“I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
Conversation
Papa, I love You with all my heart. I worship You Papa. Thank-You for Your deep love for me. I pray that You would give me a portion of Your love for others; give me Your heart of compassion for others -I want to carry this.
I love you My daughter -you shall have it. Come, the time is right.
Papa, is it even possible to do everything You’ve asked this night?
Yes it is.
Please Papa, give me courage, and please enable me to do everything You’re leading me to do today.
I will enable you My daughter.
Papa, the God of the universe, I will follow You today. It’s not about me or anyone else; it’s all about You.
My daughter, it’s time. Come and rest.
This verse comes to mind, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
Reflection
Hello and welcome to my Journal. Life in the valley can be very difficult, but we need to remember that God is always faithful. Right now I’m in a valley, being tested and pruned so that in God’s time I’ll be ready to walk out of this valley, Victorious! What I’ve been doing so I don’t stay in a place of despair is spending time with God and crying out to Him because I know He hears me and He loves me. I’m keeping on doing what He’s already asked me to do. I’m clinging onto hope because God is my firm foundation. God is faithful and I know that He will never let me down, and I’m going to stay faithful to Him. He has shown me His faithfulness more times than I can count, and I know His love through that. God gives me dreams and wakes me up at certain times. As you read my journal my hope is that even though I’m in a valley in my life, I hope you will be inspired to always keep your heart open to God no matter what’s going on in your life, because God is a God of Love and He always has a Good plan for our life. He knows how to lead us; we just need to trust Him and follow Him!
11:46 “Do what only you can do. You make all things new.”
1:00 “God of mercy and love, do what only You can do. You make all things new..”
3:09 “You make all things, all things, You make all things new.”
3:23/24 You make all things, all things You make all things new.” In my dream I saw a paper that had numbers in sequence. The numbers went from a bigger number going down to smaller numbers. The numbers didn’t go horizontal; they went down vertically and were on the right side of the paper (where the red line is on lined paper) I didn’t see what the higher number was and I didn’t see what the lowest number was. I’m sensing this has something to do with being able to follow today or not. I’m planning on opening my mouth as big and wide (to Jesus) as what the Holy Spirit did to me last Sunday. I believe opening my mouth represents speaking for God, and it’s really really humbling!!! But it’s not about me or anyone else, but about God.
3:50 “You make all things, all things, You make all things new.” After this I went downstairs to pray.
4:38 “Express” (like an Express train going very fast) I heard this word in my heart, and I’m hope this represents today!!!
5:15 “There’s no mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me. Oh the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God.” (There’s no shadow you won’t light up, mountain You won’t climb up, coming after me. There’s no wall You won’t kick down, lie You won’t tear down, coming after me. Oh the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God. Oh it chases me down fights till I’m found leaves the ninety nine. I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still You give yourself away. Oh the overwhelming, never ending, reckless love of God.)
I went to Shopgym today and I actually lifted (push press) 90lbs!!! (Last week I lifted 80) For the workout we did 3 sets of max reps (15 min total time) 400m row/ski pulls, 10 burpees, and the remainder time in the 3 minutes we did alternating dumbbell snatches. 3 min rest between sets. After completing the rowing/ski and burpees, I only got to doing 2 dumbbells snatches. It was a good workout! Lucas comes back around 6:00 today, and then we’ll head to the city. This is my 609th post!!! We didn’t have any hail yesterday; I felt the cold wind come suddenly, and I’m so thankful we weren’t hit! Thank-You Papa! Love and Blessings…
March 18 1:28 I saw a yellow Lady’s Slipper (flower). Yellow Lady slippers remind me of when I was about 12 years old; we had just moved to our twenty acre lot in the country (two miles south of Mitchell), and I was walking around in the bushes, picking all the yellow slippers I could find. If I would have known how rare they are in the wild, I wouldn’t have picked them. Because they remind me of moving to the country and how good it felt to be there, they are one of my favourite flowers, and they are beautiful.
3;48 “You make all things new.”
3:57 ..of my life, You made them whole again.. You made all things new.
