Psalm 23:6
“Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
Conversation
My Papa, I love You and I worship You. Thank-you for Your patience with me. I know now what I said I’d do but I haven’t done yet; paint. I haven’t painted anything yet and I’m sorry. You’ve given me talent; I just need to practice and I know I’ll grow in it.
Yes you will. I love you Caroline. You are Mine.
Papa, do You have a word for me today?
Come. Rest. You are Mine.
Thank-you Papa for everything You’ve done in my life and in my heart. Help me to step out again and again, out of my comfort zone so that You can grow me up in You. You are the deepest desire of my heart and I want to grow closer to You everyday; I never want to stop growing closer to You and following You. I am Your disciple, Your daughter, Your servant, Your friend.
Caroline My faithful one. Come, you’ve been invited; draw close to Me. I have much to say to you.
Papa, my heart is open to You. Help me hear what You have to say. I love You and I worship You with all my heart.
Be anxious for nothing My sweet child. Have no fear, for I am surely with you. Never be afraid, for there are more for you than against you.
Papa, I recognize that a lot of my journey with You I’ve allowed fear to accompany us, and I’m sorry for that. I really don’t know how to live without it. I shake the dust off my feet and by faith I leave fear behind in Jesus name. Help me not to agree with fear as we walk forward. You are my strength and shield, and I trust You Papa. I wash myself spiritually clean right now in Jesus name.
Come My daughter, rest. I love you; you are Mine.
Reflection
Hi everyone, welcome to today’s page in my journal! The Lord wakes me up most nights at certain times after He’s given me a dream, which I sometimes don’t know the meaning of but other times I do, and it’s such a great comfort to my heart. I absolutely love sharing what God is doing in my heart, hoping it’ll inspire you to spend time with God everyday and grow the most fulfilling relationship with Him!
Today turned out to be very different than I had hoped! We’ve been having fridge issues, so we pulled it away from the wall and took everything out to see if we could find out why it was leaking. We’ve had it for as long as we lived here, thinking it was new when we bought the house about 12 years ago. So hopefully it won’t leak anymore.
I had a really good sleep last night and I’m so thankful! I woke up at 4:20 with lyrics in my mind but I don’t remember them. But I had a few dreams; In this one I was in Brazil, not in the main house but in some kind of shack behind the main house. I was in my room, trying on some new clothes. I remember feeling like I had been there so many times before that I was fine with going to this shack by myself. I vaguely saw a few people come beside me from the main house to see the clothes. It seemed like they were happy to see me -it was positive.
This next dream I believe is unrelated to the first one, though I’m trying on clothing again in this dream. I was in a clothing store, looking at a rack of clothing. This rack had a lower rack attached which had skirts on it. But these skirts weren’t hanging; it looked like they had been placed on the rack so that they were laying down over it (at the end of this part of the dream I think I had taken these skirts home to help organize them somehow, because they hadn’t been hanging on the rack.). Some of them were the ones I had bought last summer. One of them stood out to me more; the light beige one. Then I had a skirt in my hand that had a large flowery pattern on it, and I held it in front of me to see how it would fit. I saw that it was size Large and saw that it reached all the way down to the floor and had a lot of material. It was beautiful but too big. Then I wished that I would find a medium size and began looking for one. In my dream I had also found a mini skirt and had one in my hand that I giggled about. I don’t know if I saw these skirts in this order, but I also found a knee-high fitted skirt that looked comfortable. Then I was looking at a blouse that I’d normally not buy (I was holding it up with both of my hands), but then I thought to try it on to see how it would look (I think it also had a large flowery pattern). It had an equally rounded low neckline in the front and back (I saw the U as I held it up!). Then I had a rich dark green blouse in my hands that I thought looked beautiful and was going to buy. I don’t know the meaning of these dreams specifically but in general I think buying new clothing has something to do with changing the way I think, maybe about my identity in Christ?
