and I needed to be so careful to get back into the tracks in the middle of the road. But, I think we need snow for Christmas and I think its beautiful!
Two or three nights ago I had a dream that someone had a black cord that was attached to someone as they walked down to the beach on a boardwalk, looking really sad. I am sad, but I can now say that my heart is not heavy. Many years ago I made it my mission, that if there was one purpose for my life, that this purpose was for my husband and that I would lay down everything about myself for him. I was denying myself for him completely. But in doing that, because of God’s revelation about where I’ve been in my heart, I’ve seen that I’ve neglected my own person, who God has created me to be (even though back then the level of knowing what this was, was low). I now know that I need to only completely self-deny for Christ, not for people (like a whole life self-denial, dying to my flesh for Christ kind of self-denial, and this is what I had done for my husband). I need to serve people and love them in the way God has chosen for me to serve them and love them, because this is my purpose, the purpose God has given me (and everyone else). So in self-denying for Christ, I’m also self-denying for others but it’s done through Christ, which I’ve learned there’s a big difference. I think when we don’t serve others only through Christ, we become a slave. I’ve always had a feeling of spiritual heaviness, really weighted down, and after that incident of feeling the large spiritual hook slide out of my back, I’m much more light-hearted, like a depression has left. I now have so much more hope than I had before. I’ve definitely been set free from the enemy’s plan for my life! I feel that I can serve God and others better because I can love God better. I’m a slave to Christ, not to man. To be a slave to Christ sets me free, and to be a slave to man puts me in bondage. I think now that the hook of depression has left, I can do everything better: serving, loving others, relationships, and walking forward with doing what God has called me to do!
I had a dream last week that I’ve forgotten to write about, but it was basically a dream where I was in a room that made my voice sound different. I saw someone sitting right close to me to my right who was looking at me and did a cat’s meow as I looked at them. I think this has to do with the Lion inside of me (lyrics: So come on my soul, don’t you get shy on me lift up your song, you’ve got a Lion inside of those lungs, so get up and praise the Lord!). Yesterday we watched Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny. Something that stood out to me was when the main characters were out on the water in a boat and had cords attached to them as they jumped into the water and swam down to the floor below. Also the scene where they were in a cave and they needed to shout out to hear the echo, kind of reminds me of my dream about my voice. I think I dreamt something else last night but I can’t remember what it was. I had a really good sleep though, and I’m so glad about that! Changing the subject, my in-law gathering is on the 23rd and my side is on the 28th at my mom’s condo complex. I bought tickets for my husband and I to go see Laughing All The Way, excited about that!
I have a small thought, almost like a small glowing flame that has to do with putting my messages together. It’s been so difficult knowing how to put them together, so I’ve not been excited about it. But in the last week I’ve had an excitement in my heart when I think about it, which I believe is the Holy Spirit. I think now that the spiritual heaviness I’ve been feeling is gone, putting my messages together won’t be as difficult. Let’s see.. I’m only in the beginning stages of being excited about it. I think that when the ball gets rolling it’ll be a different story!! Blessings…..