I dreamt about Bella doing something; she was fixing something or she had fixed something. I’m sensing she was just done fixing something. It reminds me of the song, the lyrics, “…and fix what I’ve broken. Oh I need you to see, that you are the reason…”
7:11 You make all things new… Well, I did it!!! I made sure to do everything I needed to do, including putting 3 five dollar bills in the piggy bank! Later I also got my papers; I folded them and put them in my tote bag. I’m a bit worried about that because I’m not sure if in my dream that wasn’t a good thing. I did it because I did something like that in my dream and I didn’t want to miss anything. When I ask the Holy Spirit about it in my heart, I hear Him say to rest, and not to worry. The dream I had about when I was in the submarine and there was someone after us, the shape of the metal “door” was the shape of Walmarts symbol. When that gate closed, I was free from danger and then I was let out in a calm pond in a park on a sunny day. I’m thinking it’s all done? I opened my mouth for God, saying “yes Papa, yes Jesus…” I want to do everything God asks me to do. Today I’m taking Bella and her friend to the mall. This afternoon was a lot of fun for the girls:) When we got home I rested and fell asleep and woke up at 4:03 and had heard the words, “Hit the road Jack.” I’m so worried about what this could mean. I’m trusting in God and I’m pursuing Him with all my heart. I love You Papa, Jesus…
May 19: 1:53 “You make all things new…”
I saw a clear blue sky. I also dreamt that I was inside a bus at the front.
6:01 “…she’s apart of me, she’s my wife…”
6:05 “…she’s apart of me, she’s my wife…”
I dreamt that a man was overjoyed because he saw something about something that a lady hadn’t seen, and now he could take it home.
I had a small black remote in my hand, and there was a thing on the side of it that I pushed/slid to the third setting. And when I did that I could hear that it was the setting for the current time frame (the language wasn’t from the past, but from what was happening right now), and I was so relieved.
6:36 “My daughter, you made it.”
6:45 My daughter come, you are
Mine.
Papa please forgive me.
6:47 “I am near to you.”
Papa, I’m so worried…
Rest My dear one.
Papa, please forgive me for not resting when I think about that.
6:58 “I love you My dear one.”
7:03 “And let the peace of God rule over your heart.” (And the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.” -Colossians 3:15)
7:13 Papa, I receive Your Peace into my heart. Please forgive me for allowing it to go. I love You so very much.
7:16 I love you My daughter.
7:22 “…and the peace of God will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” (Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God. 7) And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6,7
7:32 Thank-You Papa. ThankYou for Your unfailing love. Thank You for Your patience with me. You are so Great! Your love endures forever!
7:35 “Come My daughter, and rest, you are Mine.”
After church today we went to Costco, and either on our way there or on the way home I saw a licence plate that reminds me of Fish; T for Transition? Transformation?
5:37 “Come” I took a ten min nap and heard this word in my heart as I awoke. It represents several things, but for today I believe it’s about writing my testimony because I was planning to work on it today. I’m determined to share my testimony next weekend, whether it’s for a few people in conversation or to the whole group. If I sense the Holy Spirit leading me, and if the door opens for me, I’m not going to say no to Him. I’ve missed too many opportunities in the past because either I didn’t know or I waited too long to jump in, and I don’t want that to happen again. I’m sensing from this morning that it’s all done! Of course I’m not exactly sure what it means that it’s all done because I still need (and want) to keep following Jesus, but I’m sensing that the battle in my heart to believe Gods love and will for my life and to believe Jesus’ love for me, is won, so it’s done!!! Also, the part where I need to raise my hand is all done? This is what I’m sensing so if I’m wrong, then I know the Holy Spirit will tell me in some way! So going forward I won’t raise my hand because I already believe.. this part is done. I truly believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins; it’s amazing for me to think about how many times I needed to raise my hand to fully believe it in my heart, not only in my mind. Another reason raising my hand was good for me is because it’s humbling and I needed to learn obedience and overcome the fear of what others thought of me. I’ve been working on my testimony and I think I’m basically done my first draft. I’ll edit it tomorrow. Tomorrow Lucas is going to Souris Agate Pits with some of his friends; one of his other friends is celebrating his birthday, so his dad is taking him and 4 friends there. He’s leaving at 7:30 AM, coming back (eating lasagna at his friends place at 5:00) by 6:00 and then he has a zoom class with DriverZ at 6:30. There’s no Shopgym class tomorrow. My eyelids are heavy.. goodnight…