My daughter come, all is well with you. You are Mine and I love you. Draw near to me this day.
Dad…in my dream last night I was being pursued relentlessly and I was desperately calling out for help to a couple sitting together on a sofa -they lived in the house next door to mine. Thinking about this, this is how I feel, a bit alone in my walk with you, but I know I can’t follow my feelings and not record this week because you haven’t shown me that I can take a break. I so desperately want to hear from you and follow you in this.
What’s stopping you Caroline?
Father I’m sensing that fear is trying to stop me. Why does it always come down to this? I feel like a broken record.
Fear is relentless my faithful one. I’m near to you and will help you -just ask.
Father I do ask for your help.
I’m hidden with Christ in God: Col 3:3
I am the salt of the earth: Matthew 5:13
I am the light of the world: Matthew 5:14
I am a partaker of a heavenly calling: Hebrews 3:1
I am a part of the bride of Christ and am making myself ready for him: Revelation 19:7
I am a true worshiper who worships the Father in spirit and in truth: John 4:24
Father, I do worship you through my devotion to you. I know I can’t overcome every obstacle, but I also don’t want that to give me permission not to record this week because I see it plainly, the strategy of the enemy. I feel that you’ve empowered me through declaring these scriptures, so I really have no excuse. And really Father, I’ve learned to enjoy talking about you in my life. It’s just that I need to push through a heavy spiritual fog in order to get to that place, when everyone else is at home. When I’m by myself it’s so much easier.
Caroline, remember that I love you.
Dad, hearing you say that brings my heart into the right perspective. It also reminds me why I’m doing this, and that’s because of my love for you. Love settles it. Thank you Father, I’m secure in you.
Reflection:
Today I read in Ezekiel 37:4- “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! …I will make breath enter you and you will come to life.” Knowing that the Lord needs to awaken areas of my heart so that I can walk deeper into my calling, I declared this scripture over me, that God would breathe into these areas to make them come alive. I do feel spiritually dry and depleted, even though I spend time with God every day, and I hope that I’ve not fallen asleep at the feet of Jesus. I am encouraged though as I’m reminded that God does not abandon, but is also in the small messages I put together.
I’ve read the Narnia series about two or three times over the years to my children as they were growing up, but I’ve never finished any of his other books. I am curious about a few of them. I’m hoping that some of the restlessness I’m feeling lately will leave as I start reading more. In the book of my life though, I wish I could skip to the next chapter. I need to always remember that the Lord is with me wherever I go, and that he will always equip me for what he’s asked me to do.