The town track is finally open again so I went running; not my usual, just a 2K:) In the parking lot I had just started driving forward from parking when a little girl about 1 1/2 years, walked where I was going to drive, so I quickly stopped and she looked at me with a big smile on her face and waved. I waved back and smiled. Then her mom quickly came and we also smiled at each other. It was such a sweet exchange of smiles and waves:) It reminds me of something I read the other day; I’m ready Jesus!!!!! I took a nap in the afternoon and right before waking up I had these words in my heart, “A great priest.” Also, as I was getting ready to write my post I looked at a paper on my dest and saw that it was from the Youth Leaders Conference where it has information about Track 1 to Track 4. It reminds me of what I saw a week or two ago where I saw T1 right before waking up. On this paper, Track 1 is on Leadership. God has really been working in my heart about leadership, and as I grow in it, I won’t be afraid to walk in it! I really want this and I feel called to it. Changing the subject, I think in my last post I talked about a dream where I had said that I would do something but I hadn’t done it. I’ve been thinking about that and I remember there is something that I said I’d do but hadn’t done yet, which is painting. This is something that I really want to do but always push it aside because there’s always something more pressing to do. So I’m hopeful going to do it this week, maybe Saturday. I didn’t go to my mom’s today; she went to Winkler with my uncle and aunt. I need to finish watching two Wellness Wednesday videos tomorrow and also a sermon from my main pastor; I feel bad because I’ve totally forgotten to watch it. Then on Thursday I’m going to bake Christmas cookies for the youth on Friday; on Friday I’m meeting my mentor (in the morning) who moved to my town, which I can hardly believe! Then early afternoon I’m going for lunch with a friend of mine and getting a French manicure afterwards. I’m planning to go to Shopgym tomorrow morning; hopefully I’ll have a good sleep. I’m excited about Christmas this year! I haven’t been excited about it for a long time but this year is different for some reason.. Goodnight…. Many blessings…
December 6: Last night I woke up at 11:12 with these words in my heart, “I am free again.” Then at 2:40 I woke up with these lyrics in my heart, “I am who you say I am. You crown me with confidence I am seated, with the one who has conquered it all…” Then I woke up to my alarm at 4:20, and even though I had a good sleep I couldn’t get myself to get up. I heard the wind outside and imagined it snowing and me needing to scrape the car windows. Then in the morning I saw that it was actually not very cold out at all and that it hadn’t been snowing. The Lord gave me a few dreams after that, and because of them I believe that God still wants me to go to Shopgym at 5. I was thinking to go to the nooner classes.
I’m not sure about the sequence, but in this first scene I was standing at the back of a ship, looking down at some girls who were sitting cross legged on the floor, doing something like playing a game. The girls were about 5 or 6 years old. I saw that the girl had her back towards the edge of the boat where she was sitting close to. I vaguely saw her hanging over the edge, barely hanging on while still playing the game. Then she was sitting cross-legged again as if nothing had happened. I was standing there, making sure that she wouldn’t go over the edge, watching her while she was barely hanging on. Then I saw that someone had put a sliding wall there so that she was safe. There was a curtain that reached the floor that was covering it, so I lifted it up with the front of my foot and saw that there was a protective wall there. So then I was satisfied about their safety.
In this next scene I was still on the ship, and it was very busy with many people around doing things. I was walking along when a girl about 10 years old came and took my hand and led me into a room where there were other girls. They were practicing doing some kind of play. There were chairs put out for people to watch them. Then I was sitting beside their dad who looked like such a kind and genuine person. He had blondish hair. He turned his head to look at me and I saw a peaceful expression and a small smile on his face, and then I got up to go to the bathroom.
Then I was at the back of the ship again and I wanted to go more to the front. Because of the many people that I needed to walk around to my left, I walked up (on my right) onto a long platform where I saw there were less people, and I began running/jogging towards the front. I saw a person on the floor, passed out, and it was smokey on the ship from people smoking. There were some others standing around there too. Then when I got to the front of the ship, I saw that I wasn’t on my ship but on the enemy’s ship, and as soon as I had gotten onto the ship the ship began pulling away from the dock; it had been a trap! So then the guys on the ship all began holding onto me to capture me, but I was fighting them off and was planning to jump off the ship. I was nearly escaping; I felt their fingers holding onto my fingers when I awoke.
In this next dream I was in our house (not our house in waking life), and my husband was walking, telling me that he was having a headache. I asked him if I should call the ambulance and he said yes. So I called and was waiting for someone to pick up the phone. I saw that the olden day phone handle was laying on it’s side (left side) on the table, and then I had picked it up and was waiting for someone to pick up the phone on the other side. Then a young girl (maybe 10 years old) came on the phone and was saying something in French. I told her that I don’t speak French. Then she said something again in French, and I told her that I don’t speak French or that I didn’t understand what she was saying. So then she spoke English. Then the scene changed where the ambulance had arrived. I saw a few people walking. Then we were in some kind of dark room that was filled with water, and the ambulance slipped into the water and sank; I saw part of it as it was floating. Then I saw a woman (one of the ambulance attendants) standing in the water I think, saying something like, “that wasn’t planned” or something like that. I had also been standing in the water. The feeling I had about that room was that we were just passing through it in order to get where we needed to go.
Then the scene changed where I was outside close to the beach, and I saw someone was walking down the wooden stairs that led to the beach. He had a black rope that was attached to him, and the other end of the rope was attached to somewhere close to the top of the stairs, further away from where I was standing (I didn’t see where it was attached to.). As he was walking, the rope length shortened. I saw that he had made a loop with the rope on some boards that were sticking up, which shortened the length of the rope more than was necessary, so I hurriedly tried to undo it and straighten it out but then I realized that I couldn’t because both ends were tied onto something. Someone stopped on their way up the stairs and asked him if he would like some help and he said no, that his wife was helping him. I only sensed them asking him this question and I only sensed him answering this, but I heard the word, “wife.” This Friday I Will be going to Shopgym! Tomorrow I’ll be baking Christmas cookies. Blessings..